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Johanna Mason (awickedability) wrote in paradisolog,
@ 2016-07-06 14:16:00

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johanna mason (awickedability), ~chloe sullivan (ladywatchtower)

Who: Johanna Mason and Chloe Sullivan
What: The BFF meets the babymama, or something like that
When: Wednesday morning
Where: By the waterfall
Warnings: Probably not much but we'll get back to you
Status: Closed/Incomplete

Johanna was enjoying life on the island. The sex was great, yes. She wasn't going to lie about that. But the being able to choose whether to have it or not was her big thing, like she'd said to a couple people. Because back home, she would've been forced into it. And possibly the best thing of all? The ability to say no and suffer no consequences for it (since she was contributing in other ways, of course). Because she'd said no back home and suffered greatly as a result.

Here, though, she was happy. And so was Finnick, though he wasn't quite the Finnick she knew. Or, he wasn't the Finnick she knew yet was a better way of putting it. But that didn't matter, he was still Finnick and he was still her friend. Which meant she was still thrilled for him that he was happy. She hadn't met Chloe yet, which of course just wasn't going to do. She was going to have to meet her and give her approval. (Mostly jokingly, of course, because come on, really.) And she'd have to call dibs on godmother.

Mostly she just wanted to do that last one. Because Johanna. Because shameless.

Did we mention "because Johanna"?

At the moment, though, she was just sitting by the waterfall, watching the water thoughtfully. It was really pretty, she noted absently. The whole island was, yeah. Obviously. It had parts that really reminded her of home, which was nice. But one of her favorite parts was the waterfall and she wasn't quite sure why. But she certainly wasn't going to argue -- she wasn't an idiot, after all.

Footsteps behind her interrupted her reverie, though, and she turned slightly. "Hey," she greeted. "Feel free to pull up a seat, so to speak. I don't bite unless you ask first."

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ladyofwatchtowr
2016-07-06 05:46 pm UTC (link)

Chloe wasn't really showing much. Yet. But she felt like she'd put on a gazillion pounds already. Don't ask her why. She just did. Some days were better than others. Some days she felt like the most gorgeous person on the face of the planet. Other days she felt like a beached whale.

One thing she noticed was that her hair and nails were growing like crazy and were the best they'd ever been in her life. The down side was having to take care of it all which meant trips to the creek and waterfall. Daily.

It didn't surprise her to see someone else there, but it was someone she hadn't met yet which was unusual. Chloe smiled as she approached. "Hi!" she chirped then chuckled for the joke. "Wrong mood for that, I'm afraid but give me an hour and I guarantee that will change." Her mood swings were unpredictable.

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awickedability
2016-07-06 08:51 pm UTC (link)

Johanna grinned. "Mood swings for the win, huh? Remind me to stay on your good side, whichever one that happens to be at any given moment." She lifted a hand in greeting. "I'm Johanna, by the way. Johanna Mason."

She wasn't all that surprised that she didn't know whoever this was, because she really didn't know a lot of people. But that didn't mean she wasn't open to meeting new people. She was a lot more social than people would think -- that bitchy exterior just meant people had to work at it a little harder.

The thing was that so few people ever put in the effort.

But she shook that thought off -- with a literal, though subtle, shake of her head -- and turned her attention back to the blonde woman. "And I'm willing to give it the hour if you are."

Johanna's version of flirting. If you want subtle, look elsewhere.

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ladyofwatchtowr
2016-07-07 06:39 pm UTC (link)

Chloe chuckled as she rolled her eyes at herself. "I'm hoping these hormone problems even out at some point." Then she smiled as she shook Johanna's hand. "Chloe Sullivan. Nice to meet you."

The name sounded familiar but Chloe's brain was taking a serious hit with being pregnant. She tried to prod her memory to spit it out as she sat down next to Johanna.

The flirting drew her attention back with a grin coming to her face. "Never say never, right?" Chloe wouldn't turn her down...provided her stupid body complied.

"Tell me something," she said. "Why does you name sound familiar?"

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awickedability
2016-07-08 12:19 am UTC (link)

Johanna had to stop and think for all of half a second before she put two and two together to come up with four. "You might have heard Finnick mention me," she said. "I don't know if he's said anything about me, but we're friends from back home -- well, it's complicated. He's from my past, I'm from his future, however the hell you want to put it. We reconnected -- met for the first time? How do you look at this? -- here and there you go."

A shrug.

"Which means you're the one having his baby." Hey, you couldn't not know these things. "Congratulations on the whole pregnancy thing. And since I adore Finnick and I can't be that horrible to a pregnant woman, I'll skip the 'hurt him and I'll kill you' routine."

Not that she wasn't going to be protective of Finnick, because hey. Friend. She figured she was entitled. But so was Chloe. That gave them a bond. Or something. Maybe. Shit, Johanna was bad with people. Why did interacting with people mean you actually had to be social? Stupid needing to be social.

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ladyofwatchtowr
2016-07-08 10:03 am UTC (link)

"Oh!" One could almost see the lightbulb go off in Chloe's head as pieces finally fell into place. Now she remembered. She also remembered the things Finnick had told her about the world he came from. The world she'd like to take a can of gas and a lighter to.

"Right," she said in total understanding. "The chronological stuff gets weird, but I'm glad you're here. Do you know Lustre too?"

Her nose wrinkled as she grinned sheepishly and put her hand over her tummy. "Yeah. That's me." And it still surprised her every day when she realized what they were doing. But she chuckled for the not warning. "Well, if I ever hurt him I'd probably want someone to kill me so message received."

