MichaelOwnsMe (foreverbm) wrote in qaf_drabbles, @ 2008-01-20 16:21:00 |
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Entry tags: | author: foreverbm, challenge #48: angst |
Challenge #48 - Angst
Title: Love and Other Bruises (Parts 21 - 25)
Author: Foreverbm
Timeline: Season 3 - post 308
A/N: Thanks to vamphille for being awake at 1.30am to answer some questions and apologies to Brian fans if I don't have him right
Condoms: 5 to Michael
“So…what are you doing here....Trouble in paradise?”
I expected a smirk to accompany his words but for once it was missing. He knew me well enough to know when to leave the domestically jokes aside.
“Yeah…something like that. I told Ben to choose between me and the steroids…”
“And seeing you are here…and not at home fucking your brains out…I don’t have to ask what his decision was”
The warnings that Brian had given me weeks ago came back to haunt me. I had listened to them but chose to ignore them. Any decisions made had to be mine alone.
(22)
My hand was beginning to ache again and what felt like a hundred hammers were starting to do a tap dance in my head.
“Got any aspirin?”
Brian walked to the bathroom, stopping by the kitchen to grab a glass of water, before handing me two pills. I swallowed them fast, hoping they would quickly work their magic. I handed the glass back to him and he finally noticed by hand.
“What happened?”
“Cut myself on a knife while getting dinner ready”
“Haven’t I told you cooking is a dangerous business. Why do you think take out was invented”
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(23)
I couldn’t help but let a small smile twitch at my lips.
He took the glass from me and led me to the couch, sitting me down then disappeared again, coming back minutes later with a damp wash cloth and band-aid.
I grimaced when he pulled the blood soaked band-aid off but the coolness of the water as he wiped away the fresh blood was soothing and I slowly felt myself begin to relax.
I was grateful for the time he was giving me to compose myself.
The questions would begin soon enough and I knew they would be relentless.
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(24)
“You going to tell me what happened?”
I took a deep breath and began to recount the last hours, haltingly at first then all the words just tumbled out of me.
Brian sat there, not saying a word until I finished with the moment I ended up at his loft.
“You made the right decision”
“I know but I still feel like I have some how abandoned him when he really needs me”
“You’ve given him more than enough chances to talk and he hasn’t taken them. There was nothing else you could do. You had to think of yourself.”
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(25)
I knew Brian was right but it still hurt.
“I didn’t want it to come to this. I love him.”
“He knows that but what happens now is up to him.”
“What if he decides the steroids are more important than our life and future together.
If that happens, we both end up losers”
Brian looked at me and I could see a touch of impatience in his eyes.
“Mikey…enough ok. You’ve both made your decisions, nothing can change that. You can’t put your life on hold waiting for him to finally wake up to what he’s doing to himself”