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Tweak says, "I'm colorblind, kid."

Connor Parish (fromthedark) wrote in newdublinrp,
@ 2018-04-09 15:14:00

Entry tags:

character:merrit yates, character:zel braddock

Who: Merritt & Zel
When: Monday Evening
Where: Merritt's apartment
Rating: TBD

Merritt's apartment was styled in a similar way as the temporary one Zel had been staying at, but it was a bit smaller. It was two stories, the first story being the living area with a tiny kitchen and upstairs was a small office and bedroom and the only bathroom. It wasn't much, but it was nice and considering he did spend a lot of time at the office, it's not like it mattered much.

By the time Zel arrived he was sipping at his second drink of the night. He was still dressed in the suit he'd work at work, though the tie had been loosened. Merr opened the door for Zel before she actually knocked- he just knew she was there. "Come in." He said, gesturing.

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fromthedark
2018-04-09 11:37 pm UTC (link)

"Well, everyone thought I was crazy. Thirteen, seeing this girl who wasn't really there." He said with an arched brow. "Of course it didn't really stop you from showing up on occasion." Merritt had felt very alone growing up, except for her.

He nodded. "Pretty much the same." It was like he was feeling for two people. Like impulses and instincts ran through him that weren't his. "But at the same time, it's hard to tell what's me and what's you and what's the same." Like when she mentioned Jason's name, he felt a small skip of the heart even though he had no reason to.

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broughttolight
2018-04-09 11:42 pm UTC (link)

"It got harder as we got older. With the drinking and drugs." She replied with a light shrug of her shoulders for the moment. When he mentioned telling whose feelings were whose she thought a little. "Not sure. I just know I have mixed feelings." She replied as she came to finish that cup.

"I know I use to feel when you would get blackout drunk. It's how I developed a slight tolerance for drinking when I barely drink to being with." That glass was soon placed on the table as she looked towards Merritt as she tilted her head.

"You were the only friend I had. Kinda still are. Least you're the only person who knows what I went through, emotionally and physically." She came to place a kiss on his cheek as she rested her head on his shoulder.

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fromthedark
2018-04-09 11:53 pm UTC (link)

He looked away when she mentioned his blackouts. It had been the only way to cope with life, but a sixteen year old shouldn't have to get blackout drunk to get a nights sleep. His fingers ran over the rim of his glass as she got closer. His eyes closed. "You know if they weren't already dead... your mom and her boyfriend... I'd find a way to make them pay." He informed her. "What she let happen to you..." Merritt always found it easier to focus on other peoples problems rather than his own. He'd have either found a way to charge them, or slip Digger his name.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 12:06 am UTC (link)

She came to tilt her head as she listened to him. "Her boyfriend is still alive. But he skipped town when she died." She said with a shrug of her shoulders. Her nose nuzzling into his neck for the moment, as the feel of her lips, was felt against his ear. "And I want to kill your father." She said with a calmness in her voice.

They both had shit lives growing up, and no one, not even Jason with his knowledge of some of the things that happened to Zel would ever be able to understand what that meant. How those actions made then who they are. The only difference was, her scars were in the open, while his were in the dark.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 12:19 am UTC (link)

Skipped town? No wonder he'd not been able to find her when he started looking- after finding out she was real. At the mention of his father, Merritt finished his glass and got up from the couch to refill it. Just thinking of the man brought back feelings of being weak and a victim. Of being scared and scared of his own body. The fact that what the man had done had been horrible, but a times felt physically good- because by nature paying attention to certain areas of the body felt good. And it took him a long time to convince himself that just because some of the stuff had felt good, didn't make it right. It also still made it difficult for him to be with a woman without being drunk because that moment things started to feel good, he found himself back in his childhood bed.

Merritt gripped the counter and stared at the amber liquid in the glass and took a deep breath to keep it together.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 12:29 am UTC (link)

When he came to a stand she watched him walk off. Her frame coming to a stand as she moved towards him. Her hands coming to his back as she wrapped them around his waist. "Sex is supposed to feel good." She said softly as she came to turn him around to face her. "And it does feel good. Really good." She said as she bites her lower lip.

Her hand reaching up to touch the side of his face. "It can feel good ya know." She said assuring him for the moment. Sure, it took her a long time to get those images out her head. To replace the ugly with the good. Though, from time to time that feeling would come back.

