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Captain Jack Harkness (foreverjack) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-02-07 09:59:00

Entry tags:

aidan reilly, ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), martha jones

Day 414 / Open action
Jack's out and about today but he's starting to like Mistletoe Days less and less the longer he's here. And especially just now – given the current delicate state of his blue-band relationship, getting caught by a bot today just seems like it'll be asking for trouble!

Nevertheless, he will inevitably get caught. A man can't live without his coffee, and he's determined to make up for his binge drinking over the last couple of days (or twenty years) by getting back into his early morning swim routine.

He's kind of looking for Ianto too. A little too nervous to actually call him and get this talking thing started, more kind of hoping he'll just run into him and – well. Things will just happen.

((OOC: Decided to put this in a separate post for easier navigation on potentially long threads!))

((Note: NSFW happenings in the Ianto thread (surprise surprise!!!) ))

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readystopwatch
2017-02-15 02:16 pm UTC (link)

Ianto frowns thoughtfully, looking away as he processes that. It leaves him feeling conflicted because as much as he wants to be with Jack, to regain that intamacy they've always had this is also everything he's wanted to hear lately. It's conflicting and painful but it's what he asked for and he can't keep blaming Jack for everything the way he has been these last few days.

He's quiet a long moment before remarking thoughtfully, "Kirk suggested we start over entirely. Dissolve the bands and rebuild things they way we should have been from the begining. I didn't expect that suggestion to hurt as much as it did when I heard it. Maybe we have things to work on, but there are things in our relationship that have always worked because they're unusual and different and I don't want to lose that. You were right, you know; you really have changed here. You've proven that you can. And I hope I have too. And maybe we still have work to do but I've missed you so much, and it feels like it's been years since we were together and I just want you to hold me."

His voice breaks abitnwith emotion towards the end, surprising him. He wanted to be calm and rational about all this, wanted to say everything Jack just did.

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foreverjack
2017-02-15 03:34 pm UTC (link)

He watches Ianto, his own tension easing just a little because he's done his bit and he's putting the decision in Ianto's hands here, and he trusts Ianto to do the right thing here far more than he does himself.

When Ianto comes out with Kirk's suggestion, his eyes go wide, but he manages to keep quiet until Ianto finishes speaking, which is good because that last bit is totally worth waiting for.

"I don't know that either of us would be able to stand starting over completely," he says with a short, sharp laugh. The UST is thick in the air as it is, and it's only been a few minutes! He squeezes Ianto's hand, the cold, hard lump that's been lodged in his chest seeming to melt as Ianto acknowledges the progress he's made and that they do have something special, something that seems to make all this worth it. Something that's causing that longing in Ianto's eyes and that catch in his voice - something he responds to with pure instinct, sliding along the bench towards Ianto and gathering him into his arms. "Me too," he says, choking on the words, holding him tightly as tears of want and relief run down his face.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-15 05:52 pm UTC (link)

It feels like it's been years since they've held each other like this and even though he knows that isn't true he can't quite choke back a quiet sound of relief as Jack wraps him up in his arms. For now even the suggestion of going home fades, as long as he can stay like this, with him.

"Can't we both just agree we've made a good start and that we'll work on it as things come?" Because he doesn't want to have to face waking away from him today. Not in any way.

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foreverjack
2017-02-15 08:37 pm UTC (link)

It doesn't really matter that those twenty years were loaded overnight into their heads, they still feel like they happened. It really does feel like years, and he's not about to make them wait any longer, not when they both want this so much.

He lets out a choked sound that's half sob, half laugh. "Yes," he says, nodding against Ianto's hair. "Yes, we can."

He pulls back enough to reach Ianto's mouth with his, in their first proper, non-mistletoe-bot-inspired, kiss in years.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-16 03:03 pm UTC (link)

They've shared some intense kisses in their time but this one is certainly a contender for the top. It just feels so good to truely, genuinely kiss him with no resentment or hidden motives or anger beneath it all. They've always connected physically and he's always liked that. For all his talk of wanting to be able to communicate better he's always loved how much they understand each other without ever having to say a single word and he's absolutely taking advantage of that skill right now, pouring all the feelings of how much he's missed him and how much he loves him into one kiss.

