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Dr. Spencer Reid (thisiscalm) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-01-26 00:15:00

Entry tags:

aigis, jezebel mephistopheles, malcolm reynolds, pavel chekov (au), peter parker (stnas), spencer reid, tieria erde, ton phanan

412 - closed video
[ VIDEO - FILTERED AWAY FROM JACK HARKNESS, IANTO JONES, KITTY PRYDE THE OLDER ]

[ Reid has spent some time carefully setting up the encryption, knowing fully well that his attempts to keep this discussion away from from the people that might take it the wrong way may result in them taking it the wrong way, should they ever find out. This is the best way he can think of to discuss this though, as a community and after yesterdays events he feels a stronger need to rally than ever before.

He's in full on Serious Mode when he clicks on the feed, voice even and confident, perhaps more so than most are used to seeing him. ]

Good afternoon. For those of you who don't know me, my name is Spencer Reid. I'm a member of the Behaviour Analysis Unit of the FBI back home — law enforcement. I used to be part of the Investigative Team- [ Pretty much co-founded it back on day 150. ] - but quit the Force some time ago... and that leads us to what I want to discuss.

As some of you might know, the Defence Force has been controversial for longer than we've been in this prison. I feel, and I doubt I'm alone in this feeling, that it has outgrown its original purpose. There aren't that many of us left, certainly not enough to warrant an internal police force like this. Concerns have been brought up in the past that the Force acts without taking into account the wishes of the rest of the population, with regards to escape plans as well as punishments of our fellow inmates.

This is why I'm addressing you — I want to hear your opinions on the current state of the Defence Force. What is your impression? And, in a broader sense, what do you feel we as a community should do to better protect and care for each other?

Oh, and - please be discreet. I'm not looking to cause trouble with the current leaders of the Force, but I also don't wish to provoke them with this discussion. For the time being, please keep this between us.

[ Video - Chekov ]

Chekov - a word?

[ Video - Karev ]

Hey, uhm... Alex? Can I talk to you?

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	thisiscalm 2017-02-05 12:37 pm UTC (link)
	Sounds good. I'll be there. [ He'll be waiting at the coffee shop, mindlessly stirring sugar into his coffee. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-05 09:50 pm UTC (link)
	[Karev arrives shortly, looking slightly grim around the edges but not as beaten down as his older counterpart was. His mannerisms are a little tense, tight and the stress pretty much steams off him as he comes in through the door and seeks out Reid.] Hey. [He pours himself something strong and bitter.] How's your hangover? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-05 10:03 pm UTC (link)
	[ Yeah, he notices that, meets it with a look of sympathy. ] I thought I had it bad, but looking at you maybe I should count myself lucky. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-05 10:08 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. I always figured I'd take after my mother, not my father. [The crazy, not the addict.] 'Course, I never guess right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-05 10:27 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, well... chances are I'll fill that quota. [ The crazy. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-05 10:35 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah? [He tries to think back on the details of yesterday, some of which are elusive. Whether that's the nature of whatever happened or the black out drinking? He's not sure. What he is sure of is that he doesn't feel he was there enough for Reid. But he was hardly there for himself.] How bad was it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-06 03:13 pm UTC (link)
	Really bad. [ He hesitates, chewing on the rest of the answer but this is Alex and if anyone actually understands this then it's him. ] I, uhm. I was seriously considering suicide. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

evilspawn
2017-02-07 08:16 am UTC (link)

[Karev has exceptional tact because he knows the situation too well. He's winded by it, just like he was by the times he had to deal with his mother or his brother's episodes. Their attempts to die or harm someone else. It's complicated and it's tricky and he really can't say in the same shoes he wouldn't have planned the same.]

That bad. [Christ.] What were the symptoms?

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	thisiscalm 2017-02-07 12:07 pm UTC (link)
	Auditory hallucinations, difficulty maintaining contact with reality, paranoia... headaches, but that may be unrelated. I can't say for sure without a diagnosis but it felt... appropriate. Can't imagine being stuck in a virtual environment for that long is very good for our mental stability. [ So. Yeah. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-07 10:39 pm UTC (link)
	[Alex sticks his hands in his pockets, rolls back his shoulders while listening.] Right. And so you weren't on any treatment plan, professional or otherwise. [Because maybe that wouldn't have even worked. He rubs his jaw with the flat palm of his hand.] How do you feel now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-08 11:37 am UTC (link)
	[ That's the thing, isn't it? They can fill him to the brim with antipsychotics and it still wouldn't do a thing to his actual brain chemistry. ] Discouraged, which I suspect was their plan all along. Which, uhm. Is why I wanted to talk to you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-08 07:58 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah? I'm here, dude. Lay it on me. [Karev's attentively concerned.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-09 09:18 am UTC (link)
	Can you keep an eye on me? In case I start acting... weird. [ That's the first, easy bit. The next is harder and Alex can probably tell he's got a much bigger favor lined up. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-10 07:10 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, dude. Of course. [Is there more to it? He inclines his head, studying Reid closely.] You're not having symptoms now, are you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-10 09:54 am UTC (link)
	No, no... all things considered, I think I'm doing pretty okay. [ Still gets his injections for the migraines, which was not the case in the future. ] But, uhm. If that changes, if what we saw yesterday really turns out to be a prediction... I wouldn't ask this if it wasn't important. [ Except he hasn't asked yet. He's working up to it. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-11 05:32 am UTC (link)
	[Karev's jaw tightens and you can see his posture straighten -- stiffen too.] Yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-11 06:04 pm UTC (link)
	I can't- stay here, if that happens. [ You get it, right? ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-12 07:00 am UTC (link)
	And what are you asking me to do, exactly? [Spell it out so he knows for sure.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-12 10:00 am UTC (link)
	[ He draws a tense breath. ] This is a virtual environment. Things are different here, so what I'm asking isn't, ah... it's not as serious as it sounds. If you can, if you find a way... please disconnect me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-14 02:50 am UTC (link)
	[He pauses for a long moment, rubs his face as he considers it.] So, put you back in stasis or whatever. I mean, it is the better of the two options. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-14 11:01 am UTC (link)
	That's what I'm thinking. Maybe these aren't our real bodies, but they are our real minds. That would, perhaps, limit the psychological damage. [ That and he's scared shitless of going through that without medical care. Even with medical care it's a daunting and terrifying future, but at least then something can be done. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-15 05:20 am UTC (link)
	[He mulls it over but finally, he makes a noise of agreement.] Alright. One condition, though. [...] You do the same for me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-15 09:31 am UTC (link)
	Agreed. [ No hesitation. He was expecting this, would've probably offered even if Karev hadn't brought it up first. Nine months in and he has his first suicide pact. That's... something. ] Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilspawn 2017-02-15 10:11 pm UTC (link)
	[Karev merely shrugs; not something he's thought too far into before so it still kind of feels weird. But he's in.] I'm assuming this is on the extreme downlow, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-02-19 05:38 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I think there's a good few people here who'd take it the wrong way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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