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Kitty Pryde (Shadowcat) (kitty_has_claws) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-03-18 23:13:00

Entry tags:

:mingle, aidan reilly, ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), nico di angelo, pavel chekov (au), suzaku kururugi, ton phanan

[Day 419] [Mingle / Closed to Defense Force]
[Kitty waits until the team gathers into the Defense Force headquarters. Once upon a time this team was big enough that having a meeting inside would have been uncomfortable. That hasn't been true for awhile. She loudly taps a pen against a desk a few times to get everyone's attention before she starts.]

You were probably hoping I scheduled this surprise meeting so I could deliver a long speech at you, and your hopes are being fulfilled. [A pause as she once again considers not moving forward with this.] I have been thinking about the Defense Force and where it started and how it's changed and the direction it could or maybe even should move in for awhile now. We're a smaller team than we once were and I've been wanting to refocus our efforts more on the investigation side of things, but our numbers don't reflect that. I think a lot of us are here because we do something similar back home. We protect. We fight. We have a team to support us. We wanted that here too, but I'm not sure the needs of this prison support that now. I'm not sure they ever did. I'm not saying we haven't had successes. We have. I'm proud of what we built and what we've accomplished even if it's surprising how completely unpopular a team for saving lives and getting people home is. [She's taken the brunt of that message too. Complaints and criticisms from what they did to stop Spike from attacking people to just not getting everyone home within a few months time against impossible odds.]

I think it's time for a fresh take on this idea. And the thing is... It's not going to be with me. [Just looking out at everyone.] I don't think leading a team is what I should be doing right now. It's meant a lot to me. It's been the only thing that got me through some hard times. But it's not here for that.

I've talked to Jack and he's not going to be moving into the role either, so where this leaves us is kind of up to all of you. And before anyone volunteers I just want to say take some time to think about it. Think about whether you have a direction and a passion for it. Also, it won't be my call to make what happens next, so you'll just have to see if others will follow if you want to lead. Which means, for the moment, there is no Defense Force.

[And with that her speech is over. Time to see what comes next.]

(OOC: Discussion post.)

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	candothat 2017-03-22 12:49 am UTC (link)
	You sound like you plan on becoming an old woman. [Joking! But now he's not really joking.] This may surprise you, Kitty, but you're still very young. What do you want to do? What would you like to start? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-22 11:16 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe I will someday. [She has a soft smile. It's not the way he means it, but there is something nice about the thought of that being a possibility. She was supposed to die a year ago and she's still here. Maybe she'll still be here in another 60 years.] Do? Start? This young version of me sounds very productive. I do know what I want to be though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-23 10:53 pm UTC (link)
	[Oh, he hadn't even thought of that.] Eventually. You will get there eventually. What do you want to be? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-23 11:01 pm UTC (link)
	Happy. Something you've been helping me with already. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-23 11:16 pm UTC (link)
	[He has no choice but to pull her into a secure hug.] That's what I want you to be most of all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-23 11:26 pm UTC (link)
	You know for me to be happy I'm going to have to make sure you're happy too. It's going to be a vicious cycle of happiness. [Resting her face against his neck.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-24 10:59 pm UTC (link)
	That is the most vicious of all of the vicious cycles. [This is so nice, though. He keeps an arm around her.] How do you feel right now, Kitty? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-24 11:04 pm UTC (link)
	Tentatively relieved. Also, you are cordially invited to an impromptu party that Ton is springing on me. You have to come. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-24 11:15 pm UTC (link)
	[A nod.] Good. I think that means that this was the right thing to do. You are cordially inviting me to a party that I have to come to? I can't say no to that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-24 11:25 pm UTC (link)
	Being cordially forced into things is always better, right? [She kisses his cheek.] I really hope so. The reaction from everyone is making me think so. If people are upset they seem to be keeping it to themselves. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

candothat
2017-03-24 11:52 pm UTC (link)

It makes the decision of whether or not to go much simpler. [He retaliates by turning to kiss her properly.

The mention of people who are upset and keeping it to themselves should really remind him of Reid, but it turns out that kissing and thinking about Reid are things that he can't do at the same time now that he's mostly over the falling-for-Kitty-when-she-wasn't-entirely-available-technically guilt?] How can anyone be upset with you ever?

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	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-25 12:25 am UTC (link)
	[Looping her arms around his neck.] Oh, it has absolutely happened and they were probably right to be that way like eighty percent of the time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-25 02:58 am UTC (link)
	This time they would be wrong. [She's so distracting with all of this being here that she's doing. He remembers the thing now, though.] The doctor was upset about the Defense Force not so long ago. I don't think that he was right to be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-25 11:12 am UTC (link)
	The doctor? Jack's friend? [She's thinking of the guy who calls himself The Doctor. Not shocking, right?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-25 01:16 pm UTC (link)
	No, no--sorry. Doctor Reid. [Someday he'll get over referring to people by their titles.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-25 01:22 pm UTC (link)
	...Oh. [Was not expecting even after their talk with all the notes.] What did he say? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-25 01:36 pm UTC (link)
	Something about how controversial the Defense Force was... asking for the discreet opinions of others on the subject. I will be honest, I paid very little attention to it once I saw that discretion was necessary. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-25 03:30 pm UTC (link)
	...What are you saying? This wasn't something he said to you directly? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-25 07:49 pm UTC (link)
	No, it was a general broadcast. What we spoke about specifically had nothing to do with that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-25 08:35 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't hear a general broadcast from him about the force. [She doesn't love where this is going.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-25 10:18 pm UTC (link)
	[You know, he doesn't love it much either.] It was screened. Everyone other than you, Jack... possibly also Ianto... could see it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-25 10:34 pm UTC (link)
	[She looks at him a bit stunned and leans herself back against the wall.] When? What did he say? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-03-25 10:42 pm UTC (link)
	[He misses that thing where she was leaning on him instead, but yes, okay, the wall did a lot less failing-to-share.] Day 412. He was asking for opinions on the state of the Defense Force and requested discretion to avoid trouble. When I spoke with him privately, he said that he intended to compile any answers into a report for you. Did that happen? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

kitty_has_claws
2017-03-25 10:53 pm UTC (link)

He came to me, but he sure as hell didn't say he collected them by making a mass broadcast and asking everyone but me, Jack, and Ianto what they thought of the Defense Force and then asking them all to keep it a secret like he's in some kind of insane high school drama. [Yeah, she's not going to take this well.]

Why would you let a whole week go without telling me? [Why would everyone? Not a single person on the force? Not a single friend? Not the man she's been spending her nights with? Except he did. He is the one who told her and it took a week.]

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candothat
2017-03-25 11:12 pm UTC (link)

I forgot about it until today. [Which is not the correct answer, but at least he clearly knows it wasn't and it's true?] We... er. The doctor and I had a conversation that day and that--

[Crap, he didn't tell her about that either. He's totally uninvited to that party now.]

It was about you, of course, and how quickly I entered into a relationship with you. I think that he originally hoped that we would end that discussion amicably, but it went badly... or it must have gone badly because he was upset when it ended. I thought that it was very civil. Uncomfortable, yes, and we disagreed on many details...