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Tweak says, "Pancakes are love"

Jason Murphy (jmurph) wrote in providence_rpg,
@ 2008-10-15 22:42:00

Awkwardness, anyone?
WHO: Jason & Kate
WHAT: Kate's shadowing him at work.
WHERE: Gunter Studios.
WHEN: ALL DAY. Lmfao.
RATING: Who knows? TBD.
OPEN? To

stillnotkatie only.

To say that Jason was a little nervous and apprehensive about Kate shadowing him at work would be a complete understatement. While he did want to see her again and spend some time with her, he knew that things couldn't be like they had been before. They weren't together anymore, they weren't dating. He had a girlfriend, she had a boyfriend. They were only going to be friends, and that was really for the best. Though Jason had never really completely gotten over Kate, he knew that they could really be no more than friends. Things couldn't miraculously return to the way they had been when he had said goodbye to her when she left to come here. He couldn't hold open his arms and let her run into them and hug and kiss her, no matter how much he thought about it. And then, after thinking about it, he always felt incredibly guilty.

Pushing all those thoughts out of his head, Jason focused on the task at hand. He was sitting at his desk about ten minutes before Kate was scheduled to show up, and he couldn't exactly concentrate on the things he was supposed to do today. He had saved some developing for a project for when she showed up, to give her something to do. He figured that, since she was a photography student now, she knew how to develop without his help. Which just made him smile, of course. He couldn't get over the sense of pride and the little bit of nostalgia he felt whenever he thought about Kate going into photography. However small of a part he played in that decision, he still played a part in a huge decision in her life. It touched him, really. And then he ended up feeling guilty again. 'Hey, Jason! There's a Kathleen Shore here to see you? She says that she's supposed to be career shadowing you.' Jason looked up at the sound of his co-worker's voice, and he nodded. "Yeah, send her on back, please," he said, reaching a hand up to run through his hair. He needed to get his head together, and fast.

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stillnotkatie
2008-10-23 11:19 pm UTC (link)

Kate smiled at Jason, he knew best out of everyone how much in love with music Kate was. She didn’t really play anything anymore, and rarely sung in public, but she just loved music and the industry in general. Being able to go to a class and talk about music and how it has been influenced through out the last fifty years was amazing for Kate. She loved the class and was so happy that she could do it for school. “I really do love that class, it is so awesome. My favourite, by far,” Kate said with a grin. Kate liked most of her classes, especially her photography ones that were hands on, but nothing could beat out music.

Once Jason felt the film and saw that it was dry Kate pushed herself away from the counter and got ready to do some more work. Though, developing film with Jason would never seem like work to her because she used to sit and help Jason develop films all of the time on the island just for fun. Well, they would develop films when they were not making out and taking off- ok, chairs. Think of chairs. “Sound’s good,” Kate said, taking the strips from Jason and then the black bag that was full of photo paper. She nodded her head as he explained the size to her and took the template that he passed her. Kate kept all of the things she needed at her station, including the photo paper in the black bag. She got to work pretty quickly, getting everything set up at the projector, making sure the template was in place and her picture was nice and clear.

“So, what is it like being an official professional photographer at a studio?” Kate asked, feeling that she had to keep the conversation going. If she stayed silent for too long then Kate’s mind started to wonder, and that was never a good thing.

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jmurph
2008-10-24 11:22 am UTC (link)

Smiling as Kate talked about the class and how much she loved it, Jason nodded. “Well, I can definitely see why that class would be your favorite. It sounds like it’s exactly right up your alley, Kate. That’s great,” he glanced over at her and gave her a smile as he set up his projector. “Everyone needs those classes that they like more than others, because otherwise you’d hate going to school,” he laughed, shaking his head. “When I was in school, I made sure I had a class that I liked every semester, otherwise the math and things like that would just make me angry,” he smirked, shaking his head. “I’m sure that music thing doesn’t even really seem like a class, right?” he smiled.

Once the projectors were set up, Jason turned around and turned off the light again, so that they were surrounded in darkness once more. The red light provided enough for them to see that there was another person in the room with them, but that was about it. Jason took his film and put it in the top portion of the projector, then turned on the light, shooting the image down onto the template. He lowered the projector top so that the image was smaller, and then worked on the focus, nodding when he had the photo right. “Working in a real studio is like a dream come true for me,” he answered Kate’s question while he worked, glancing over at her every so often. “I mean, you know how much I love photography, so being able to do it for a living, for real? It’s amazing,” he told her, nodding. “I get to do really cool photo shoots and stuff. And, of course, every once in awhile I’m stuck doing projects like this one, the senior pictures for some girl whose parents thought a regular photo place wasn’t good enough,” he rolled his eyes, but smiled. “It’s still awesome, though.”