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awickedability
2016-07-08 11:02 am UTC (link)

"A little bit," Johanna said. "I mean, all the Victors know each other, but some of us know each other better than others."

She grinned. "And the really important thing -- are you two keeping the baby or giving it to Arva, and in either case I call dibs on godmother. Who cares if you only have the little one for a tiny bit before he or she gets handed off to Arva? I still call dibs." If Johanna liked someone, genuinely liked them, she could be remarkably relaxed. Or at least try to be. And she liked Chloe -- it was hard not to. Plus this was Finnick's girlfriend. She owed it to him to try no matter what.

"And what's it like?" she asked. "Being pregnant. Because I keep thinking about it. I'm nowhere near ready for it, I mean, but I can't help wondering. I guess I just want to know so I'm prepared when it does happen." Because for all her hotheadedness, contrary to belief, Johanna Mason did like knowing what the hell was going on. She actually really liked it. She'd hated being unprepared back home, actually, hated when they'd just thrown her into things without going "Oh hey this is what you're going to do, here's what you need to know."

Because the people in District 13 had been jerks, basically.

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ladyofwatchtowr
2016-07-08 11:31 am UTC (link)

Johanna didn't seem to hide her personality for anything. Chloe liked that. She kind of reminded her of Lois. Her cousin was right up in your face, too. Actually, she kind of missed Lois, and talking with Johanna kind of made her realize that.

Chloe laughed for the rapid fire talk. "We're keeping it, and I can bring it up to Finnick. We hadn't talked about godparents yet." But who would be the godfather? Maybe Jack?

Her hands went to cover her tummy as she looked down at herself. "It's weird? I mean, right now my emotions are all over the spectrum. I puke my guts up every morning, and I can't really feel the baby yet. So I just feel...off."

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awickedability
2016-07-08 11:53 am UTC (link)

Johanna smiled faintly. "You know, I can see Finnick wanting to keep the baby. The way we grow up back home, even the District he's from... it's not the best. We don't really have the chance to have healthy families. Here? It's completely different. And in that case, I really do wish him -- and you, obviously -- even more congratulations."

Because the island was pretty much the perfect place to raise a family.

At Chloe's comments about pregnancy she tilted her head thoughtfully. "Shit, I'm all over the spectrum anyway, how would people be able to tell I'm having mood swings?" she joked. "No, but seriously... I imagine it's all worth it. No matter how scary it probably is, it's worth it." A shrug. "I was a terrible sister and a terrible daughter, though, so I'm probably not the kind of person you want being a mother. Just yet, I mean, obviously I'm supposed to be a mother at some point along the line." And she would do it. Knew she could do it. But it'd be terrifying, she was sure. She'd have people, though -- Finnick, at the very least, and hopefully the baby's father -- and that would make it far less terrifying.

But really, she'd faced far more terrifying. She'd faced the Games, faced a rebellion. Motherhood... was far more terrifying, yeah.

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ladyofwatchtowr
2016-07-08 12:40 pm UTC (link)

A gentle smile came to Chloe's face as Johanna spoke about Finnick. When she came here, she had been looking to avoid exactly what she found herself in with him. Sure, she'd have a kid, but the original plan had been to give it to Arva and not be involved emotionally with anyone. The best laid plans of man and Chloe...

"I know some of what he went through," she said quietly. "He has nightmares. Bad ones." And Finnick had only recently told her what he'd been put through. "I'm glad I can help him have a better life here. He deserves it and more."

Then she tilted her head at Johanna. "Would you want to keep any child you have?"

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awickedability
2016-07-08 01:00 pm UTC (link)

Johanna frowned thoughtfully. "I... maybe. Part of me wants to, but part of me is legitimately scared about what kind of parent I'd be to a kid. I mean..." She hesitated. "What exactly has Finnick told you about what we went through?" Because she wasn't going to tell her about the Games if Finnick hadn't already. That was their shared story, true, but she wasn't going to tell it first. Chloe and Finnick were involved; that made it his story to tell first.

And what Johanna had done in the games made her sick. She'd had to do it, true, but she hadn't wanted to. Hadn't liked it. Had been good at it, though, and that made her wonder what kind of person she was. Was she the kind of person that deserved to raise a child? Did she deserve to have that kind of goodness in her life? But at the same time, if she was worthy of being chosen by Arva, then obviously she was. She just had to realize that first -- nobody ever said she wasn't hardheaded. And if they did, they were lying to you.

"But I'm here, so I mean, hey. I've got to at least have the potential to make a good mother, right?" she said optimistically. "I'd just... probably need a lot of help with the whole managing things part at first. But then again, who doesn't?"

It was strange, how talking to Chloe had made her realize that yeah, she would keep her child if given the choice.

"But I don't know if I'd keep every child I had," she said. "Which brings up how I'd choose who to keep and who to give to Arva. And how I'd feel about the choice. Which I think would be the most heart-wrenching part of motherhood."

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ladyofwatchtowr
2016-07-08 02:19 pm UTC (link)

"He told me about the Games," Chloe said gently with a sympathetic smile on her face. Her fingers laced together in her lap as she spoke. "And what the victors, or at least him, had to do after." She shook her head. "I can't even imagine it. And I definitely don't know how he came out of all that being as nice as he is."

Chloe lifted her eyes to Johanna appraisingly as she tilted her head again, then smiled. "I think you'd be a good mom if only because you know how horrible people can be to each other and you wouldn't want that to come out." She shrugged. "And we're all a community here. You'd have help."

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