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Ianto Jones (kingofcoffee) wrote in mirage_rpg,
@ 2008-07-28 05:01:00

Entry tags:

complete, day 9, ianto jones, jack harkness

-Who: Ianto and Jack!
-What: Ianto finally finds Jack
-When: Afternoon-ish
-Where: The hallway in front of Ianto and Jack's rooms; Ianto's room
-Status: Complete
-Rating: R

Ianto let out a refreshing sigh. So far, things didn't look so horrible. His room was actually quite lovely. He had his own bathroom and a closet full of clothes, mostly suits. After taking a warm shower, Ianto had slipped into a red shirt and dark suit, completely his outfit with a matching red and black tie. He wasn't at work at the moment but the suits gave him a sense of comfort and protection. He was in a strange place and truth be told, deep down he was nervous.

His room was a replica of his bedroom at home. It helped to soothe his nerves a little but he knew he couldn't stay cooped up forever. Ianto had to find a way back home. He was worried about Gwen. She was probably panicking since he more or less vanished. Also, he wanted to be there when Jack came back home, because Jack would come back home, he would.

He decided to explore a bit, see if he couldn't find some answers to his many questions. Resting one hand on the doorknob, he straightened his tie with the other and opened the door. One hand slipped into his pocket, grasping his stopwatch that was still ticking away how long Jack had been gone. It probably wasn't accurate anymore but Ianto didn't bother to stop it.

Ianto set off down the hallway, taking five steps forward, then froze. His face paled slightly in shock and his heart started to beat faster. Someone was walking just ahead, their back towards him. Someone wearing an RAF greatcoat. Was it possible? Well, Ianto worked for Torchwood. With Torchwood, anything was possible.

His voice almost didn't work for a moment as he only managed to make a sort of pathetic squeaking sound. The person was walking away. Ianto took one desperate forward and found his voice.

"JACK!"

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kingofcoffee
2008-09-02 07:42 am UTC (link)

"This is all very strange..." Ianto murmured, distracted. "Have you ever even heard of a sentient planet before? First time I ever had..." The names seemed vaguely familiar and Ianto felt as if he should know those names... but he couldn't place them and pushed them away. He had more important things to think about right then, like Jack pulling his shirt free.

If they had been at the Hub, Ianto would have tried to keep quiet but since they were alone in a room, Ianto let out a fairly loud moan when Jack touched his chest, when he pressed his hips into him. "Jack..." he said almost desperately, turning around. He grabbed two fistfuls of Jack's shirt and yanked him forward, kissing him hard and firm. He decided to change his mind a second later and pressed his hands against Jack's chest, backing him up until he hit the wall hard enough to make a dull thump. His mouth found Jack's again, unable to stop kissing him as he copied the captain, unbuttoning his shirt this time. He wanted, needed to touch Jack's skin, to feel him, to know he was there and that he wasn't going to leave.

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cannot_die
2008-09-03 03:15 am UTC (link)

"There's a few of them out there," Jack said between kisses pressed against the back of Ianto's neck. "But they usually don't keep people prisoner on their surface. Don't know why this one's doing that."

He smiled and let Ianto pull him into the fierce kiss, returning it with equal fervour, making a small sound of pleasure. He loved it when Ianto took the lead. He loved it when Ianto let him take the lead. He just loved being with Ianto. He didn't care what they did or how they did it.

He grunted when his back hit the wall but didn't complain, not when Ianto was still kissing him like that. Instead he decided to help the process along and quickly shrugged out of his braces, letting them hang down as he shoved at Ianto's shirt, pushing it off his shoulders. He then snaked one hand down and brushed it over Ianto's erection.

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kingofcoffee
2008-09-03 04:45 am UTC (link)

Ianto reached up and quickly undid his tie, contemplating tying Jack's hands behind his back for a moment. The sudden boost of bravery made two things pop into his mind and he changed his plan, chucking the tie somewhere on the floor. He returned his hands to Jack's shirt, pushing it apart so he could slide his hands appreciatively down Jack's chest. He waited until Jack took care of his braces so he could pull his shirt out and tug it off his shoulders. Taking a step back, Ianto let his own shirt slide down his arms and fall into a puddle on the floor.

When Jack touched his erection, he let out a gasp then quickly snatched Jack's hand, holding it still. "Wait," he said almost frantically. "Wait, Jack. I... need to tell you two more things." His voice was firm. "Two other things I wanted to tell you after you came back and I'd better say them now before I lose my nerve."

