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Tweak says, "If you cant get it up shake it"

Dean Winchester (hellsboy) wrote in mirage_rpg,
@ 2009-02-25 11:48:00

Entry tags:

complete, day 33, dean winchester, niki sanders

Who: Dean Winchester & Jessica/Niki Sanders
Where: C110, Dean's room
When: Day 33, early evening?
What: Roving scotch and brick fire pizza
Status: Complete
Rating: R (language)

It hadn't taken Dean long to reach his room and get ready. The tux was on the bed closest to the door as soon as he entered the room. A bow tie and diamond cuff-links. He glanced at himself in the mirror above the bathroom sink and flashed himself a toothy smile.

"You're one fine man, Mr. Winchester," he said and laughed at himself.

A quick trip around the room was in order though before anyone saw this place. He picked up various personal items and garbage strewn. He hid the glass of quarters in the drawer of the nightstand between the two Massage Hands beds and wished the quarter tanks away - for now. That was much better. Still looked like a cheap motel room but that was what he was used to and it worked just fine. Especially if you were leaving to go for pizza with a beautiful woman.

And thinking of said beautiful woman, he looked at the tawdry motorcycle babes clock on the wall in his kitchenette. She had 2 minutes before she was late.

He sat on the bed closest to the door to wait and a single red rose appeared on the coverlet. He was ready.

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splitmysoul
2009-03-04 01:40 pm UTC (link)

Niki was hurt and not thinking clearly and the sheer fact that it hadn't been her that hit him kind of threw her for a loop.

"I'm sorry." Niki said. "I just remember you kept saying nut jobs and I...I don't know." Niki really hadn't been in her right head and he was right to be angry. "I know you have been nothing but...I know." It hadn't been Niki.

"It wasn't me. It wasn't me and I know you don't believe me. I'm not Jessica, she is...was, she was gone."

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hellsboy
2009-03-04 01:52 pm UTC (link)

Dean had a hard time not looking at her like she had seven heads and was breathing fire. The about-face was so abrupt that it nearly made his head spin.

"You're not Jessica? Who are you? You know what though, I don't know if I want to know. I'm keeping my lips zipped around you. I realize you may not be able to control what happens to you if all of what you said is true. But I'm not going to stand here and wait for you to slap me around some more when I accidentally mention something else sensitive." He shook his head and took another step back away from her.

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splitmysoul
2009-03-04 02:17 pm UTC (link)

The way he was first talking to her, then this.

"Jessica and I had integrated. I am the person you met, it was all me, I just used her name. Since coming here I have been stressed, I just used her name after coming out of the meta human prison they put my kind into, I just don't remember and you don't even care to listen. You don't have to do that. I like you Dean, please don't take...you were being heartless in the way you came off and I don't even remember everything and kept saying things over and over. I am sorry." When he kept stepping away from her, Niki wondered why she even bothered?
"Please, don't? It's been a stressful time for me and something happened. I don't know why I am trying to talk to you? I don't want you to hate me, but I get why you would. I can control her. You don't care, I don't blame you." Niki suddenly felt dead inside and knew she wouldn't be bothering him ever again.

(OOC I am kind of confused here. I know we had spoken about things, but then I haven't seen you on. I don't want to impose. I thought we would talk how this would be handled. But I get that Dean wants to get away from here. Sorry)

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hellsboy
2009-03-05 08:33 am UTC (link)

Dean wanted to take issue with her using stress as an excuse but then he stopped. He stopped moving away, stopped thinking about her as though she were any other normal woman. She'd just explained to him, however convolutedly, the horrific way she had been treated for a large portion of her life. It sounded like she'd had shitty taste in men in the past. But some of that she hadn't been able to control. It had just happened to her. The way things just happen to people all the time for seemingly no reason other than the powers that be don't control people like puppets as nice as it would be if they'd at least control the evil ones. It wasn't fair of him to hold her to the standard he'd hold someone who wasn't suffering from DID. Some allowances had to be made.

Still he wondered too if she wasn't just lying because she was a completely out of control bitch. He decided to give her the benefit of the doubt, even if he was still very uncomfortable and really disinterested in saying something triggering accidentally again.

"Look, I get it. You were dealt a really crappy hand in life," he started and looked her in the eye. "You said you can control her? It doesn't look that way to me. Either that or you wanted to slap me around yourself."

He stopped and sighed, shaking his head. "You've got to stop passing judgment on me. You don't know if I care. You don't know what I'm thinking except that I don't want an instant replay of a minute ago. You can't expect a guy to apologize and then slap him and have him think 'Oh, yeah I want to stick around for more!' It doesn't work that way, Jes- whatever your name is."

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splitmysoul
2009-03-05 07:32 pm UTC (link)

"No, but all I am seeing is you passing judgment yourself. What you said hurt me, and was just insensitive. And the stress is a trigger. Look it up if you don't beleive me. I didn't slap you, I saw me slapping you, but I didn't slap you. You hurt me. Even if they were evil assholes, the way you talked about the disease, it was dismissive. And I told you my name, I told you a lot more then I have ever told anyone, other then Pete. My father was a bastard. He made me like this, after he killed my sister. What he did to us, he paid for, but it wasn't me. You are right, I don't know, but you don't know me either. We are integrated, were, doesn't matter now does it? Don't worry, I am not going to jump you and beat on you. Even without a disorder, the way you were talking was insensitive. So, do not put all of this on me. I won't allow you to do that. It takes two people to make something happen, not just one." Niki said, wiping her eyes. "It's Niki, Okay, you want to call me Jessica, then call me that. Do whatever you wish."

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hellsboy
2009-03-05 08:05 pm UTC (link)

"Well that was a barrage of bullshit. You're fully allowed to choose to not believe what I said to you but I have to believe you or else I'm some kind of shit head. I can't apologize because you won't believe anything I say but I am supposed to stand here and listen to you rant at me about what I did and already apologized for. Ok. Well have a nice evening. I'll leave you to it."

Dean threw up his hands and turned around, throwing them down again as he left. Jogging back to his dorm.

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	splitmysoul 2009-03-05 08:09 pm UTC (link)
	"Dean.I never said you were a shit head." Niki said. "I do believe you, but I am telling you how I feel. How is this fair?" (Reply to this) (Parent)

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