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vii (luckiestnumber) wrote in rooms,
@ 2015-05-27 04:10:00

Entry tags:

*journal, *voice, helena wayne, liam roberts, marta flores, sam alexander, seven morgan

Marta, Liam, Sam, Helena
[Phone call to Marta. The second that she picks up:]

For the love of god, tell me that you're fucking alright. Both of you.

[Liam, after hesitation]

You make it?

[Sam]

Honey?

[Helena]

No catastrophic vehicular accidents this time around, that's got to count as an improvement.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-28 06:47 am UTC (link)
	She wanted to be old? Why the fuck would she want to be old? Cris M, nosy. He's on here. Yeah, yeah, he treats me good. Ok, that's a good answer. I knew the people who walked into my headspace, so I don't have to go looking or whatever, not this time. Anything new with Liam? I haven't heard from him in a while. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Sam A/Seven M

luckiestnumber
2015-05-28 06:56 am UTC (link)

She's not old. [See? He's totes got your back, Marta. Please don't kick him out of his own bed again tonight.] She just [...] saw the way that people looked at me when we went to her appointments, or the baby classes. And I guess she hated that.

Tell me you know more than his last initial, honey.

[Heavy pause.] I haven't heard from Liam in a long time. Trystan's back, so I assumed they've been occupying each other. And even though I worry about him, I also don't have time to deal with his shit right now. Not with Bean coming soon.

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tinieblas
2015-05-28 07:26 am UTC (link)

Yeah. I get it. I date old guys, so I know what that shit's like.

He has some hyphenated accented name, ok? I was saving myself trouble. It's Martin-Aguels or something like that.

I been out of the loop. Trystan? Shit. And, yeah, I get it. Things got complicated. I went to Gotham to try to help him, and he bailed on me. I got health shit now, and I can't go very far. No big deal stuff, just more of the same, but I'm trying to be more careful, yk?

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-05-28 07:33 am UTC (link)
	Oh my god, you better not be calling me old. You bitch. Do you love him? [...] I told Liam that I love him. And it was okay for about one night, and then he fucked off. And now Tryst wants to buy smack off me all the time, and I'm sure he's shooting Liam up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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tinieblas
2015-05-28 07:39 am UTC (link)

How old are you, old man?

Don't start. I feel like it's this fucking rush to the finish line, and saying I love you is the finish line. I care about him a lot, and I want to be around him all the fucking time, and the fucking is amazing. He's good to me, and I don't think I had that before this, not like this.

WHAT? Why did he fuck off? [Pen.] Man, Trystan was such bad fucking news.

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luckiestnumber
2015-05-28 07:43 am UTC (link)

Thirty-eight this year. Is that awful?

Sweetheart, don't take me for some asshole who thinks himself a dating expert, but -- those are all good things. Like, good things. Like that's what you fucking deserve. And it doesn't matter about the finish line, as long as he knows how good he's got it with you.

[Lip bite.] Something I did? Fuck if I know. Whatever it is, I'm just not good enough for him. I'm moving on at this point, yeah? I've got a live-in and a baby coming.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-28 07:57 am UTC (link)
	That's in fox range, baby. I'm a mess, Seven, and I worry he's going to get tired of waiting, yeah? I mean, I waited years for Neil to say it. It felt like shit, and I don't want to make anyone feel like that. Fuck it. You got a good thing, yeah? You in love with her yet? Yeah, I'm a hypocrite, shut the fuck up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-05-30 04:27 am UTC (link)
	Spoken like a chick with a fetish for old dudes, darling. You want to talk about mess? I'm a fucking trainwreck, Sam. After Liam? Hell, after Theo? I'm the farthest thing from having my shit together. And, yeah, I'm the asshole saying that he doesn't do love or relationships. But I love her, and she knows that. We make it work, in our own way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-30 04:31 am UTC (link)
	They're more mature or something, ok. There's different kinds of love, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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luckiestnumber
2015-05-30 04:50 am UTC (link)

Fuck off with your 'mature' bullshit, Sam. At least in my case, you know that's not true. I'm an overgrown man-child commitaphobe who drinks like a fish and barely believes in consequences for my shitty actions.

I'm in love with her. She knows that, because I've said it. I'm fucking crazy about her, yeah? And if you'd asked me if this shit would ever happen, even a year and a half ago? I'd have laughed in your face.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-30 04:59 am UTC (link)
	You're still more mature than a twenty year old. You might think that's fucking shit, but it isn't. You relate to shit different. How do you know for sure? I'm not asking because I doubt your shit. I'm asking because you sound so fucking sure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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luckiestnumber
2015-05-30 05:28 am UTC (link)

I don't know that I do know for sure, Sam. [Involuntary snort.] It doesn't always work like that. But the fact that I'm not freaked out about it anymore? Having a kid, and her living with me, and the fact that we actually have a really solid communication that enables an open relationship? That's a pretty good indication, in my eyes. The fact that I want to see her every day, and that I can't wait to have this baby and start raising her and have our weird little version of a family? That's how I know.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-30 05:30 am UTC (link)
	She's ok with the open thing? You don't think she's just saying it or something? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-05-30 05:44 am UTC (link)
	That happened before she got pregnant. We talked it out, and we came up with some rules. It works for us, y'know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-30 05:45 am UTC (link)
	But you think she means it, yeah? You mean it? If she went and fucked someone, you wouldn't be jealous? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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luckiestnumber
2015-06-02 08:51 am UTC (link)

[Pause, but it's a thoughtful one.] Before Bean? After we talked out our arrangement? Yeah, I'd have been jealous. Not pissed at her, and I wouldn't have said anything, but jealous. Which is in itself a huge step up from how I'dve felt about it with anyone else, you know?

But now - I don't know, I've got some fucking perspective on what matters to me. And it's not that shit anymore.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-02 09:02 am UTC (link)
	And you're happy? I mean, fucking terrified, yeah? But happy? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-02 10:36 am UTC (link)
	I'm a lot of things these days, but yeah. Happy's one of them. Okay, so not starting with the big questions like some asshole. How about you tell me how you do feel? With this guy or, whatever, anything else going on. You said you're taking care of your health stuff, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-02 04:09 pm UTC (link)
	Shit is fucked up, but it's always weird, yeah? I'm not using, and I'm trying to work on ppl being in my life without it driving me to a needle, so I guess it's good, yeah? Ups and downs. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-02 11:04 pm UTC (link)
	To put it mildly. But yeah, I think as long as there are also ups, the downs are normal. And you're not pulling away from the assholes like me who care about you, which has got to be a good thing. [...] Just do me a favour, okay? If you hear from Liam, just [...] be careful. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-02 11:51 pm UTC (link)
	[Pen.] I won't ask him for a hook up, baby. I promise, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-02 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	Not what I meant, Sam. Just that he can be destructive. I know you know that, but so do I, and look how good that's done me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-03 12:35 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, yeah, I know, baby. I know. But we remember what he was like before, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-03 12:57 am UTC (link)
	You mean before-before? Way before? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-03 12:59 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Way the fuck then. Shit. It's been forever, yeah? Before Tristan. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)