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Tonks, if you please (tonks_please) wrote in mirage_rpg,
@ 2008-10-17 19:37:00

Entry tags:

complete, day 19, marcus cole, nymphadora tonks

Who: Tonks and Marcus
When: Day 19, early morning
What: A thoughtful witch has an odd conversation with the Ranger who really does mean too much to her.
Where: Near the forest
Rating: TBA
Status: Complete

Normally, Tonks wouldn't be here at all. Normally, she'd still be asleep, comfortable in bed, until at least several hours from now. But, as the dark circles under her eyes that she didn't even bother to wipe away attested to, she wasn't in a normal sort of mood. Perhaps, though, she could be forgiven, given that the reason for her odd behavior was what it was. Anyone would be shocked to learn they were supposed to be dead.

Of course, that had bothered her, but strangely not as much as learning that she was married, and had a child. Teddy. Teddy Tonks-Lupin, perhaps? Her child that she would never know. A child, a husband, and a funeral. It had been a very odd few days, really, what with being kidnapped, realizing she was falling quite badly for the dark-haired Ranger who had saved her, and then Ginny's return. It wasn't much surprise, really, that she hadn't been able to sleep the night before.

The sun was rising as she wandered out from her room and into the morning air. She took a deep breath and then just walked. She'd end up where she ended up, she didn't find that she much cared. Just to be alone with her thoughts in the early morning sunshine was enough for her. When she ended up by the forest, she walked along the edge, not penetrating into the trees. A large rock ahead beckoned, and with some trial and error, she scrambled up and settled down on top.

It was an odd sight, really. She was very pale, very obviously tired with the dark circles under her eyes, and even her hair wasn't it's customary bright color. Instead, she'd gone for a completely different look, her hair cascading down her back in a dark black rush. Her clothes were wrinkled, and all in all, she gave off a very different sort of energy than usual. She didn't even notice anyone approaching, as she sat there with her knees drawn to her chest. Instead, she burst into tears, burying her face in her hands.

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marcus_cole
2008-10-29 09:26 am UTC (link)

Marcus nodded as he listened to Tonks reason things out. He was relieved that he seemed to be getting through to her, and not at all discouraged by the fact that the matter still made her head spin. Time-travel, he believed, tested anyone's limits of understanding. Human brains just weren't built for it.

"If it's meant to be, it's meant to be, and there's nothing to be done; but you'd have to believe in destiny for that to be true. As for the rest, you've got the hang of it. You wouldn't marry him now, and you wouldn't if you went back, unless you fell in love with him, in which case you wouldn't mind. So, again, nothing to worry about."

He gave her another reassuring smile, even though she wasn't looking at him, feeling like he was making a difference, then was distracted by her fingers reaching for him. As they ran intimately over his features, he kept still, letting her do what she liked for the moment.

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tonks_please
2008-10-29 11:48 am UTC (link)

Eventually, she allowed her hand to drop to her side. She wasn't feeling much better, but even a little bit was better than nothing. She even managed a bit of a smile as her hand, tingling slightly, came to rest in her lap.

"Well, that's that, then, isn't it?" She spoke softly, almost to herself. "Even if I do die, I have to get back. Everyone dies... just most don't know when."

The witch slid forward and off the rock, landing mostly on her feet. Surprisingly, she only staggered a little. "I think I'm gonna..." Go somewhere else before I make a complete idiot of myself was what came first to mind, but that didn't sound quite right. So she just waved up at him. "Bye!"

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marcus_cole
2008-10-30 09:27 am UTC (link)

Marcus watched Tonks carefully, not nearly as convinced as she was that everything was fine. He let her end the intimate gesturing, but wasn't ready to let her get away from him without some more reassurance. Sliding off the rock himself, he stood near her, not wanting to crowd her.

"That's a good point. You'll die eventually, whether you get back or not. So, you're okay, then? You don't want me to walk back with you?"

Marcus didn't want to sound clingy or desperate for her company, but he was still concerned about her emotional state, though it seemed much improved. Of course, in addition, he found he was eager to spend any time with her she would permit, even when she was a bit emotionally-wrought like this time.

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tonks_please
2008-11-05 02:51 pm UTC (link)

She shook her head a little. She wasn't really the sort to say something was okay when it wasn't. Other women sometimes played those games, but she never much saw the point in them. So when she spoke, she was honest.

"No, I think this will take some getting used to, is all. I'm not fine right now, but I will be. Just need to get used to the idea of being a ghost, is all."

She shook her head once more, knowing that it would be a very bad idea for him to be around her right now. She was way too vulnerable, way too shaky, and way too willing to act on her new feelings for him. "I'm alright, thanks. I'll just walk by myself. I'll see you around, yeah?"

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marcus_cole
2008-11-07 09:06 am UTC (link)

Marcus nodded his understanding, reluctant to let her go, but more strong in his respect for her wishes. He felt certain this woman he admired so much was strong enough to deal with this, now that he had offered what help he could.

"Yeah, you'll be fine. Just remember, you're not a ghost yet, any more than the rest of us, anyway. You don't have to let it stop you from living."

Marcus gave her the warmest, most reassuring smile he could summon before he waved goodbye to her, and waited to watch her leave.

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