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foreverjack
2017-02-16 09:37 pm UTC (link)

Along with the pure physical enjoyment of connecting, intimately, after so long, comes a long wave of relief. Because with all that talking about - well - talking, he'd started to lose his confidence that they'd ever really managed to communicate at all! But through this kiss he's reading Ianto loud and clear, and at last his worries are being washed away. As long as he can still have this, he'll believe they can work things out.

It's a long minute or two before he finally has to draw back for air, sliding his cheek against Ianto's instead to maintain as much contact as he possibly can. "Let's go home," he says, his voice rough with need as he tries to summon up the willpower to let Ianto go enough to stand up.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-20 02:59 pm UTC (link)

Ianto nods, but if Jack thinks he's letting go of him at all today he is very much mistaken. Usually this is the sort of thing he does more with Spike but right now he has no intention of moving away and keeps his arm draped around Jack as they walk. Oddly enough he isn't even thinking about sex as a reason to get home, not really. He just wants to be there, with him. To feel like they really have put this behind them, like going home again means something. It feels like it's been taken from them and he wants to prove they have it back.

The walk is mostly in silence, perhaps because it feels like they've said so much lately. Or maybe it's just amazement that they can have a more or less comfortable silence after all the painful ones they've had recently. Either way it feels good to step through that front door again, and he does his best not to remember slamming it shut last time. "I know I was just here, but it feels like I've been gone a very long time."

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foreverjack
2017-02-20 04:50 pm UTC (link)

He makes a soft, startled sound when he realises Ianto fully intends them to walk home with their arms around each other, but he goes with it. It's not something they've ever really done before, but right now he's very grateful for it and certainly not about to try and pull away. He has to keep blinking back tears of relief, though, as they walk, feeling the way Ianto's holding him, feeling his love and need with far more certainty than he'd ever get from words. He's tried so hard to do the talking thing, but this is still what he really needs.

It actually feels really strange to have Ianto walk into the apartment with him, after all that remembered time alone, not to mention the last two days. Not that he's spent much time here either, since they got back from the future. Ianto's only been gone two days in real time but the living room already has an unlived-in feel about it, and the bed is a mess from sleepless nights spent tossing and turning. Empty coffee cups and pizza boxes line the counter.

"It does," he agrees tightly, guiltily trying to extract himself from Ianto's arm so he can go and tidy up the kitchen to something a little more like Ianto would be expecting.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-20 05:16 pm UTC (link)

He's actually a bit surprised by the mess, although maybe he shouldn't be. He remembers the state Torchwood was in when he started there. He snags an arm around Jack to keep him from sneaking off to the kitchen, pulling him in for another kiss. Tidying up can wait. They can do it later and let him tease Jack over it in the process. But not right now. Right now he doesn't want to let go of him.

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foreverjack
2017-02-20 06:45 pm UTC (link)

Yeah, Jack's never been much of one for tidying up, and even less so when he's deep in depression. It's another mark of how much he has actually been trying in recent months that since they moved in together he has mostly tried to remember to pick up after himself, even if he hasn't always been successful. It's only since he thought he'd lost Ianto that he's gone back to his old habits.

He makes another startled sound when Ianto pulls him back and into a kiss, but he succumbs to the kiss with even more than his normal enthusiasm, the surprised sound turning into a moan of want. He's not particularly bothered about having sex right now either, but he is very bothered about wanting Ianto as close as he can possibly be, for as long as he can.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-20 11:59 pm UTC (link)

Ianto doesn't know what he wants either. It's all too overwhelming, too much and he feels like they should take things slow when all he wants to do is get close to him, communicate as physically as possible. It makes him feel guilty all over again and leaves feeling confused and conflicted and a mess of emotions he doesn't know how to address.

And then abruptly he thinks of what they did in the library, of the intensity and sense of trust that left him feeling high on endorphins and love. He wants that right now, wants it so badly it shakes through him and leaves him clinging to Jack, terrified it's too much to ask for just now and worried if he says what he wants Jack really will decide they need to take it slow. He can't find the words to ask for it but Jack knows him well enough to see there's something he wants even if he's trying to hide his face against his chest.

