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Tweak says, "PUDDING!"

Lachlan Callum Blackwood (writeonmyheart) wrote in nevermore_logs,
@ 2017-08-17 17:52:00

Current mood:	sick
Entry tags:	iain blackwood, lachlan blackwood, stephen blackwood

Who: Lachlan Blackwood, Iain Blackwood, Stephen Blackwood [NPC]
What: TROUBLE
When: Wednesday evening
Where: Stephen's house
Warnings/Notes: Drugs

Lachlan had never been away from Codeine for so long, but his partner had business he really needed to attend to and Lachlan hadn't even had a chance to speak to him for two days, let alone see him in a week and a half. Things were getting bad and by now Lachlan couldn't even kid himself any more. It was pretty clear that he was suffering physical withdrawal from his boyfriend.

Brutal.

To top it all off, Lachlan was lonely which didn't help the sick, panicky feeling in his gut. He made his way to his Uncle's house (not realising Iain was already there), just needing someone who loved him to be around him. Iain wasn't an option because his brother was already suspicious and Lachlan figured Norah had enough to deal with. Stephen had seen him at his worst and still loved him, so Stephen was really his only choice.

When his uncle pulled the door open to a pale and shaking Lachlan, he just firmed his lips and pulled his nephew inside without saying anything to him. He wrapped Lachlan up in a strong hug and called back over his shoulder, "Iain, we have company. Lachie's here."

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steady_on
2017-08-18 06:31 am UTC (link)

"That's great, Lachlan, but he got you off heroin and hooked on...well, himself," Iain replied. "It basically sounds like you've traded one addiction for another. I mean, obviously we can't force you to do anything, but look at yourself. He's been gone for a week, and you look like how I remember you did when I visited you in rehab. This isn't normal, you know? You shouldn't have to go through this."

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writeonmyheart
2017-08-18 06:37 am UTC (link)

Lachlan firmed his jaw and said slowly, "I am not leaving Ciaran. He's- I love him so much and he takes care of me. He might not even know! He wouldn't hurt me on purpose."

"No one said he did," Stephen was quick to point out.

"I want to be with him for the rest of my life," Lachlan admitted. "I guess I just have to make sure we don't spend too much time apart and it'll all be fine."

Stephen just looked to Iain, feeling helpless.

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	steady_on 2017-08-18 07:10 am UTC (link)
	"That's not-Lachlan, I think you're missing the point," Iain said gently. "Yes, once he comes back, the symptoms will go away, but that's because you'll be getting your fix again. And that can't-it can't be good for you to continue like that over the long haul." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

writeonmyheart
2017-08-18 07:19 am UTC (link)

"I am not breaking up with Ciaran," Lachlan said, with force now. "He makes me feel good about myself. Do you know how- No one has ever made me feel good about myself before. Ever. I'm a fucking- I'm a waste. I'm a pathetic piece of shit, and me makes me feel like maybe I might not be sometimes."

"Lachlan-" Stephen started, feeling his chest tighten. "You aren't-"

"I am!" Lachlan yelled.

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steady_on
2017-08-18 10:03 am UTC (link)

Iain remembered this. And remembered being on the other side. You couldn't reason with addicts, there was a reason it was classified as a mental illness. He and Stephen could sit there and reassure Lachlan all they wanted, he wouldn't believe them until he believed it himself.

"Lachlan, don't get me wrong, I love that Ciaran has made you feel better about yourself," Iain told him. "I can't hate him for that, and it's obvious he cares about you. But the physical toll it's taking on you, even right now...that's not good for you. Withdrawal wrecks you, we both know that. There has to be some way for him to...I don't know, not affect you as much. Maybe?"

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writeonmyheart
2017-08-18 10:10 am UTC (link)

That stirred hope in Lachlan's chest and he nodded quickly, "yes! I mean I'm sure he wouldn't do it on purpose! I'll tell him. But I'm not leaving him, he means too much to me."