Turning off the projector, Jason reached for the photo paper, before realizing that he had given the bag to Kate. He reached around the black plank of wood between projectors, feeling the thick plastic that the paper was in, as well as something warm. Jason realized immediately that it was Kate’s hand. Turning to look at her, he tried to force himself to pull his hand back, but his body would not listen to him. He licked his lips, moving his hand to completely cover hers.

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stillnotkatie
2008-10-24 12:19 pm UTC (link)

“Yeah, I generally like all of my classes since most of them are in the Visual Arts department, but considering the work load I get it is nice to have a class where I really enjoy doing my homework, so it gives me a bit of a break,” Kate said. She generally like school because none of her classes were boring. If she had to take a science or social class then she would probably hate it, or at least get very bored of it and not be motivated to do her homework. “Yeah, it doesn’t seem like a class at all. I get to go and talk about music for three hours straight, and then write a few papers on it. The papers are not so fun, but at least I always know that I have something that I want to write about.”

Kate glanced over in Jason’s direction every so often as he spoke, smiling at him but she was sure that he couldn’t see it but that didn’t stop her. She was really happy for him that he had found a job in photography that he loved. Yes, he was an official photographer while working on the island, but back then all he did was take pictures of tourists for the most part, and Kate knew that wasn’t what Jason wanted to do for the rest of his life. “Yeah, it sounds pretty awesome,” Kate said. She then wondered if that was how Jason met Nicole, through a photo shoot. Nicole was a part time model and Jason was a photographer, so it made sense. She was just about to ask him when she stopped herself, suddenly not wanting to talk or bring up Nicole, his girlfriend at the moment, at all.

Kate was reaching into the bag of photo paper that she had placed between her and Jason when she felt his hand reach in there to take some paper himself. She didn’t think anything of it and assumed that they could both just grab the paper at the same time, but she froze when his hand touched hers. His warm hand touched hers and when she thought he would immediately pull away he didn’t. Kate wanted to pull away herself, because the butterflies that suddenly hit her stomach told her that it wasn’t a good idea for their hands to be touching, but she couldn’t bring herself to pull away either. Kate’s heart immediately picked up it’s beat and her breathing increase a bit when she turned to see that Jason was looking at her, and she couldn’t tear her eyes away from his. She felt his hand move to cover hers completely and Kate suddenly found her thumb involuntarily running along the skin of Jason’s hand, whatever it could reach. More involuntary actions continued as Kate found herself stepping closer to Jason.

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jmurph
2008-10-24 01:46 pm UTC (link)

Jason nodded. “Yeah, liking your classes is definitely important. It keeps things easier for you, and when you want to do your homework … that’s a good thing,” he laughed, smiling over at her. “When you get into that mindframe where you’re all boo on homework, that’s bad. Because homework’s important, even if it’s not part of your grade. Helps you learn,” he nodded. Great. Now he sounded like he was lecturing her. What the hell? Clearing his throat, he went into his shpeal about his job and how much he loved it, Jason smiled as she said that it was pretty awesome. “It really is. I get to do the job that I love, and make pretty okay money. I mean, I’m not making great money, but it’s better than nothing. And I’m able to afford a car payment, and rent on my apartment, so that’s important. I mean, I don’t have a massive amount of spending money after I get my bills paid, but I don’t really do much outside of work,” he confessed, shrugging. “I’ve got a few friends out here, mostly people that I met through work,” he admitted. He purposely left Nic out of the conversation, and that made him feel guilty.

But what made him feel even more guilty was the way he was apparently unable to move away from her after their hands touched. Feeling Kate’s thumb running back and forth over his hand after he covered hers with it was amazing, he didn’t think that he’d ever feel that amazing way his heartbeat would increase just from hands touching again. He didn’t get that with Nicole, and he wished that he did. When it never happened, Jason just told himself that Kate had been special, and he’d lost that. But now, here he was, feeling the electricity that was sparking between their hands, and his heartbeat was getting faster. He turned more towards her in time to see her take a step closer, and Jason swallowed. He took a step closer as well, and against his better judgement, he rose his free hand to her face. He hesitated a moment before he touched her, but then he pressed his hand to her cheek and leaned his head forward, pressing his forehead against hers. He sucked in a breath, closing his eyes as he just rested his forehead there. He needed to take a step back, he needed to put some much needed distance between them. But he knew he couldn’t do it.

