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Charlotte Finley, PhD, is a lady in the streets... (charlottefinley) wrote in newhaven_mesg,
@ 2016-02-03 21:59:00

Current mood:	pensive
Entry tags:	!february2016, charlotte finley

"I am terrified by this dark thing
That sleeps in me;
All day I feel its soft, feathery turnings, its malignity." — Sylvia Plath, excerpt of Elm

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	harperst 2016-02-04 04:37 am UTC (link)
	Suicidal thoughts, Miss Finley? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 04:46 am UTC (link)
	What gives you that idea, Mister Harper - the subject matter or the writer? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	harperst 2016-02-04 05:02 am UTC (link)
	Wow, I step away for a minute and see all the angry little women pounce on my comment. I'd say both, since her subject matter was generally inspired by her battle. Are you going to answer the question? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 05:06 am UTC (link)
	In the interest of not fomenting further ire aimed in your general direction, I'd caution you against using the phrase 'angry little women' in the future. I appreciate your answering my question first. In regards to your question, much like a variety of other thoughts they come and go at their leisure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	harperst 2016-02-04 05:10 am UTC (link)
	At least I'm saying women and not girls. They appreciate that, right? Well that's a vague answer if I ever saw one. Is it just for attention then? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 05:13 am UTC (link)
	That is true, perhaps they will appreciate that. How is it vague? I've had suicidal thoughts before, and ~~the scars to prove it,~~ I feel a connection to the excerpt. I felt others might as well, hence my decision to share it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	harperst 2016-02-04 05:29 am UTC (link)
	How is it not vague? "Why do you like pizza?" "Much like a variety of other food, I eat it sometimes and sometimes I don't at my leisure." Your second answer is a little better. I responded so I guess it got my attention. Can't say I ever had suicidal thoughts ~~except when my dad t~~, but I appreciate the whole "you're not alone" sentiment. I'm sure it helps. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

charlottefinley
2016-02-04 05:35 am UTC (link)

...touché

I can't believe I'm laughing at that.
Though, that is some expert-level mockery right there, and I do respect your calling me out on it.

I could easily reply with something trite like 'and now that I have your attention my night has been made', but knowing my luck you might take that as flirting or something equally ridiculous. I'm glad you haven't had them, as they can be quite difficult to move on from, and if my admitting that I feel that way every so often can help someone else then I'll feel as though I accomplished something.

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	harperst 2016-02-04 04:13 pm UTC (link)
	You mean you weren't flirting with me this whole time? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 05:15 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps I was... are latent suicidal tendencies one of your turn-ons, Mister Harper? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	mel_moon 2016-02-04 04:48 am UTC (link)
	I'd wager she would have homicidal thoughts long before suicidal ones. I mean... just one look at your face could do the trick. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zomp 2016-02-04 04:52 am UTC (link)
	It's pretty knee jerking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 04:54 am UTC (link)
	What is it about his face that's causing such hostility? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mel_moon 2016-02-04 04:56 am UTC (link)
	It's existence? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 04:57 am UTC (link)
	And here I thought you'd say 'what comes out of it'. Now I feel silly. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	zomp 2016-02-04 12:04 pm UTC (link)
	Your answer more than Mel's; but rationally, I know that's what he's shooting for. I try to control the urge to punch him in the throat but it's so strong. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 05:18 pm UTC (link)
	It's what he's banking on, since if it didn't evoke as strong an urge as you claim, his attempts at baiting wouldn't be nearly as successful or fulfilling for him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zomp 2016-02-05 05:23 am UTC (link)
	He needs therapy. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	mel_moon 2016-02-04 04:55 am UTC (link)
	It almost begs to be punched. Repetitively. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 05:41 pm UTC (link)
	And you feel compelled to point that out? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 04:55 am UTC (link)
	My homicidal thoughts tend to have multiple sources... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mel_moon 2016-02-04 05:14 am UTC (link)
	They usually do. I have a list... It was somewhat satisfying to write them all down. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 05:16 am UTC (link)
	I prefer to keep my list in my head, since that way I don't have to be concerned about explaining myself if someone were to find it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mel_moon 2016-02-04 05:20 am UTC (link)
	I'm not worried about that. It's all about how you label it. I mean... You make a Christmas Card list right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	charlottefinley 2016-02-04 05:35 am UTC (link)
	You're giving me quite a bit to think about. I thank you for that. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	harperst 2016-02-04 05:03 am UTC (link)
	Who are you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mel_moon 2016-02-04 05:14 am UTC (link)
	Does it matter? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	harperst 2016-02-04 05:31 am UTC (link)
	Probably not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mel_moon 2016-02-04 05:34 am UTC (link)
	Then shut up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	harperst 2016-02-04 05:39 am UTC (link)
	Please. Make me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mel_moon 2016-02-04 05:41 am UTC (link)
	Gladly. (Reply to this) (Parent)