WE ALL DESERVE A SECOND CHANCE Title: We All Deserve a Second Chance Written By:positive_pat Timeline: Episode 308 Prompt: It Seemed Like a Good Idea At The Time Author's Notes: This ficlet is complete as it is. But I have some ideas to hopefully in the future make it into a short series.
Brian's POV
Brian looked over at the clock on the nightstand, the time was 3:00 am. He laughed to himself as he reached over and ran his hand down Justin's back. Justin was fast asleep having good dreams, Brian hoped.
“Well Sunshine, I am home on time and so are you,” Brian whispered as he leaned over and gently kissed Justin on the forehead. God he was so beautiful when he slept. Brian sat up, lit a cigarette, leaned back against the stack of pillows behind him on the bed and began to think about the night they had just experienced.
It had been an amazing night. Justin had come to my office after hours, and had maneuvered his way back into my life. Well actually, I hadn't put up much of a fight, since I wanted him back as much as he wanted to be back. It had then been hot, needy office sex, then home to the loft for hot, needy loft sex and then trying to keep our hands off each other as we got ready to leave for Babylon.
We enjoyed each other again as we danced at Babylon, holding, touching, kissing but then we had to have each other again so we headed home for more sex. But once here, this time it was different. The sex was not hot & needy but slow & loving. Shit, okay I have to admit it. It was making love and so slowly, gently, beautifully, as Justin & I rediscovered each other from head to toe. “God, I missed my Sunshine when he was gone,” Brian whispered to himself.
With Teary eyes, Brian reached over and again ran his hand down the sleeping figure beside him. Not really believing Justin was back in his bed, back in his life, right by his side. Brian put out his cigarette and leaned back his eyes never leaving the sleeping figure beside him.
Why did I ever let him go with the fiddler in the first place? It seemed like a good idea at the time. Justin wanted me to say and do things I have never done before, and still don't know if I can. My emotions are not wired like his are. It is so easy for him to express his feelings and to trust people, his smile alone can do that. But I am damaged goods. Yes, admit it Kinney, you are so young, beautiful and confident on the outside, but emotionally crippled on the inside. I don't know if I can ever fix my broken wing but I am trying.
I will never admit to anyone how much I missed Justin while he was off playing house with the fiddler. I really did a good job of hiding the hurt, the want, the missing of Sunshine. No one knew that every time I saw him, it ripped my heart out and if I saw him with the fiddler, I wanted to kill that man that had taken Justin from me.
No wait, I hate to admit it but the fiddler didn't take Justin from me, I let him go. I could have given Sunshine what he wanted and the fiddler would have been history. But I didn't, I wouldn't so I let him go. Fuck, I let him go to run straight into the arms of the fiddler. It seemed like a good idea at the time, the “right” thing to do.
But it wasn't. It was the biggest mistake of my life. I almost lost him forever. If the fucking fiddler hadn't been such a lying, cheating piece of shit, Justin would've stayed with him forever and I would have never gotten him back. Bravo to the fiddler, for being the scum bag I knew he was.
So here we are back together and hopefully this time for good. I still can't give Justin what he needs from me, but I am working on it slowly. Sunshine deserves the best. He has been through so much with the bashing, the fiddler and my shit. But here he is, with me and we have a second chance to make this right.
Brian scoots down in the bed and cuddles up behind Justin. He wraps his arm around his sleeping Sunshine and lightly kisses the back of his head, as he smells the sweet fragrance of Justin's hair.
Brian's last thought as he slowly falls back to sleep is, Everyone deserves a Second Chance don't they, a chance to make things right that they have fucked up the first time around? I'm not a trusting person but I believe in Second Chances. It seems like a good idea at this time.