Slowly her hands came up his chest as she took off his blazer and let it drop tot he ground. "Don't let him win." She told Merritt as she brought his face to look down at her as she pressed her forehead against his. She felt it, how he felt. That unsure feeling washing over her.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 12:45 am UTC (link)

He placed his hands on her arms, a 'safe' place. A small smile graced his lips as he looked at her, his father had won years ago. It had been years since he'd been touched by the man, but the damage had been long done. "You're luck to have found someone." Merr said softly. "I can feel how you feel when you think about him... Jason." There was that skip of the heart again.

Merritt sighed, he hadn't asked her to come over for this sort of discussion. It was to figure out this connection of theirs.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 01:14 am UTC (link)

She came to tilt her head when he mentioned Jason. A slight smirk came over her, but she shook her head. "Do you feel how I feel about you?" She asked as she tilted her head. "And you have me." She said with a firm nod of her head. The feel of her lips coming to press against his for the moment.

Sure, she knew this wasn't the conversation he wanted, but it's the one they were having. After a few minutes, she came to pull her lips away from his, another light kiss given to him as she came to stare up at him. "You'll always have me." She assured him as she brought her hand to take his and place them on her hips.

"It's okay for you to touch me, Merritt. After all, it's what you've always wanted to do." She said as she brought her nose to brush against his.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 02:56 am UTC (link)

His eyes fluttered closed at the kiss. Merritt felt a warmth between them as his hand rested on her hip. It was true, when he'd hit puberty he'd had the biggest crush on her... which was even more ridiculous at the time, crushing on your invisible friend. Even knowing what had happened to her.

But no, it was... He pulled back holding his hands up slightly, "This is wrong." There were many levels of justification he could use. She was his client, she was in a relationship- with someone he could feel she cared for,... he wasn't drunk enough.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 03:04 am UTC (link)

She came to watch him hold his hands up. Her hands came to take hold of his as she stared up at him. Her head shaking slightly as she touched at the side of his face. "Merritt... It's alright." She said softly as she came to look at him. "It's us. It's me, not some stranger." She added as she brought his hands under her shirt to touch at her lower back.

Sure, she was with Jason. But it wasn't anything exclusive, and they had an agreement. No getting jealous. "And I'm not your client anymore." She added as she picked up on his thoughts for the moment. Her hands soon came to undo his shirt as her hands pressed against his chest and pulled that shirt off of him and to the floor with his blazer.

The feel of her lips pressing against his once more as she pulled him down into her.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 03:33 am UTC (link)

He sighed into her kiss, his fingers caressed the soft skin of her back. She felt hers on his bare chest. This was not why he'd asked her over. Merritt felt their feet carry them back around to the front of the couch. He slowly pulled apart from the kiss. "I'm not good at this..." His voice came out a whisper. It was true, he'd never really been good at being intimate, sex had always been awkward. He just didn't feel like he was ever doing right. Sure, Merr could charm a courtroom or his clients- even when three sheets to the wind, he was a very high functioning alcoholic- but when it came to a woman, he could charm them, but after that he fumbled.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 03:42 am UTC (link)

She felt their feet lead them to the couch as she came to lightly push him down to have a seat. "I know." She said softly as she came to pull her shirt up and off her frame. "But, I am." She said easily as she came to remove her bra next. It wasn't long before Zel was in just her panties as she came to straddle Merritt's lap for the moment. "Just focus on me."

She said softly as she kissed him again. Focus on us. She thought for the moment as she brought her hands to the side of his face as she kissed him again. Her hips slowly roll her hips against him.

Her hands taking him to touch at her exposed skin.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 04:08 am UTC (link)

His hands slid up her back as she kissed him. He tried to focus on them, on the pressure of her hips. Zel was warm and beautiful, but nothing stirred. It was a common issue he'd had- lost many an impatient partner because of it. It was difficult for him to... get in the mood. It had been for years, all those repressed feelings when it came to sex and his past. It took time for physical feelings to trump the emotional ones. That's one reason he was normally more drunk. It quieted the inner voice. Sure he didn't always remember the night before, but at least he could perform without too much issue.