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stillnotkatie
2008-10-24 02:35 pm UTC (link)

Kate couldn’t help but grin when Jason said ‘boo on homework’. It was such an adorable thing for him to say, and something that could instantly put a smile on Kate’s face. She didn’t mind at all that he was going into a big shpeal about school, it didn’t seem like a big lecture to her at all. Jason had been to college before and knew what it was like, so he of course would know what he was talking about. “Well, I would rather make less money doing something that I love then making tons of money with something that I hate,” Kate said with a nod. With Kate’s grades she could of taken anything she wanted at Brown and gotten a job that made tons of money when she graduated, but Kate wasn’t like that. She wasn’t materialistic at all and would rather be happy then loaded with money. That was why Kate took her time thinking about what she wanted to take in school, and picked something that she loved. “That is like me with school. Pretty much everyone I hang out with I met through school, for the most part,” Kate didn’t mention Jamie either on purpose.

Kate too felt guilty for not being able to pull her hand away from Jason’s, and from running her thumb along his skin and even more for stepping closer to him. She knew everything she was doing right now was wrong but there really was nothing that she could do to stop it. She too felt the electricity that generated between them and couldn’t help but admit to herself that Jason was the only one who was able to affect Kate like this just by touching her hand. Her heat beat was increasing and her breathing was getting stronger and she couldn’t believe this was happening just by a touch of the hand. Yes, Jamie was known to make Kate feel this way, but it took a lot more then just a simple touch to do it. Kate saw Jason turn towards her and lift his hand to her face. Her head automatically tilted a bit towards his touch and leaned her head forward up to his and closed her eyes for a moment when their foreheads first met. Kate took a deep breath in and didn’t let her hand leave Jason’s. She too needed to take a step back, but her body wasn’t listening to her and before she knew it her face was tilting up towards his and her body was stepping even closer to him.

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jmurph
2008-10-24 03:12 pm UTC (link)

Jason nodded. “Exactly. That’s the exact way that I’m looking at it. I’d rather be doing this and making enough money to live on, than be doing something in a corporate stuffy office, sitting on my ass all the time, and hating it,” he said, shaking his head. “That’s just … it’s not me,” he shrugged.

Before Jason knew what was going on, his brain seemed to be catching up to what his body was doing, and every coherent thought he could form was telling him to back up, get the fuck out of there. This was wrong. He had Nicole, Kate had Jamie. Standing here in a dark room, holding Kate’s hand and letting his other hand caress Kate’s cheek … this was just bad. Bad bad bad. Back the fuck up. But no matter what his head was telling him to do, his heart and his body just would not listen. Kate took another step closer to him, and she was leaning her head up like she was going to kiss him, and Jason’s brain screamed at him to get out of there. But Jason couldn’t force himself to move at all. All he could focus on was the anticipation of his lips against Kate’s again, and how much he wanted to kiss her and hold her close again. The more Jason thought about it, the more he realized that Kate still meant the world to him, and he couldn’t shake that. Moving his head down more so he could kiss her, their lips were only about an inch or so apart from one another before a door slammed, startling him. Jason jumped and instinctively moved away from Kate, just in time for one of his co-workers to come into the dark room. Jason’s heart was still beating incredibly fast, and he ran a hand through his hair, and then down his face, resting over his mouth. “Hey, what’s up?” he tried to sound casual, but he sounded breathless.

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stillnotkatie
2008-10-25 12:22 am UTC (link)

The closer Kate stepped toward’s Jason the more she could smell him and the combination of that and hearing his breathing in the now silent dark room caused Kate to feel a bit dizzy. He heart was now hammering in her chest and her mind was yelling at her to slow down, back up and get the hell out of the dark room and away from Jason. Though, as soon as their foreheads touching and her mouth was so close to his her body stopped listening to any sense that she tried to talk herself into and all she wanted to do was press her lips against Jason’s. It was wrong and Kate knew that, but right now with him so close to her and not being able to kiss him after so long she just couldn’t help herself. As much as Kate tried to talk herself out of it, she still had feelings for Jason and she was certain that they wouldn’t go away now that he was back in her life. She shouldn’t of asked him to let her shadow him because it was apparent to her now that she just couldn’t handle being alone with him.

Kate sucked in a breath of air as Jason moved his head down to kiss her, and she tilted her head up a bit to press her lips to his, but then suddenly a door slammed and Kate jumped as well. Jason stepped away from her, and she glanced a him not being able to move from the shock of what just about happened. When one of Jason’s co workers came into the dark room Kate glanced over at them, not being able to stop the slightly dirty look that was on her face. Kate then folded her arms across her chest and took a step back trying to stop her heart from pounding so hard. Kate had to get out of there, now. She then looked at her wrist where a watch would have been and then back at Jason. “I really should get going, I forgot that I needed to pick up a few things and finish a project for school,” Kate said, a bit breathless herself. She didn’t care that she had photos that still needed to be developed, she just needed to get out of there right away. “Um, thanks for everything, I will have to stop by another time.”

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