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foreverjack
2017-02-21 08:19 am UTC (link)

He can feel the indecision radiating off Ianto along with the need, and it makes him feel simultaneously relieved, because obviously they do actually communicate even if it's not always with words, and stressed because he doesn't know what he wants either and he really, really wants things to be simple right now.

He feels the change, too, as it goes through Ianto, feels him shake and cling, and suddenly he feels hopeless again because he has no idea what's going through Ianto's mind now. He cradles Ianto's head against his chest and draws in a shaky breath, stroking his hair and trying to soothe him without understanding what precisely has rattled him. "What's up?" Apart from everything else, of course.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-21 01:10 pm UTC (link)

They said they were going to talk more. Might as well put that to the test now. Otherwise what's the point of all this? What's more is he does want things to be simple and normal right now as well and with them that's always meant sex. Right now he's not sure that's a bad thing. They've made progress and they've talked but they've also been badly shaken up the last few days and he needs something to make him feel steady, stabilized,

So as unsure as he feels his voice is surprisingly steady as he answers. "What we did at the library. I want something like that just now." A pause, then he corrects himself because it's more than just wanting it. "I need it."

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foreverjack
2017-02-21 09:55 pm UTC (link)

Whatever he was expecting, it wasn't that. To be fair, he wasn't really expecting anything, because his brain hasn't managed to extrapolate any further than just the two of them managing to spend more than a few minutes together without fighting, but if he had managed to think any further ahead than just those few minutes... it wouldn't have been to anticipate hard kink.

"Now?" he asks incredulously, because honestly, he's never felt less steady and in control, and that's what he needs, for something like that.

And then he listens again, in his head, to the undeniable need in Ianto's voice, and thinks about how on earth they're going to get through this, and somehow maybe it's not such an absurd idea after all.

"You'd really trust me with that?" is all he says in the end, because however much sense it might seem to make, he still can't quite believe it's what Ianto is actually suggesting.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-21 10:08 pm UTC (link)

Ianto can pick up on every emotion passing through Jack and while a part of him feels apprehensive at the range of them part of him is secretly glad he can. That they're finding their rhythm again, that they can get back to what they had, that it isn't all lost. It reassures him, and makes him feel certain this request is the right decision.

As a result his gaze is steady as he lifts his head off of Jack's shoulder to meet his surprised face. "Yes, I really do." And it's more than that. Right now he needs it, needs to be able to trust him. It's never felt more important.

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foreverjack
2017-02-21 11:27 pm UTC (link)

He feels completely blindsided by this request, and yet somehow at the same time it seems to make perfect sense to him to. Perhaps because, after all this time, they are on the same wavelength too, however much recent events feel like they've shaken that.

He studies Ianto for a long moment, eyes anxiously searching his face for any sign that he's not really into this, that the suggestion is just an attempt to appeal to what Ianto perceives to be his wants or something. But there's no mistaking the earnestness in Ianto's eyes, or the determination in the set of his jaw.

"All right," he decides finally, with a firm little nod, and then jerks his head towards the bedroom. "Come on then." And then, rather sheepishly, as he remembers the state the bed's in, "You - uh - we might want to remake the bed though, first!"

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readystopwatch
2017-02-22 01:15 am UTC (link)

Maybe it is a big step considering they weren't even speaking to each other an hour ago. Then again, perhaps it's exactly the step they need. After all a week ago they were having a threesome with Spike. Surely that trust and intimacy isn't completely gone. It must still exist, and he wants to believe it can deepen with this new understanding they're trying to reach. He wants to feel like that trust is back and this seems like the right way to do it. He remembers how it felt before, and if there's anything that can leave them feeling comfortable and close with each other again this is it.

It's oddly touching to see what a mess the bed is, like Jack hasn't been able to sleep at all. He deftly takes over and begins making it with predictable precision. "Why don't you go find some things we can have a bit of fun with? I'm sure you must have something lying around. I'll manage this."

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foreverjack
2017-02-22 12:11 pm UTC (link)

Jack's hoping it's still there too, after all the mistrust and conflict they've gone through, even if a lot of it wasn't actually them. If nothing else, though, this should show them for certain one way or the other. If only he didn't feel so scared of getting it wrong, of ruining everything once and for all!