Ianto raised his eyes up from Jack's chest to look squarely at his face. He could do this and he would do this. He wanted Jack to know. Ianto sucked in a breath then slowly let it out, stepping forward and hugging Jack suddenly. "Do you want to know the bad thing first or the good thing first?" he asked quietly.

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cannot_die
2008-09-03 04:55 am UTC (link)

Jack looked up in surprise when Ianto grabbed his hand and pulled it away and he almost tried to pull free until what Ianto had said punctured his growing lust and desire. Part of him wanted to tell Ianto to wait until afterwards but when Ianto suddenly stepped forward and hugged him, he changed his mind.

He wrapped his arms around Ianto in return, revelling in the feel of bare skin and Ianto's chest hair against his own smooth skin. He kissed Ianto's forehead then the end of his nose then finally his lips. "You can tell me anything," he said, pulling Ianto a little more snugly against him and smiling. "And how about the bad thing first then I'll have something to look forward to."

He couldn't imagine what it was that Ianto wanted to tell him though he was sure it wasn't anything in the magnitude of hiding a half-cyberman girlfriend in the basement. They'd moved beyond that. They trusted each other now.

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kingofcoffee
2008-09-03 05:08 am UTC (link)

Ianto closed his eyes, taking comfort from being in Jack's arms. He rested his head on his shoulder. "You probably already know this but... I was raped." If his eyes hadn't been closed, he would have flinched at that word. "You're... the first person I've ever told. It was before Torchwood. I actually went to London to get away from him," he admitted. "Even though it's been a few years, I just... wanted you to know the truth. And I love you." Ianto swallowed thickly, keeping his eyes closed as he continued to speak in a soft and quiet tone. "And it's okay if you don't feel the same. I know you care about me in your own way and that's enough for me," he said firmly. He knew Jack loved him. On what level, he didn't know but Jack did love, in some way or another, and he would take what Jack would give as he always had.

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cannot_die
2008-09-03 05:44 am UTC (link)

Jack went very still when Ianto finally admitted something he'd guessed a while back. It wasn't in Ianto's Torchwood file but it was there in his behaviour in bed if you knew what you were looking for. Once he'd figured it out, he'd given a lot of thought to trying to track down who'd done it. It would have been challenging but probably not impossible. Even he'd dropped the idea. By then he'd been involved long enough with Ianto to know that if he found out, he probably wouldn't leave whoever it was alive and he had enough death on his hands as it was.

"Yeah, I'd... figured that out," he said quietly, pressing a kiss into Ianto's hair. "You know it doesn't change anything, don't you? When it comes to sex, everyone has things they don't like doing and that's fine. You just have to tell me if you don't like something or don't want something. I'm not going to get upset. We'll just try something else."

He fell silent when Ianto said that he loved him, emotions flooding through him - elation, delight, fear, even grief. He wrapped his arms a little tighter around Ianto and kissed his hair again. He let out a sound that was part laugh and part sob.

"I want... I want to tell you how I feel," he forced out then he made another sound that might have been a very bitter laugh. "I used to be able to. I was good at it." He drew in a deep breath then cupped Ianto's face with one hand, raising his head so that he could look him in the eyes. "Owen..." He paused, swallowing down the stab of pain at mentioning his name. "Owen was right at the start. At first you were just a casual part of my life. But when I was away, I had... a lot of time to think. A lot of time. Thinking about the team kept me focussed, thinking about you kept me sane. I made a few decision at that time. Once of them was I didn't want you to think I was taking you for granted. That you weren't a 'part-time shag'. You were... important to me."

He dropped his forehead onto Ianto's shoulder. "God, I'm so bad at this," he said with wry humour. He closed his eyes and thought back to Rose, to how he'd been the last time he'd seen her, and reached for at least a little bit of the man he'd been then. He raised his head and looked at Ianto. "I want you. I haven't wanted anyone else for a while now. I know I flirt... that's me. But I promise you I haven't slept with anyone but you for... well, quite a while." He cupped Ianto's face with his hand again then reached into himself. He knew how he felt, he owed Ianto the words. "I do love you," he said quietly. "And that scares the hell out of me because... you're going to die and I'm not."

