Ayanami Rei (firstchildren) wrote in marinasylum, @ 2010-04-05 16:29:00 |
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Entry tags: | :action, jun takashi, kyouya ootori, naoya, rei ayanami, tsukasa |
[Action | Open]
((ooc: She's not showing this video over the network; the details beneath the cut are there for reference in case she shows the video to someone. Commenting without reading that bit is fine if you don't want to be spoiled/you're a delicate sort.))
[Rei wanders the prison for a long time with the disc in her hand, trying to find a place where she can be completely alone. After searching and searching, she finally finds herself back at the door to her LCL tank - she enters the room and closes the door behind her, but forgets that it locks.
Then she finally attaches the disc Acumen gave her to her headset, sits cross-legged with her back leaning against the tank, and begins to watch.]
[She sees herself standing with Commander Ikari, naked, hears him say that the time has come. Her arm falls off - the AT Fields of humanity are beginning to weaken, including hers. He places his hand on her breast, and she swears she can feel the queasy feeling in her stomach just as her third self does - his hand sinks into her body, slips down to her abdomen.
"Take me to where she is," Commander Ikari says. The time has come. He will be reunited with Ikari Yui, and the world will end.
Then, suddenly, her third self absorbs Commander Ikari's hand, taking Adam with it. "I'm not your puppet," she says. And before Rei even realizes what is happening, the third Rei has merged herself and Adam with Lilith. "I'm home," she says, and when Lilith says "Welcome back," tears stand out in Rei's eyes.
After that, everything becomes something of a blur. Lilith, Rei, Adam - the combination grows and grows and grows, until she is able to clasp the Black Egg in her hands. She (Lilith, now Lilith is in control) tries to coax Ikari-kun to begin Instrumentality, but he refuses - then her body splits, a strange boy appears (Adam? Is this Adam?), and Ikari-kun suddenly accepts. He condemns the world to Instrumentality.
What comes next makes her stomach turn.
The Black Egg drifts upward, into her hands, and begins to spin. Giant wings sprout from her back and feet. Slowly, her anti-AT Field grows and grows, until... oh, the screaming. Crosses fly up across the globe, one for every AT Field gone, and a horrible screaming sound fills her ears. Every single human being on Earth, screaming. He said they would not feel pain. He said it would be an improvement. So why are they screaming?
Cross after cross after cross. A giant wave of LCL swells and crests, bloats the oceans until the continents begin to shrink and then disappear. The Lance of Longinus penetrates her Third Eye, and Ikari-kun regains consciousness. He -
- then, for some reason, she loses the feed. Has she died? Have Lilith and Adam finally been put to rest? Did - could Ikari-kun possibly have rejected Instrumentality in the end? Does humankind still have a chance?]
[She takes off the communicator calmly, sets it aside, not even noticing the tears in her eyes. She has only cried once before, when the Angel Armisael tapped the deepest parts of her soul and uncovered her deep, aching loneliness - this is the first time she has truly cried, reached the pain in her soul by herself and allowed it to surface.
With the communicator on the ground, she curls her knees up to her chest and rests her forehead against them - she does not shake, or sob, or give any sign at all that she is crying. From a distance, she could be sleeping. But the unshed tears remain just behind her lashes, waiting to fall.
Her hands move up to cover her ears, trying to block out a sound she knows she will hear for the rest of her life. The screaming...]