He watches Ianto go to work, admiring the skill and finesse of his handiwork, then nods at the suggestion, a slow smile starting on his lips. "Hardly just lying around!" he says, nodding towards the big drawer under the bed, but waiting until Ianto's finished with the sheets on that side before getting down on his knees and pulling the drawer out. He starts rifling through the extensive collection of toys - some already played with, most still unused, because they rarely seem to actually get that far before wanting to fuck each other - and giving them some consideration before pulling out a small, soft flogger, a wide leather paddle and, after another moment, a small vibrating butt plug.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-22 01:20 pm UTC (link)

They've made a start in changing things after all this and Ianto is doing his best to see that as a good thing. There has to be some sort of bright side to all this or else itnall simply feels like too much. He has to believe they've made a positive change, or else it means their relationship is too fragile to survive a real confrontation when one arises.

He finishes with the bed and watches silently as Jack makes his selection, a small shiver of anticipation running through him. "How do you want me?"

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	foreverjack 2017-02-22 03:00 pm UTC (link)
	He turns to grin up at Ianto, giving him a lewd look up and down. "Naked," he says promptly, pushing the drawer back and standing up, toys dumped on the bed as he sits to unlace his boots and start undressing too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

readystopwatch
2017-02-22 03:13 pm UTC (link)

That response actually gets a faint smile out of him. The leer and the comment feel so refreshingly normal, and it's abruptly reassuring.

"I can manage that." Removing his clothes takes less time than usual. After spending the past few days at Spike's he's in jeans and a t-shirt rather than his usual suit so it's the work of a moment to strip them off and set them aside. He shivers slightly, those whether with nerves or anticipation even he isn't sure.

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foreverjack
2017-02-22 03:46 pm UTC (link)

The almost smile is good to see and helps his confidence no end. He's fighting his own nerves on this just as much as Ianto is.

Eager to get started, hopefully to allay those nerves, he doesn't waste any time stripping and by the time Ianto's ready, so is he. He settles himself on the bed, seated in the middle with his back supported by pillows, with plenty of room for Ianto's long body on either side of his legs.

"Up here, please," he says, patting his bare lap and gesturing to show Ianto should lie across it. This will be different from last time. This time he's naked too, and the emphasis is going to be much less pseudo-punishment and a lot more pure pleasure and bonding.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-22 04:39 pm UTC (link)

It's nice to see vulnerability from Jack. It's so rare after all and it makes Ianto feel better, more confident about himself. By the time they're both undressed things almost feel normal again, or at least like it's possible for them to be soon.

He follows the instructions, glancing at Jack to make sure he's in the right place as he settles down in the position he's indication. It's obviously going to be different from the last time they did this and that's fine with him. The intensity, the rush of affection and endorphins is what he's after here as much as anything else. Maybe in the future he'll want to try more but that's not something he thinks either of them could handle just now. "Like this?"

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foreverjack
2017-02-22 09:40 pm UTC (link)

Ianto's seen so much more of his vulnerable side than anyone else has in decades that he'd be shocked to discover Ianto still thinks it's a rarity.

Or perhaps it is still a rarity by anyone else's standards, but it's a lot by his!

He gets his hands on Ianto as soon as he's close enough, guiding him into position across his lap, making sure his weight is comfortably supported across his thighs, his cock comfortably free between them. "Just like this," he confirms when Ianto's in place, and takes a minute to just run his hands over the expanse of Ianto's back and ass and thighs, giving them both a moment to just reconnect physically and centre themselves. It really does feel like an incredibly long time since they were last together.

"Safeword?" he murmurs, because it's a part of the ritual and even more necessary after all this time.

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readystopwatch
2017-02-22 10:05 pm UTC (link)

Ianto let's out a long, quiet sigh as Jack's hand stroke across his skin. It feels like it's been so long since they've touched like this and he can feel himself relaxing under the touch. He knows how different what's coming next will feel but that only increases how much he enjoys this.

"Myfanwy." Such a rediculous one but it's special to them. He's got fond memories of capturing that pterodactyl together.