Right then, the doorbell rang and Stephen heaved a sigh. "Okay, why don't we call take a deep breath and I'll go pay the delivery person. We can sit down and eat a meal like a family. No one will talk about addiction right now. Iain, will you flush this down the toilet please?" he asked, handing the bag of heroin over to his eldest nephew. "And Lachlan, you're staying here until Ciaran gets home. I am not letting you out of my sight. No arguments. Set the table."

Lachlan glanced at Iain as Stephen went to answer the door, but he wasn't about to talk back to the man. "You gonna flush that?"

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steady_on
2017-08-18 10:52 am UTC (link)

Iain watched Stephen go, then turned back to Lachlan. "Yes," he said simply, heading toward the bathroom. He went inside, closed the door, and dumped the contents of the baggie into the toilet. He flushed them away, and then, just to be safe, the actual bag as well.

He washed his hands, then leaned against the sink, staring at his reflection in the mirror. He looked tired and drawn, which matched how he felt. And who could blame him? He'd just found out his brother was literally addicted to his boyfriend, and that that was even possible. He was still struggling to wrap his head around that.

He came back out and sat down, his stomach rumbling at the thought of food. He really needed to eat if they were going to keep talking.

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writeonmyheart
2017-08-18 10:59 am UTC (link)

Lachlan let out a slight whimper as Iain walked away from him, but he wasn't about to fight his brother for drugs.

By the time Iain returned, Lachlan had set the table and he was sitting sort of dejectedly beside Stephen, who was spooning himself some rice and curry. "Ah, welcome back, son," he said to Iain. "I ordered more than necessary. Dig in."

Lachlan sort of half-heartedly reached for a spring roll and set it on his plate.

"I remember the first time I brought you all out for Mexican food. None of you knew what to make of it." Why not dwell on nice memories, rather than beating a dead horse over Thai.

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steady_on
2017-08-18 11:08 am UTC (link)

"Don't have to tell me twice," Iain answered. Which was the truth. He'd gone hungry for too long as a child to not take someone at their word when they offered him food. And Stephen would know that better than almost anyone.

He opened a container of noodles and dished most them onto his plate, then grabbed a spring roll of his own and ate half of it in one bite. He snorted, swallowing before answering. "Aye, because we'd never had anything spiced like that before," he recalled. "We had no idea what a taco was, or guacamole. It was beyond anything we'd ever had."

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	writeonmyheart 2017-08-18 11:19 am UTC (link)
	"And Norah refused to eat beans because she was sure they were puke," Lachlan added, and Stephen smiled at him. "Well they do sort of look like it if you don't know any better," Stephen admitted. "I just wanted you kids to have everything you hadn't had up to then." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	steady_on 2017-08-18 11:26 am UTC (link)
	Iain laughed. "I thought for sure they'd given us dog food by mistake," he added. "I liked them once I tried them, but they did not look appealing at first glance." "You did right by us, Stephen," he said. "More than our parents ever did. It was probably thanks to you I even finished school. We had no future in Scotland." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	writeonmyheart 2017-08-18 11:40 am UTC (link)
	"Aye," Stephen reached out to pat Iain's shoulder. "Fill your belly, son. After dinner I'll set up the guest room for you, Lachie. I still remember the routine." He had nursed Lachlan through withdrawal more than once. "I don't deserve you," Lahclan whispered and Stephen put his fork down. "That's horseshit." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

steady_on
2017-08-18 12:16 pm UTC (link)

"Of course you do," Iain agreed. "You deserve someone who'd help you up at your worst, because fuck knows our parents never cared enough to do that. He's seen all of us at our very worst, and it wasn't a matter of deserving. This is the sort of family we should have always had. And family loves you no matter what, through good and bad and all the shit in between."

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	writeonmyheart 2017-08-18 12:19 pm UTC (link)
	Lachlan groaned, but he knew Iain was right. He nodded and ate the spring roll before reaching for another. Stephen smiled kindly at Iain and settled into eating his own dinner. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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