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Echo (parrotting) wrote in nevermore_logs,
@ 2012-09-07 15:28:00

Entry tags:

echo, narcissus

Who: Echo and Narcissus
When: Friday evening
Where: Narcissus' place
What: Echo comes over because he asked her to.
Warnings: We'll see...

There was not much more in the world Echo could possibly want than for Narcissus to care about her. As of late he had been quite bearable, even sweet at times. She couldn't describe the joy she felt that he was finally, finally letting her into his life. He was being nice. He even complimented her from time to time. What more could a girl ask for?

(How about a guy who wasn't a complete dickhead and in love with himself?)

Echo showered and changed into something comfortable before heading over to see Narcissus. As always, she wondered what he needed to see her for. There would always be that doubt in her mind about them. That every time he needed to see her for any reason, it was to call everything off. This was no different. It came with the territory.

When she arrived a little ahead of time she contemplated whether she should wait until exactly when he said he wanted her there or if she should go ahead and ring the doorbell. Biting her thumbnail nervously, she thought about what to do and then realized it was nearly time so she rang to bell anyway. For once she didn't wear her earmuffs. She had become that comfortable around him. But she still had them stashed away in her purse.

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amour_propre_1
2012-09-08 01:36 am UTC (link)

Narcissus had spent months around Echo to abuse her kindness. He could never truly care about anyone. She could pine for him and he would still see her as a constant shadow to be stepped on. He wouldn't even admit to himself that he had found any comfort in her presence. When he called for her she came running without complain. She came because he asked. She was loyal to him. That gave the arrogant man power.

She arrived right on time, though he couldn't say he was entirely pleased. He looked her over, fingering the collar of her jacket. "What is this?" He seemed disgusted with her attire. It was plain. It was common. "It's not a good color on you," he said in a tiff letting her inside.

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parrotting
2012-09-08 01:48 am UTC (link)

Echo's misfortune was in her need to make Narcissus happy. It was in how she practically jumped anytime he said jump. It was a dependence most unhealthy. Even if she couldn't see it her friends could. It was really a shame she couldn't see it too.

As his words echoed through her voice quietly, a sad expression appeared on her face. She liked this outfit; she thought it looked nice. She stepped inside feeling the sudden urge to put those earmuffs on. She was starting to wonder about this visit. He still said some snippy things but that was plain rude.

Like before.

Which only made her worry.

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amour_propre_1
2012-09-08 03:57 pm UTC (link)

No one could ever please him, not entirely. It wasn't Echo's fault, but he felt the need to put the blame on someone. It couldn't be himself for obvious reasons.

She came in nervous which he'd expected. He'd danced around this for ages, and the girl was still too shy to even get physical with him. Not that he had sex for pleasure as much as it was to make himself feel more powerful.

He took her purse from her setting it aside, he tugged at her coat. "Can we take this off?" His voice was smooth but he was judging what she'd picked out.

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parrotting
2012-09-08 04:22 pm UTC (link)

With all that Echo tried to do she was starting to realize it simply wasn't enough. Even in the time she had found some happiness with Narcissus there were still the little remarks he had made that made her doubt herself.

Echo liked to move slowly. Sex wasn't something she just jumped into because that was a huge step to her. As much as she loved Narcissus, she wouldn't give herself to him unless she felt absolutely safe in this... whatever this was.

She nodded slowly and shrugged off her jacket, setting it with her purse. She put emphasis on take this off to show it was alright with her. She didn't appreciate her tastes being shunted.

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amour_propre_1
2012-09-09 04:16 am UTC (link)

It was the little things that he nitpicked because it grated on his nerves. Those were the little things about Echo that he couldn't let slide. The way she didn't care herself confidently enough. She was still far too shy and nervous. He didn't like that.

Yet, at the same time she was his constant. She was always going to be there because of their story. That too grated on his nerves. It seemed unfair to her, but he couldn't much get around that.

He put the jacket away where he couldn't see it, ignoring the fact that she may have felt uncomfortable with his comments. He pushed her towards the couch, placing his hands on her shoulders to guide her there. They usually spent nights this way, it was frustrating to a degree that she had not cracked before this. So eager to please, but still so timid.

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parrotting
2012-09-09 04:23 am UTC (link)

Echo let him guide her to the couch, still wondering how things would go. If he would be insistent about taking things a step further. (She just wasn't ready.) Or if this was one of those visits in which he would point out flaws. (They usually went that way no matter what the visit was about.)

She had gotten used to his presence and perhaps even more confident than she should have been. But somewhere inside that beautiful head of hers she doubted this entire thing.

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amour_propre_1
2012-09-10 02:01 pm UTC (link)

When Narcissus looked at Echo he didn't see beauty. He saw a creature that had latched onto him. He could even say that her being around physically was a drain on him. He could stand it when she was just an idea, a thought, or a name. In the flesh it disgusted him.

"Don't act so nervous, it makes you twitchy." He took a seat beside her. If he were to get this over with now he might feel better about himself later.

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	parrotting 2012-09-10 02:08 pm UTC (link)
	The more he spoke this way the need to put on her earmuffs grew. She felt she had every reason to be nervous. The vibe he was giving off didn't exactly scream let's get intimate. She merely nodded at his words and hated how she had to repeat them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

amour_propre_1
2012-09-10 02:46 pm UTC (link)

He sat down beside her, pretending that her face didn't completely disgust him. He could feel her heartbeat practically leap out of her chest when he took her hand into his lap.

