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vii (luckiestnumber) wrote in rooms,
@ 2015-05-27 04:10:00

Entry tags:

*journal, *voice, helena wayne, liam roberts, marta flores, sam alexander, seven morgan

Marta, Liam, Sam, Helena
[Phone call to Marta. The second that she picks up:]

For the love of god, tell me that you're fucking alright. Both of you.

[Liam, after hesitation]

You make it?

[Sam]

Honey?

[Helena]

No catastrophic vehicular accidents this time around, that's got to count as an improvement.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-28 07:57 am UTC (link)
	That's in fox range, baby. I'm a mess, Seven, and I worry he's going to get tired of waiting, yeah? I mean, I waited years for Neil to say it. It felt like shit, and I don't want to make anyone feel like that. Fuck it. You got a good thing, yeah? You in love with her yet? Yeah, I'm a hypocrite, shut the fuck up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-05-30 04:27 am UTC (link)
	Spoken like a chick with a fetish for old dudes, darling. You want to talk about mess? I'm a fucking trainwreck, Sam. After Liam? Hell, after Theo? I'm the farthest thing from having my shit together. And, yeah, I'm the asshole saying that he doesn't do love or relationships. But I love her, and she knows that. We make it work, in our own way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-30 04:31 am UTC (link)
	They're more mature or something, ok. There's different kinds of love, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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luckiestnumber
2015-05-30 04:50 am UTC (link)

Fuck off with your 'mature' bullshit, Sam. At least in my case, you know that's not true. I'm an overgrown man-child commitaphobe who drinks like a fish and barely believes in consequences for my shitty actions.

I'm in love with her. She knows that, because I've said it. I'm fucking crazy about her, yeah? And if you'd asked me if this shit would ever happen, even a year and a half ago? I'd have laughed in your face.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-30 04:59 am UTC (link)
	You're still more mature than a twenty year old. You might think that's fucking shit, but it isn't. You relate to shit different. How do you know for sure? I'm not asking because I doubt your shit. I'm asking because you sound so fucking sure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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luckiestnumber
2015-05-30 05:28 am UTC (link)

I don't know that I do know for sure, Sam. [Involuntary snort.] It doesn't always work like that. But the fact that I'm not freaked out about it anymore? Having a kid, and her living with me, and the fact that we actually have a really solid communication that enables an open relationship? That's a pretty good indication, in my eyes. The fact that I want to see her every day, and that I can't wait to have this baby and start raising her and have our weird little version of a family? That's how I know.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-30 05:30 am UTC (link)
	She's ok with the open thing? You don't think she's just saying it or something? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-05-30 05:44 am UTC (link)
	That happened before she got pregnant. We talked it out, and we came up with some rules. It works for us, y'know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-05-30 05:45 am UTC (link)
	But you think she means it, yeah? You mean it? If she went and fucked someone, you wouldn't be jealous? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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luckiestnumber
2015-06-02 08:51 am UTC (link)

[Pause, but it's a thoughtful one.] Before Bean? After we talked out our arrangement? Yeah, I'd have been jealous. Not pissed at her, and I wouldn't have said anything, but jealous. Which is in itself a huge step up from how I'dve felt about it with anyone else, you know?

But now - I don't know, I've got some fucking perspective on what matters to me. And it's not that shit anymore.

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	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-02 09:02 am UTC (link)
	And you're happy? I mean, fucking terrified, yeah? But happy? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-02 10:36 am UTC (link)
	I'm a lot of things these days, but yeah. Happy's one of them. Okay, so not starting with the big questions like some asshole. How about you tell me how you do feel? With this guy or, whatever, anything else going on. You said you're taking care of your health stuff, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-02 04:09 pm UTC (link)
	Shit is fucked up, but it's always weird, yeah? I'm not using, and I'm trying to work on ppl being in my life without it driving me to a needle, so I guess it's good, yeah? Ups and downs. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-02 11:04 pm UTC (link)
	To put it mildly. But yeah, I think as long as there are also ups, the downs are normal. And you're not pulling away from the assholes like me who care about you, which has got to be a good thing. [...] Just do me a favour, okay? If you hear from Liam, just [...] be careful. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-02 11:51 pm UTC (link)
	[Pen.] I won't ask him for a hook up, baby. I promise, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-02 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	Not what I meant, Sam. Just that he can be destructive. I know you know that, but so do I, and look how good that's done me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-03 12:35 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, yeah, I know, baby. I know. But we remember what he was like before, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-03 12:57 am UTC (link)
	You mean before-before? Way before? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-03 12:59 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Way the fuck then. Shit. It's been forever, yeah? Before Tristan. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-03 01:02 am UTC (link)
	[Cursor blink.] Everything would be easier if I didn't remember. You know I was his cupid? His wish-granter? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-03 01:22 am UTC (link)
	[Pen.] Liam's? I had Neil's new fucking gf, yeah? And she wanted me to make him fucking marry her. I had to listen to endless bullshit about how he loved her. What did Liam ask for? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-03 01:42 am UTC (link)
	Christ, seriously? What the fuck did you even end up doing for that? [Cursor blink, blink, blink.] He wanted to remember me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-03 01:43 am UTC (link)
	I wished it, but gave it a time limit, yeah? She said he was into it, but he wasn't ready or whatever. At least that's what he said to me. IDK. Shit with Neil and me and Meredith and Cris, it's all fucked. [Pen.] Fuck. Whoa. Did you not want to grant it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M luckiestnumber 2015-06-03 01:46 am UTC (link)
	Let me guess - big incestuous mess of fuckery, huh? I didn't want to give him back the bad stuff, but he swore he wanted all of it. Good with the shit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Seven M tinieblas 2015-06-03 02:02 am UTC (link)
	Only in Meredith and Cris' heads, yeah? Me and Neil aren't anything. [Pen.] What happened after? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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