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Watanuki Kimihiro [四月一日君尋] (AKA Buttercup) (ghostduster) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2010-07-12 20:49:00

Entry tags:

!days 140-149, albert de morcerf, allen walker, apollo justice, ashikawa mitsuru, edward elric, howard link, kudo shinichi, sumeragi kururu, watanuki kimihiro, {howell jenkins}, {kurogane}, {{{james t. kirk}}}, {{{miranda lotto}}}

Who: Watanuki + anyone
Where: Baths!
When: Day 148, early morning
What: Morning bath! And moontime mingly post.

[after the mess that was yesterday, there's a noodle trying vainly to bathe himself. getting soap and ... actually getting into the bath without running into things is proving to be stupid hard without his glasses.]

-- ow! S-since when has that been there?

(( Sleep! I'll be back to pick stuff up later. ))

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	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 04:34 pm UTC (link)
	. . . But is just another day in this place. We're all alive, aren't we? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 04:36 pm UTC (link)
	Ah... yeah. ... Forget it, sorry. Dumb question. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 04:42 pm UTC (link)
	Razzy and Watanuki are both quite hurt. And I'm certainly unhappy about my entire team being put in the spotlight and tormented. But nothing is over. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 04:47 pm UTC (link)
	Unhappy? That happens to you and the most you can work up is "unhappy"? ... Does everyone here end up like this? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	$Allen Walker (Star): :\$ pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 04:52 pm UTC (link)
	. . . "Like this," huh? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 04:54 pm UTC (link)
	You can't tell me you felt the same way you do now about it as when you first woke up here. You can't! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 05:07 pm UTC (link)
	Of course I don't. But don't misunderstand. I'm not reigning in my anger out of some feeling of complacency. I'm aware of the rules and what happens if I break them. Even if I can't force myself to adjust and adapt, I still can't give up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 05:12 pm UTC (link)
	... You didn't do anything wrong, though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 05:14 pm UTC (link)
	No, she didn't. This is a matter of understanding cause and effect. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 05:15 pm UTC (link)
	What...? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 05:52 pm UTC (link)
	We were made an example of. In this world, you have to understand the situation you're in. In this case, it simply isn't allowed to give yourself up too freely in games. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 05:56 pm UTC (link)
	That's...! That's just messed up! It wasn't like it was easy for her to do that in the first place, either! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 06:02 pm UTC (link)
	Well, it is still a choice. But the result is your entire team and yourself suffering. So there is no real "choice" that results in being the only one hurt. It is either someone in a game, or someone later. Honestly, it's amazing, that such a little girl would choose to be hurt herself, over strangers. Normal people aren't like that. Even normal kind people. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 06:05 pm UTC (link)
	And what if everyone just simultaneously refuses, huh? To play their games, or to kill people? What then? They can't kill us all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 06:07 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, actually, they can. And nobody will do that. I won't. I don't intend to just lie like a dead fish while they strike me with lightning because of some preconception I have of what's "good." We didn't die. You're talking to me right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pierrotdetous
2010-07-13 06:17 pm UTC (link)

That wasn't "death." And I . . . can't give up. Nobody should. I want what the Judges can give me.

It's impossible for us all to understand each other on the same level. But I think everyone is just trying to live here, and doing what they feel they have to. We're all in it together, even if we're opponents.

Can you really ignore what just happened? Can you truly be shocked that humans are choosing to play the Games, when you know very well why they are doing it now?

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	assumedposition 2010-07-13 06:24 pm UTC (link)
	So just because people don't die for good, that makes it better? I won't believe that. No matter how you try to justify it... murder is still murder! And maybe it's different for you, but if my life was bad enough before that I had to come to this sort of place to fix it, then maybe I don't want to remember it! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 06:31 pm UTC (link)
	It isn't a justification, and it doesn't make it any less "torture." It's just the truth. You can choose not to remember. I want my old life, even if there's a lot of sadness in it. I know it's frustrating. I . . . have been here for months, after all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 06:39 pm UTC (link)
	Whose truth? The truth is something we make for ourselves. Maybe that's the world you're prepared to accept, but I'm not. I can't. ... Sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 06:43 pm UTC (link)
	. . . Hopefully you won't remember the difference. Aah. I remember being angry at someone taking things so calmly. Though it was more that he wasn't calm at all inside. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 06:46 pm UTC (link)
	And I suppose you are? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 06:53 pm UTC (link)
	. . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	assumedposition 2010-07-13 06:58 pm UTC (link)
	But hey, what do I know? I'm just the new kid who doesn't know anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-13 07:06 pm UTC (link)
	. . . I don't think your feelings are wrong, Simba. And you absolutely don't have to apologize for your own choices to me. They're yours to make. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)