He wouldn't spend another listless night seated in front of the television or listening to music. They'd kissed, made a few advances, but in the end physically Echo was a distant body. Narcissus needed to feel desired, just her presence alone didn't make him feel that way. It was abusing her in the end, but Narcissus would never be able to think of anyone but himself.

He gave her a pleasant smile, easing the tense air. He leaned in, petting her blond curls away from her face, his nose a soft touch against her cheek. He knew she'd thought about this more than once before.

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parrotting
2012-09-10 03:12 pm UTC (link)

As he took her hand Echo suddenly felt a sense of ease. Maybe she was just being paranoid. She released a sigh of relief without realizing she had been holding it in.

As much as Echo wanted to give him everything he wanted she still had her limits. He had said he wanted her to think for herself, and she did. All the time. Especially when it came to intimacy. Men were few and far between and the one she really wanted was right there making advances. Or so she thought. But it still didn't make her comfortable.

She allowed him to touch her but other than a shy, gentle touch to his hand or his face she made no other advances.

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amour_propre_1
2012-09-10 03:20 pm UTC (link)

There was a tick of annoyance that she stayed still like a little rabbit awaiting an attack. He kissed her cheek, smoothed her hair back on either side of her face then a soft kiss to her lips.

Narcissus was mistaken at thinking that Echo would give him everything he wanted to make him happy. It was there that he was foolish because no one would ever give him everything he wanted. It was part of the curse.

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YEAH NARCISSUS YOU PRICK! XD

parrotting
2012-09-10 04:00 pm UTC (link)

Echo had very little experience with men. Either she didn't know what to do or she was simply too shy to try something. Who could blame her? Plus her experiences with men in general had been a mixture of dread, sadness and panic. The girl needed to take it slow, Narcissus!

If it was in Echo's power she would have given him anything he asked for. (Why had she been doomed to love a heartless bastard?) But right now he asked something she could give in return. A gentle smile appeared as he kissed cheek, and then when he moved to kiss her she returned it gently.

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its pricks-r-us!

amour_propre_1
2012-09-10 09:15 pm UTC (link)

What Echo lacked Narcissus wasn't exactly a winning teacher. He abused her kindness every time he asked to see her. He was willing to see how far he could take her, power play her for his own self-esteem. He didn't care about how scared she may have been.

His kiss was soft and gentle, but her own was as timid as the rest of her. He peter her mouth open with his tongue. Gentle at first, just a soft lick against her lips, guiding her along.

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parrotting
2012-09-11 12:37 pm UTC (link)

Whether she had a good teacher or not she would always feel that she needed to do whatever he wanted. Short of sleeping with him until she was ready and sometimes she thought he understand, while other times she thought he was going to be incredibly angry. She was scared of it.

For now Echo allowed him to guide her. At first she was comfortable with this, this she could handle. Even a little tongue she could deal with, so she did.

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	peter...? really smart phone? PRIED not peter....omg. amour_propre_1 2012-09-13 02:19 am UTC (link)
	Both hands clasped her face, this time with more than a gentle nudge. "Stop being so timid." He was growing tired of this game. She either loved him enough to do as he wanted or she was useless. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Hehehehehe. I figured something went wrong but now that makes SO much more sense.

parrotting
2012-09-14 05:23 pm UTC (link)

Echo felt suddenly very uncomfortable. Yes, this was the man she loved. But she just wasn't ready. Even as she echoed his words she pulled away firmly and shook her head. She hated disappointing people, especially him, so it wasn't an easy thing to do. But she couldn't just do something because he wanted or told her to. Just the other day he had told her to think for herself. He had even said it pleased him, which in turn pleased her. Surely he would understand she was speaking her mind so to speak.

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	amour_propre_1 2012-09-19 01:50 am UTC (link)
	He should have cared for her insecurities but it just agitated him. "Are you saying no?" he said with a flick of his dark brow, an indigenous look on his face. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	parrotting 2012-09-19 01:51 am UTC (link)
	Echo frowned, forced to repeat what he said as she nodded slowly. She hated disappointing him, even right now when she wanted to give him everything he could possibly want. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amour_propre_1 2012-09-19 02:50 am UTC (link)
	He made a displeased noise pushing her off of him, turning it on her. "Get off me." He stood then brushing himself off as if she'd left some kind of disease on him. If she couldn't even bother she was of little use anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	parrotting 2012-09-19 03:08 pm UTC (link)
	Echo made a little sound as he pushed her off, surprised at the turn of events. Her voice had grown to a whisper as she repeated his words, watching him with agony. She hated this. She hated that because she refused he had turned so easily. She jumped up, unable to really do anything. She came closer, trying to hold him as she had so many years before. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amour_propre_1 2012-09-19 10:35 pm UTC (link)
	Narcissus pulled a glass from his wine cabinet, pouring a glass and ignoring her pleas. "Don't try to persuade me. It's pathetic when you whine." He kept his eyes on the blank wall. He waved her off with his hand, not once turning to face her. "Go home Echo." (Reply to this) (Parent)