He slid his hands to her cheek and momentarily broke the kiss. Merritt's eyes were closed as his lips lingered close to hers. "I'm sorry... I can't..." He wasn't talking about her. "You're... very sexy. But I-"

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 04:26 am UTC (link)

When he pulled away, Zel listened. "Shh." Is all she said, since she knew exactly what he was trying to tell her. She could feel it. That embarashment washing over him slightly. Already she brought him into her to give him a tight hug.

Her frame came off of his though, as she moved to the bar whwre he left his glass. Already pouring his drink as she reached into her poclet and pulled out two vials. That Score pushed into her port as she came to walk back to him. Taking her seat on his lap as she handed him the drink.

She didnt say anything as she came to unscrew that Shok vial and take half in her mouth, but instead of swallowing she pulled Merr back into a kiss, pushing that liquid into his mouth for him to swallow down.

When done, she would take the rest for herself. "Drink." She advised him softly as she kissed at his neck. She knew he needed to be drunk. He needed that edge to help him, and Zel didnt mind.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 04:40 am UTC (link)

He'd only ever experienced drugs through her. As he took a long drink. Merritt made a small noise of discomfort as the Shok kicked in, that tingling sensation was strange though not painful to him. It subsided quickly. Finishing his drink he set the glass down and moved back to meet her lips. One hand hesitantly moved over to lightly caress her breast as he tried to focus on her soft lips and the even softer flesh beneath his fingers, the Shok actually helped him narrow his focus a little. His other hand slipped into his pants, taking himself in hand he slowly ran his hand along, feeling himself grow slowly.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 04:47 am UTC (link)

Zel knew how to make the pain go away, at least hers. And with them so close to each other it was easy for her to know how to shut up that doubt and worry in his head. The mixture of Shok and Score always made her feel good, especially during sex. So when she felt his hand come to caress her breast, she smirked.

Her own hands followed his, while she let him stroke himself, she came to undo his pants. Shifting a slittle as she pulled his pants open, it allowed him to pull his member out freely, the feel of her panties rubbing against his growing hard on came next.

The muffled moan escaped her lips, as she brough her mouth to his neck to lightly nip and suck on his earlobe. In truth, Zel had always wondered what it would have been like to sleep with Merritt. Fantazied about it on nights she was alone, so to actually see he was real and he was trying gave her butterflies in her stomach.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 05:21 am UTC (link)

This was a fantasy they'd both had? How messed up had they really been to fantasize about someone who they thought wasn't real? A memory of a young Zel, early twenties entered his mind. In bed alone, touching herself as she thought of him. He could remember wishing he was there, even if he was fake and she couldn't really touch him. He remembered his face in her minds eye as she brought herself to orgasm. As quickly as the memory came, it was over and he let out a small gasp. He'd had similar moments growing up, around the same time even, but there was something about experiencing it through her memory.

His body was definitely responding to all the various stimuli, from the Shok and booze to her hips helping fully become erect. The memories put it over the top. "Zel..." He said softly, not sure if she even knew what she'd seemed to share with him. His hand moved to her face and he pulled her into a deep kiss. It was needy and desperate.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 05:29 am UTC (link)

Zel had many nights where she laid in bed touching herself. But the memory she would share with him in that instant had her body reacting. Imaging her hand between her legs as she pinched znd rubbed at her clit in that memory, had caused her hips to grind a bit harder against his growing member.

So when Merritt called her name and kissed her, she could help bhht let out that muffled moan. Her hand coming between ger legs as she took his harden length and used his head to tease at her cover clit. Another moan escaped her. It wasnt difficult, to shift and have her hand pull at her panties to the side.

As she came to tease his length with the feel of her bare folds he would be able to see how wet ahe had gotten. As that memory replayed again in her head, another moan escaping her lips as the sensation of that memory seemed to effect not only her but him too.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 05:42 am UTC (link)

As she took him in hand he again had to remind himself to focus on them, the moment. He thought about his lonely nights in college, those times he was so pent up and needed a release. How he'd imagine her that smile she'd given him when he'd seen her weeks prior- he'd been falling asleep in class and she'd been at a party or something. It had been months since he'd seen her, but there she was dancing and having a good time, as if wanting him to join her. So that night, while his roommate was asleep, he pictured that smile and how sexy she was when she was dancing while he stroked himself.

