I get that. I never really felt like I was at home. I kind of still don't, it's weird. I don't think I've ever really understood what that word was supposed to feel like.
Which I'm taking into consideration when I say this, because I may sound like a total asshole and I'm sorry if I do. Tell me and I'll shut up. But things about that place that made it feel like home are different now... it's not the home that you knew. You're going to have to make a new one for yourself, I think. Because pieces of that one are gone for now... I just don't think it'll be good for you to stay in a place that smells like them or reminds you of them. Do you miss the place or do you miss having reminders? Because if the second part is something that you think may be involved you might want to be careful...