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Kitty Pryde (Shadowcat) (kitty_has_claws) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-01-23 17:54:00

Entry tags:

ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), pavel chekov (au), peter parker (stnas)

Day 412 The rewind
[Video/Action | OPEN]
So that...happened.

I've been here for awhile and for those of you who are on the newer side of things, I wish I had some keen insight for you, but that's just one of the games they play. It was kind of a remix of some of their old ones. [She's seen people remember more future before and seen people think they were connected to others in new ways. She had a husband for a day once before.] I think it's just important to remember who you are without their toying and lean on people when you need to. We're in this together.

I don't think what we saw was a real future even if parts of it seemed like they were. There were some conflicting outlooks. Of course, that hasn't stopped me from trying to remember exactly how we overthrew them in mine. [It hasn't stopped her from thinking about a lot of things it brought up.]

Anyway... [She hopes you're all okay. She would have been better at saying that yesterday when it was still twenty years from now. So, she just ends the feed there and you might find her out and about looking particularly thoughtful. Maybe absently walking through solid objects including you! As one does.]

[Action | Closed to Chekov]
[Before her broadcast or any other calls there is just a girl waking up next to a boy. Everything feels right at first. She snuggles closer and the details don't feel important. Are they still in the future? Was yesterday a dream or an experiment? It doesn't matter yet. She's only half awake and warm and comfortable.]

[Video | Closed to Jack]
Hey, so, how are things? [Concerned but also unsure how to ask if yesterday ruined his relationships for real.]

[Video | Closed to Ianto]
Need a coffee? [Code for "let's talk."]

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	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 03:29 pm UTC (link)
	I don't suppose you could just go tell him all that for me and make it easier? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-01-30 03:34 pm UTC (link)
	I feel like me doing the touching part might send mixed signals. [Also, she did a lot of the touching of him yesterday.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 03:48 pm UTC (link)
	I suppose I could handle that part of it if you do the rest. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-01-30 03:54 pm UTC (link)
	You gotta do it yourself. [Smiling at him.] And soon but then maybe back off for awhile because I think the twenty years thing is still making us all a little weird. I hugged you when I got here. Not that you aren't extremely huggable. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 04:06 pm UTC (link)
	I'm really not extremely huggable. [Really not his thing at all.] I'll sleep on it. Thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-01-30 04:09 pm UTC (link)
	Sure. Soooo... Did I mention Chekov told me he loves me? [Because that wasn't super recent, but it was also 20 years agoish so it's hard to remember what she might have said.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 04:16 pm UTC (link)
	Yesterday or today? [Either way it's a big deal.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-01-30 04:23 pm UTC (link)
	...Both. And then also before yesterday. [All big, different deals.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 04:25 pm UTC (link)
	And did you tell him you loved him back? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-01-30 04:26 pm UTC (link)
	I did on one of the three. If you guessed it's the one where I was married to him in the future you'd be right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 04:27 pm UTC (link)
	Did you only feel that way in the future? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

kitty_has_claws
2017-01-30 04:32 pm UTC (link)

[She takes a deep breath and leans back in the chair.] Right now I feel like I'm in love him. I almost said it back this morning. I felt it. I wanted to say it. But... I feel like I've been in love with him for a long time. Like the lines of yesterday and today are blurred. I know I wasn't sure before and I'm afraid in a week I won't be sure again and I will have already said it and it would be worse. Which is what I told him.

The first time he said it I told him he was very important to me.

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	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 04:43 pm UTC (link)
	I can understand that. [He still dosent know if the problems he and Jack are having just now would ever even have come up if it wasn't for yesterday.] How did he take all that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-01-30 04:50 pm UTC (link)
	Amazingly. The way he handles everything. He's so good to me, Ianto. [She smiles.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 06:13 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad. You deserve someone who makes you happy, you really do. Maybe I should take a few notes from the two of you and how you handle things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-01-30 06:17 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah? I feel like someone should be telling him to run. [But really though. She's worried about him being with her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-01-30 09:25 pm UTC (link)
	I realize I'm not one to be giving out relationship advice of any sort just now but maybe that attitude is part of what has given you so much heartache in the past. Stick it out; you both seem to think you're worth it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

kitty_has_claws
2017-01-30 09:54 pm UTC (link)

It's not... [She looks around the shop just to make sure it's just them and the bots at the moment.]

Today, I feel over Reid. Not that I don't care, but it feels like that was all a very, very long time ago. Decades. Except, I know it wasn't. I know two days ago I couldn't say I love you to the guy who is extremely good to me and unfailingly kind because I was still at least a little in love with Reid. I knew things were over with us, but moving on was harder. And I didn't want to say it until I was completely sure. Until it didn't feel like it came with a disclaimer.

I'm being honest with Pavel I just wish I could be what he deserves. I guess he knew what he was getting into anyway. [She was clearly entirely in love with Reid when she met him.]

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	readystopwatch 2017-01-31 03:37 pm UTC (link)
	[It's an impressively mature response and he admires it, especially in comparison with the shambles of his own lovelife right now.] I think he absolutely deserves you, and he knows it. And I'm willing to bet a lot of those things you mentioned are what he loves about you the most. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-02-01 12:48 am UTC (link)
	You... Are not allowed to make me cry. [She's not exactly on the verge, but that was pretty touching. Just hearing that she deserves to be loved as simple as that message is and as easily as she'd apply it to anyone, it still means a lot hearing it directed toward herself.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

readystopwatch
2017-02-01 01:04 pm UTC (link)

I just had a fight with my boyfriend, I'm fairly sure that means I'm allowed to do what I want and as my friend you have to listen. Especially when it's true. [He thinks one of the reasons they always end up talking relationships together is because they're too similar when it comes to them. Neither of them ever thinks they're worth it and they're always both so terrified of things actually working out for them.]

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	kitty_has_claws 2017-02-01 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	It's like I forgot the rules of boyfriend fighting. Carry on about how great I am if you must. [Little smile.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-02-04 06:57 pm UTC (link)
	I won't carry on, even if it's all true. All I'll say is that I hope it works out for the two of you, I really do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-02-04 07:40 pm UTC (link)
	Me too. I'm mostly worried about being...clumsy with his heart. [She would never intentionally hurt him, but she's been hurting for so long and just trying to pick up the pieces and take care of herself that getting into a mode where she needs to be mindful of his heart too is important and needs to be done right.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	readystopwatch 2017-02-05 02:21 pm UTC (link)
	That's a poetic way of putting it. [And one that he very much sympathizes with right about now. Just once he wishes he could manage a relationship where he isn't constantly worried about ruining it for everyone involved.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)