As he felt her wetness against his tip he shuttered slightly as a moan escaped him. His head lolled back onto the couch, brow furrowed as his breath quickened. His heart was racing and he was scared how much he wanted her- how much he needed her.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 05:47 am UTC (link)

Just the image of him in college in college stroking himself had her deeping that kiss. But when he pulled away from her lips to tilt his head back, a single roll of her hips were felt, before takjng hi m fully inside her. Her hands gripped at the couch behind them as she gasped slightly. "Merritt." Is all that escaped her lips.

Her hand coming to the side of his face as she leaned down to kiss him, her hips rocking against his as she finally was able to feel how hard he was in person. The actial feel of him buried inside her felt more amazing than she'd imagined growing up.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 06:02 am UTC (link)

It was a strange sort of amplified feeling, him in her. As another moan escaped into their newly reunited lips. It was as if he could feel himself in her from her perspective as well as his. As she came back down, he placed a hand on her hip to pause her and pushed off the couch. Moving his lips down to her neck he carefully lowered her back to the couch, and with one knee on the couch, his other foot on the ground he smiled as she spread her legs for him.

Leaning back up, he re-inserted himself and started slow at first. He focused on all the sensations, from him and from her. There was no question as to when he needed to speed up, he could feel her wanting it as much as he did. He panted as his hips thrusted harder and he felt himself going as deep as he could. "Holy fuck."

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 11:01 am UTC (link)

Sex was always meant to be good. But with the unusual connection the two shared, it made sex with one another entirely different. Even the way he gripped her, had her senses going wild almost. So when he pulled from their kiss and shifted their positions, it was easy for Zel to spread her legs for him.

The feeling of him re-entering had her crying out his name. It was strange yet amazing the way she felt. She was experiencing not only her senses but his as well, feeling what it was like to be inside her from his point of view how it "Oh god." Is all she was able to cry out once he picked up his speed. She didn't need to tell him, he just knew.

Her hands coming to his sides as she gripped him tightly, but at the same time, she wasn't as rough or violent as she was with Jason. This was entirely different.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 11:20 am UTC (link)

The Shok had his senses on edge, and their connection gave him insight he'd never imagined. One hand reached and braced on the back of the couch while the other reached down and palmed her breast, her hardened nipple catching between his fingers. He normally wouldn't have made such a move but somehow he knew she needed another sensation. As his thumb and forefinger started to rub the sensitive nub he realized why. It was as his own nipples got hard at the feeling of hers. Their sensitivity was like something he'd never experienced himself and to experience it through her, on top of everything else...

He wasn't sure who exactly came first. He felt a wave of emotion wash over them, like a climbing mountain of pressure. As he increased speed again he felt her tighten around him and then that dam was broken. The ecstasy of experiencing his orgasm and hers simultaneously threatened to break him as his body trembled a moment. It took longer than normal for him to finish, as his climax lasted longer than any he'd experienced before.

If he wasn't on Shok, he'd have thought he blacked out a moment as he laid back on the couch. He opened his mouth to speak, but silence came out as all words failed to describe what had just happened.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 11:33 am UTC (link)

"That was..." is all she was able to get out. Her breathing was heavy as she laid there on the couch beside him. Her hand trailing up his arm. The sensation of climax still fresh over them both.

Emerald eyes came to look at Merritt for the moment as she brushed her hand through his hair as she leaned over to him kissed him. "This... connection... is amazing.." she said with a smile over her features.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 11:45 am UTC (link)

He let out a small laugh, running his hand through his hair. Sweat beaded his skin. "That's putting it mildly." Merritt looked down at her. As much as he hadn't been planning on... that happening, it had answered a lot of his questions. In that one engagement they'd seemingly read each others mind, shared memories and feelings both physical and emotional. He placed a hand to his chest, his heart was still pounding and he felt famished and he remembered he had leftover pizza in the fridge. But that required moving, and he wasn't sure he could stand at that moment. "I've never felt... had..." Merr brushed some of her hair from her face. "Thank you." It was hard to put into words how she'd helped him actually enjoy sex for the first time in a long time. Where he hadn't felt guilty or dirty after.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 12:44 pm UTC (link)

Zel held a smile over her lips as she listened to Merritt for the moment. Licking st her lips at the thought of pizza she came to look at him. "Pizza sounds amazing right now." She added with a smile. But he was right, getting up right now was not an option.

