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Tweak says, "Balls."

Rooms anonymous (roomsanon) wrote in rooms,
@ 2014-05-13 21:01:00

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*journal, anonymous, helena wayne, trystan chenille

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Ever hope that you'll fall asleep and find a sweet dream to never wake up from?

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	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:23 am UTC (link)
	Who makes you want to hate yourself? I know enough to say that it's never just ourselves. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:25 am UTC (link)
	I'm a selfish thing that puts people through hell. I've not done anything good with my life in some time. I'm a burden on everyone around me and every time I attempt to do something good, it fails. I fall. I can't spend my life falling. I can't spend my life being something people hate. I can't keep hating myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:28 am UTC (link)
	Tell me the selfish things that you've done. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:32 am UTC (link)
	I'm needy and I give very little in return. I put myself before other people. I can't even be honest because I don't want people to get upset with me, so I keep even the truth to myself. It's always about me, you see. I want to be loved, but even I wouldn't love me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:34 am UTC (link)
	Is this what others have said about you, or just what you've decided about yourself? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:37 am UTC (link)
	In as many words. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:39 am UTC (link)
	Which one? That particular mixture of self-loathing and narcissism tends to be strictly one or the other. No offense. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:40 am UTC (link)
	It's all so blurred now I don't know what's been told to me and what I've come up with on my own. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:47 am UTC (link)
	There was someone, at some point, who fucked you up. Think about their name. That should be the person you hate, but instead you've been brainwashed to hate yourself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:51 am UTC (link)
	i knwo who it was and i know their name and i do hate them i reallyd o. things are just... ever get close enough to someone to where its hard to tell you and them apart? it was ike that, but not in agood way. and i dont know what was them and what was me and its all messed up in my head (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:54 am UTC (link)
	No. I haven't ever let myself get that close to someone. Why don't you talk to someone? Someone who can help you? Don't say that you've tried, because it clearly didn't fucking stick. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:56 am UTC (link)
	i dont knwo who else ot talk to at this point. i had a guy once. i liked him. but he wont see me anymore. i cant even remebr why now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 04:00 am UTC (link)
	[...] What was he like? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 04:03 am UTC (link)
	kind. understanding. he had a really nice voice to listen to. made you think everything coudl be alright. i wasnt a good patient though. i wanted a quick fix and it asnt going to be and i was just difficult. he was so patient until he couldnt be with me anymore and its okay. i brought it on myself, yknow? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 04:29 am UTC (link)
	You were a patient, or a significant other? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 12:49 pm UTC (link)
	A patient. Only ever a patient. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 08:13 pm UTC (link)
	No one ever told you that quick fixes aren't the ones that stick? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 08:13 pm UTC (link)
	No, they've told me. I just kept hoping I'd be different. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-15 12:15 am UTC (link)
	Maybe you wanted to fail. To prove to yourself that you're as worthless as you feel. It would be easier than really trying, and risk truly failing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-15 12:19 am UTC (link)
	Also a very real possibility. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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