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Tweak says, "I should go."

Taiki (unicursed) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2010-07-22 00:20:00

Entry tags:

!days 150-159, {kohaku}, {sohma rin}, {{{cloud strife}}}, {{{revan}}}, {{{taiki}}}

Who: Cygnus and whoeverrrr
Where: Cygnus dorms
When: Day 151, mid-morning
What: Memory berries

[Swans fresh from the game and now home. Victory! Mostly. Taiki sets five (5) berries on ye ole table.]

Is anyone in?

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	unicursed 2010-07-22 09:29 am UTC (link)
	[oi...] Have a good hunt? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-22 09:34 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Have a good game? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-22 09:37 am UTC (link)
	It was. Kevin and I were able to get memories for us, this time. It'll be Ink's first one, too. [motions to Rin] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-22 09:46 am UTC (link)
	Aah... congratulations. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-22 09:48 am UTC (link)
	Thank-you. Do you want yours, Cloud? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-22 09:58 am UTC (link)
	[shrugs vaguely, but goes up to him to take it] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-22 10:05 am UTC (link)
	[A maido with the scent of blood :/...] So you helped them, too. That's good. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-22 10:25 am UTC (link)
	[at least his geostigma is still super awesome cleared up] . . .It's Aeris' team. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-22 10:29 am UTC (link)
	The girl with the long hair. I've never spoken to her, but you're good friends? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-22 10:39 am UTC (link)
	. . . She's my girlfriend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-22 10:43 am UTC (link)
	[nods] I see. Do you take your memories when you're with her, then? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-22 11:10 am UTC (link)
	I haven't been taking my memories. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-22 11:14 am UTC (link)
	[blink] Why not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-22 12:22 pm UTC (link)
	It's not worth it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-22 05:39 pm UTC (link)
	...What do you mean? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-23 12:38 am UTC (link)
	I mean it's not worth it. I don't need to remember any more. I shouldn't have in the first place. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-23 12:54 am UTC (link)
	You shouldn't have? That doesn't sound right, to me... What's wrong? Have they all been bad? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-23 01:03 am UTC (link)
	Do you really wanna know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-23 01:10 am UTC (link)
	...I do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

lets_mosey
2010-07-23 01:58 am UTC (link)

. . .

[>( turns his back, resting his hands on the counter]

I'm just-- I was turned into a monster. I have multiple memories of the same incident where I remember two completely different things. They don't make sense. Or I feel like I'm a different person. I don't know what's true or not anymore, but I know that I'm a puppet that betrayed his friends and tried to destroy everything with someone I hate. And when I'm not that, I'm weak. The two people I love the most died in front of me and I could do nothing. My village was burned down. Someone that I...

[Fzzzt zzzt. No, that's missing.]

I never protected anyone in any of my memories.

If I want to hold on any more at all to feeling any sense of guilt, or feeling like I should at least still protect my team, then I have to stop.

So I'm not taking my memories.

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	unicursed 2010-07-23 02:12 am UTC (link)
	...Cloud... [What do you say to that??] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-23 02:16 am UTC (link)
	Understand? I'll do whatever I can to protect Cygnus and Pyxis. It's all I can do that's not Sephiroth's bidding. Aeris and Zack want me to keep trying. If I take more memories it'll just be more of that. So I'm not taking them. There's nothing in my past that's worth anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-23 02:29 am UTC (link)
	That Ophiuchus? Why his "bidding"? There has to be something good in there, right? And you won't know until you remember. But even if think they're not worth it, they're still yours... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lets_mosey 2010-07-23 02:35 am UTC (link)
	I'm his puppet. Most of what's good in there died. I don't want to remember Trixie or Red dying too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unicursed 2010-07-23 02:42 am UTC (link)
	[The Vulpecula and Cepheus?] I don't understand. Does he tell you to do things? What do you do when you're not here? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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