So far he was the second person to thank her for sex. She was noticing a pattern, but she didn't care. "We are doing this again." She said as she leaned over and kissed him once more.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 07:23 pm UTC (link)

It was becoming harder to realize what he’d said and thought and vice versa. It was almost like they didn’t have to talk to communicate. When she said they were going to do this again he felt a small wave of nerves. It had been intense that was for sure, but the amount of times he’d been with the same person more than once he could count on one hand. And they’d always ended badly. He knew she was just looking for something casual, but what if he got attached? With their connection could he risk that? For a man so confident in the courtroom, he was shit at personal relationships. “We’ll see.” He replied softly.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 07:32 pm UTC (link)

She came to run her hand through his hair. "You're cute when nervous." She said teasing him slightly. But she thought for a moment. "Jason and I have an agreement. No getting jealous." Is all she said about her relationship with the King. Emerald hues looking to Merritt for the moment. "So.. If you want me again, you can have me." She assured him.

"I just have one rule. It's the same thing I told Jason... Don't fall in love with me." She said as she came to look at him, while playing with his hair. Zel strongly believed she didn't deserve anyone loving with. Blame it on the neglect and trauma she went through her whole life. But in her eyes, love wasn't in the cards for her.

Even if she was curious.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 07:38 pm UTC (link)

“Little late for that.” He chuckled. Though it wasn’t a romantic love he felt for her. Which was probably why he felt so nervous about the sex. The way he felt about her was more a soul mate, kindred spirit, best friend but more sort of feeling. It was hard to explain in words, but it was definitely not a romantic love. He’d known her his whole life even though they’d just met two weeks prior. She was part of him. His first crush, his first friend, his first love. That would never change. And as good as the sex was he couldn’t see them ever ‘settling down’ together, but at the same time nothing would break them apart.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 07:46 pm UTC (link)

"Then were doomed." She said teasing as she watched him. "I feel the same." She added since she could feel and hear what he was thinking. "And no. People like me... aren't.." she wasn't sure how to put it. She knew she was a drug addict. It was amazing she hasn't over dosed more often than she did.

Not to mention her past. She was terrified of a family life invade she ruined it, like she ruined her parents marriage. She came to sigh deeply as she tested her head on his shoulder. "No one looks at me and thinks of settling down. It's how it is. I'm just something to do in between times until the one shows me." She said with a nod.

Though it made her think of Merritt and Jason now. Would they get bored of her? Leave her? Break her crumbling heart? It was a lot of questions with no real answers.

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 10:56 pm UTC (link)

"One addict to another, You deserve to be happy... because of everything you've been through." He kissed the side of her head. "And I can't talk for your pretty boy... but I'm not going anywhere." Merritt chuckled a little. "I'm not sure I'd be able to anyhow." He sighed slightly and gently moved her, finally having the feeling back in his extremities enough to stand. He slipped his pants back on and moved to the small kitchen and pulled out the day old pizza. "Hope you like chicken, bacon and garlic." He said, as he set it on the coffee table before moving to fill up his drink again.

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broughttolight
2018-04-10 10:59 pm UTC (link)

When he called Jason pretty boy, Zel couldn't help but laugh a little. "You sound a little jealous there." She said teasing. In reality, all Zel had to do was fix her panties and that was it. Already she grabbed at his shirt and slipped it on once he brought the pizza out. Already she came to take a slice as she looked to him and thought a moment. "Ya know, we should try this connection when not so close to each other. See how we can trigger it."

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fromthedark
2018-04-10 11:10 pm UTC (link)

"Just maybe... not while I'm in a partner meeting. Next time." He said with a chuckle as he returned to the couch and took a sip of his drink. "And not jealous- just... protective. Always have been." Just never knew he needed to be.

They spent the rest of the night reminiscing on growing up, some bad some good. Moments, memories they had in dreams surfaced as belonging to the other and old memories of happy moments resurfaced the more they talked. They may have had some scars, but between those moments they had been happy at times. Eventually they both started to fall asleep as the Shok wore off. Merritt carried her up to his bed and tucked her in before taking the couch for the night. When she woke up in the morning there was a caff stick sitting on the counter for her and he was off to work.

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