MichaelOwnsMe (foreverbm) wrote in qaf_drabbles, @ 2008-01-22 12:46:00 |
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Entry tags: | author: foreverbm, challenge #48: angst |
Challenge #48 - Angst
Title: Love and Other Bruises (Parts 62 - END)
Author: Foreverbm
Timeline: Season 3 - Post 308
A/N: Thank you to everyone for putting up with what turned out to be something much much longer than anticipated. I enjoyed writing it but doubt it is something I would attempt again. I hope I did my beloved boys proud.
Condoms: 3 to Michael
(62)
I looked up at him, his blue eyes dark with emotion, a mixture of fear waiting for my answer and love shining from them. I wondered for a moment if he knew just how much I loved him, how a future with him was what I craved and dreamt of from the minute I laid eyes on him.
“I need to know that if anything ever happens like this again that you will talk to me. I know you need to think things through, take time with decisions that need to be made. That is part of who you are”
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(63)
I took a deep breath.
Would I be able to put the words together to say what had to be said.
“I told you from the beginning that I accepted any risks that came from us being together. I still do and always will. We are careful but accidents happen. If it did, the chances of me becoming infected are remote, I know that. I have read what do to if it ever happened. There are drugs available, antiretroviral medications, that would stop any infection occurring. But what you did, exposing me to it through drug abuse is different.”
“Michael…..”
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(64)
“Listen! I can understand why you did it. You thought it was what you needed to get through Paul’s death, thoughts of your own mortality closing in on you. But you have to promise me that it will never happen again. I will always be here for you, I need to know that is enough, that you will never turn to drugs again to solve problems. They are not the answer. Love is. And I love you”
I held my breath, waiting for his answer. I knew what it would be, but I needed to hear the words.
“I promise”