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Derek Morgan (derek__morgan) wrote in omega_reality,
@ 2011-11-23 18:18:00

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*complete, 2011 11, character: derek morgan, character: emily prentiss, dead: spencer reid

RP: Derek/Reid, Derek/Emily
Who: Derek/Reid, Derek/Emily
Where: Geek room, their house
When: Dinner time, November 23, 2011
Summary: Derek decides that he and Reid need to talk

Derek knew better than to expect Reid to talk to him, regardless of how many emails he sent. He'd let things slide, because Reid had every right to be upset about the situation, but this couldn't go on for long. As usual his time was limited with work and training, but there was one time when he could corner Reid.

He got dinner for the two of them, and then went to find the other man. It wasn't hard to guess where to find Reid. If he wasn't with Major Crime, he was with the geek squad, although it seemed that even geeks went home with the exception of Reid. Derek went inside and put a container in front of Reid. "I got dinner in case you forgot. It's Chinese what you like and I got a plastic fork for you. I thought we could talk while we eat."

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dr_s_reid
2011-11-24 04:46 am UTC (link)

“I know you too well and I know you can’t help yourself. I used to love that about you,” Spencer said, but there was no trace of a smile on his face.

He ignored Morgan slamming his head into the desk, envious really because that’s exactly what he wanted to do himself.

Just hearing him say fix made him close his eyes and stretch his neck. It would have been amazing and it was everything he wanted. Just once more, just once and everything that pushed down on him and filled his head would stop. Everything would just stop and he could just be. He reached into his pocket for the NA chip, holding onto it tight enough that it practically cut into his palm.

He said just some random kid like that made it better and Spencer cringed, keeping his eyes closed. “You can say all of that now as much as you want, Morgan. But I don’t trust you anymore. In the field, of course. But with anything more than that, I can’t. Even being alone is better than using the word family to cover all manner of terrible things that have happened.” Spencer said, pressing his hand into his forehead again.

“You haven’t explained anything; you’ve just reminded me of the past, of how we used to be. You have no excuse for what you said and the damage is done. The illusion is shattered, Morgan. I don’t want to be part of your family, because I’m not a little brother or a freaky genius. Because I’m a grown god damn man and I’ve been to hell and back and I’m sick of feeling like even if I’m not some kid, I’m your kid, throwing tantrums to get his way.” Spencer said, his voice breaking on almost every second word.

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derek__morgan
2011-11-24 04:59 am UTC (link)

"I haven't changed." He stopped, because that wasn't true either. "Actually, I have. I've tried to be the leader that Hotch would want me to, I've tried to think and not be rush. I've tried to do so many things, and I think I've manage, but with you and Emily, I regress to who I was, because I trust you enough to see my faults for what they are."

He rubbed his neck. "Damn it, Reid. I was never perfect, and maybe this is a good thing, maybe it's time that you see me for who I am, a flawed man, and I'd hope that you could consider me a friend despite my fault, because it's very easy to be friends with someone we think is perfect. It's also very hard not to see you as my kid brother, when you 'adored' me."

Derek took another deep breath. "I know you aren't a kid, but you can be a grown man and I can still have brotherly feelings for you. I'll apologize for everything I've done wrong, but not for that. It's how I feel, and I can be wrong for many reasons, but you're still upset with me because of the way I feel. I can't fix that, Reid. You need to find it in you to accept that and maybe we can be friends on equal grounds."

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dr_s_reid
2011-11-24 05:19 am UTC (link)

“I’m smart enough to know you’re not perfect, don’t worry about that,” Spencer said with a little huff of unamused laughter. He’d known it was only a matter of time before Morgan turned this back on him, he’d been expecting it from the start and he was actually impressed with how long he’d managed to go before it was all his fault again. “Well you won’t have to worry about seeing me as your kid brother anymore then, Morgan.”

Spencer shook his head. “You’re wrong. How you feel is how you feel and I never wanted you to feel any way except how you do. It’s me whose feelings have changed. You didn’t want to be with me and I understand that. Well I don’t want to be anything with someone who doesn’t see me as an equal or sees me as a child and you should understand that.” He said quietly, shaking his head.

“And really, you should have listened to me in the first place, that I didn’t want to have this conversation because all that’s happened is that you’ve proven you can’t listen to me,” he said as he grabbed the book he’d been reading off the desk. “But you’ve also taken away any doubt that I had. You don’t respect me enough to hear me, what more do I need to know.” Spencer said as he unlocked the door and stepped out through it, shutting Morgan in the office with the dinner that he never planned on accepting.

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