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kingofcoffee
2008-09-03 06:13 am UTC (link)

"I know," Ianto replied, his tone grateful. "I knew you probably knew as well..." He let out a dry laugh. "It's not hard to figure out when one panics when they're shoved up against a wall face first." He added softer, "Thank you for understanding, now and every time before when I hadn't told you. You don't know how much I appreciate it that you didn't ask and let me wait until I was ready to tell you."

Ianto was slightly startled at the sound Jack made after Ianto said he loved him. He quietly listened as Jack talked. He wasn't surprised at the first part; he knew things were different after Jack came back. Jack opened himself up more to Ianto instead of Gwen and they spent more time together. Hell, Jack had asked him out on a date and completely flabbergasted Ianto in the process.

The part after that, though, stunned him. He wasn't quite sure if he should feel honored or upset at himself for taking it for granted that Jack just naturally slept with anyone he wanted. He was from the future and things were more lax, from what Ianto knew, so he wouldn't have been surprised. The fact that Jack hadn't... It made Ianto feel a way he hadn't felt for a long, long time: loved, treasured, appreciated... He knew Jack flirted. He knew Jack would always flirt, but now Ianto knew where he stood with Jack, that Jack really did truly love him.

"If I knew a way..." Ianto began. "If I knew a way to stay with you, I'd take it. I wouldn't care if somewhere down the road we were just friends again, just as long as I could make sure you wouldn't be lonely. That's possibly the thing that frightens me the most, that after Gwen and I are gone, you'll be on your own again."

He reached up a hand to keep Jack's pressed against his face, closing his eyes for a moment to collect himself, soaking in the warmth. Opening them again, he said, "I suppose the only thing we can do now is make the most of the time we have now." Ianto leaned forward and kissed Jack softly.

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cannot_die
2008-09-03 06:48 am UTC (link)

Jack chuckled quietly. "Sex is meant to be fun, Ianto. Something both parties enjoy. If you weren't enjoying it then neither was I." He caressed Ianto's hair, enjoying it's softness. "Turnabout is fair play. You don't press for my secrets. You wait and let me tell you when I'm ready. Seemed only fair to return the favour."

His eyes widened when Ianto spoke and he brought both hands up to frame the younger man's face. He knew his expression would reflect his distress and anguish. "No." He shook his head. "I wouldn't wish this curse of mine on anyone, let alone you. Immortality isn't something anyone should want." He kissed Ianto's forehead. "I won't be alone once you're gone. I'll never be able to replace you but I think maybe the Doctor will let me travel with him again if I ask. He offered before but my place was with you, with Torchwood. That was something I worked out while I was gone."

He knew at some point he would have to tell Ianto what happened during that year that never was. He knew he had nightmares in the few hours he slept and Ianto had never said a word. Either he'd never woken the younger man, which he didn't quite believe, or Ianto was just waiting, which seemed more likely.

He smiled softly and leaned into the kiss, making a small sound of pleasure. "Right now it seems we have all the time in the world. No killing here. That's in the rules." He let his hand slide down Ianto's back and down onto his arse. A wicked light twinkled in his eyes for a moment then he pulled them close together and rolled his hips. "Now whatever shall we do?"

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kingofcoffee
2008-10-02 04:40 am UTC (link)

Ianto couldn't hold back the slightly amused smile that graced his lips. "I knew you would say that. And I didn't say immortal. Eternal youth doesn't sound so bad. I'd still be young and handsome and you wouldn't have to deal with an old crippled man in the future," he joked. "And that way, if I ever wanted an out, I could have it," Ianto added more seriously in a softer tone. "I don't think I ever would, though, as long as you were still around." He didn't say anything as Jack talked about the Doctor, then said honestly, "For once, I'm actually glad the Doctor is long lived. That reassures me, that he'll still be there... He offered to let you travel with him again?" Ianto wasn't quite sure how to take that, not because he thought Jack might have gone with him, but because he resented the Doctor slightly for various reasons. While he was someone important to Jack, it also seemed like the Doctor had caused Jack some pain in his life... but then again, so had Ianto.

Ianto raised an eyebrow mischievously when Jack rolled their hips together. "How about I show you how happy I am that you would have come back and that I found you again," he suggested, kissing Jack again but longer, slower, and deeper this time. "Let's talk later," Ianto murmured. He slipped away and moved over to the bed, looking back at Jack with a soft smile as he held out his hand.

Sometime later, Ianto fell asleep, feeling warm, sated, and cared for... but the best thing of all was Jack beside him once again.

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