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Euphemia li Britannia (friendly_fire) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-07-01 23:18:00

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euphemia li britannia, lelouch vi britannia, suzaku kururugi

Day 382 - Closed Action
[Euphie is loving their new location even if she wishes the wardens had communicated better about the situation. But there they are and it seems that everyone is safe and this dome is even more beautiful than the one they left. She smiles over at Lelouch and Suzaku, happy to have them in one room.]

What are your plans for today? [She asks as she lightly touches the necklace that seemed to arrive with her even though she'd never seen it before.]

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	friendly_fire 2016-07-25 06:53 pm UTC (link)
	[Suzaku's reluctance spurs her on. It makes her want to act directly in the moment. If he won't kill them then he must die now. Her hand reaches for him, fingers curling under as the struggle returns if only very briefly, as some part of her tries once more to fight the compulsion driving her.] I must kill all the Japanese! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

imperious
2016-07-25 11:54 pm UTC (link)

[ wh, why isn't Suzaku leaving the room oh gods he's all but provoking her ]

[ Lelouch makes an awkward, desperate lunge for her from behind, trying to grab her waist to hold Euphie back. He's still kind of wild-eyed when he lifts his head. ]

Suzaku, this isn't really the time! [ Don't you understand, she can't be reasoned with, she can't be talked down-- ] [ Blurting, senselessly: ] It isn't that easy to control!

[ He might, possibly, have forgotten for a split second that he's not talking to the Suzaku who learned to control it. And this might be the worst plan he's ever come up with, but this scenario combines putting Suzaku in danger with the ugly, brutal reminder of his worst personal failure, and it is not doing his ability to think clearly any favors. ]

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whiteknightmare
2016-07-26 12:14 am UTC (link)

[ The thing is, he has got it. Euphemia is strong and determined and fast, but he is stronger and faster.

His hold on her wrists is immediate and firm and gentle, and he spins her around, so her back is pressed to his chest. But don't get it wrong, careful as he is, he's taking no chances. She is not getting out of his hold to cause harm to anyone.

To cause harm to herself. ]

Perhaps, Your Highness. But you were doing well to consider that in perspective, and I would advise you to return to that.

[ Green eyes meet purple around her hair. ]

And, Your Highness, would it not have been nice [ his tone is even and absolutely frosty ] if we had something that we know is dampening the effects of it so she would not have to fight it?

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friendly_fire
2016-07-26 12:28 am UTC (link)

Let me go! [She thrashes, first against Lelouch and then against Suzaku. But Suzaku's hold is careful and well-trained. He knows how to keep her from having adequate give to be able to gain any traction. It doesn't stop her. She struggles because she must, but she's held tight.]

Suzaku, I order you to release me.

Lelouch, kill him. It's what you wanted!

[Their conversation isn't registering. Not over the weight of the mantra in her head compelling her over and over to kill.]

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	1/2 probably? imperious 2016-07-26 08:08 pm UTC (link)
	[ He spends one last paralyzed heartbeat before Suzaku has her -- not in a dangerous hold, not in a hold that might weaken or fray, safe, they're both safe -- before his higher brain functions finally, finally kick back into gear. Just in time for that icy Your Highness to register, just in time for it's what you wanted to sucker punch him. ] (Reply to this) (Parent)

	2/4 i think imperious 2016-07-26 08:08 pm UTC (link)
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	3/4? imperious 2016-07-26 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	[ she means the order she must mean the order he never said not to her he ordered Kallen, that one time, vision red with pain and humiliation and anger and betrayal but she wasn't there for that wasn't still alive for that so she can't mean that ] (Reply to this) (Parent)

done

imperious
2016-07-26 08:16 pm UTC (link)

[ eyes flit away, down to the rug. the necklace there, where suzaku dropped it. seems to take a very long time to stoop down (down on his knees, the last desperate effort), a long time to pick up the delicate chain.

then somehow he's on his feet again. bringing it to her throat. it takes him three tries to do up the clasp, fingers numb and useless.

so simple, here. so easy to fix his greatest mistake. naturally he'd still find a way to struggle with it, right? ]

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whiteknightmare
2016-07-27 01:13 am UTC (link)

[ Suzaku meant a lot of a lot of things by those two words that he has never before addressed Lelouch with. Most immediately, hoping to get Lelouch angry so he would snap out of it and stop --

stop--

Stop torturing Euphie.

And then, finally, the necklace is back to its place and he closes his eyes as he waits for his princess to stop struggling.

He can feel the calm of Botani trying to settle into him right away, but this. This is too much.

His arms loosen around Euphie, but even if his mind is screaming to let go, he is not worthy of touching the tips of her fingers, the dirt at her feet, let alone holding her, he cannot let go immediately, not unless she pulls herself away.

And he's far, far beyond words. ]

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friendly_fire
2016-08-01 02:34 am UTC (link)

[She meant that Lelouch wanted all of the Japanese dead of course. Suzaku is Japanese, so of course Lelouch wants Suzaku dead. It's basic math! Of course one moment he desperately needs to be subtracted and the next one struggle ends just as another begins.

The necklace is clasped around her neck and the geass is no longer overpowering every thought she has with the clear and terrible command.

Euphie is no longer attempting to thrash against the firm hold. She isn't ordering anyone to do anything. She isn't saying a word. She's barely breathing. She doesn't dare make a single move or impact that might cause some kind of harm. She can't even cry. She doesn't deserve to cry even as tears burn at her eyes trying to fight for release. She's not the one hurt here. She's not the one who was accused or threatened. She doesn't have the right.]

Su...zaku... [Her apology is already off to a rough start with her voice low and hoarse and horrified.]

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	1/2 melioristic 2016-08-02 10:46 pm UTC (link)
	[ she looks better. or rather she doesn't, both she and suzaku look like they want to throw up, but the compulsion has drained out of her like poison from a wound. he wants to embrace her. can't, because she's still in suzaku's arms. shouldn't, because this is his fault. ] (Reply to this) (Parent)

	melioristic 2016-08-02 10:53 pm UTC (link)
	[ Right. His fault. But he knows that tone. Willing his voice stronger, steadier than it is, ] Euphie. Don't. Please. You didn't--... That wasn't you. [ Smaller now, but still... still steady, at least. ] [ (You said you forgave him this. How? How could you ever possibly have meant it? ...Do you still?) ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

whiteknightmare
2016-08-03 03:54 pm UTC (link)

[ Suzaku is no longer gripping her hands, just holding her, and for long moments all that he can hear is his own rushing heartbeat, his heavy breaths, gulping for air tinged with the taste of his flat-out refusal to comply with her orders...

More guilt. He knows that it was the necessary decision and right, but the guilt is there. So few things that he had left to hold on to, from the person he'd once wanted to be.

One fewer, now. He buries his face in her hair for a moment, trying to forget himself.

Just for a moment.

Then that voice wrenches itself out of her throat, and Lelouch's words and...

Suzaku knows that he has to pull himself together, because they are both falling apart.

Carefully, he places a kiss on Euphie's temple, then, holding on to her shoulders, he moves around until he's in front of her, so she can see both him and Lelouch.

Oh so gently, ]

Lelouch is right, you know. You were not in control of wanting that, it is not your fault. He was not in control of making you do it, so not his fault, either.

We may all three have plenty of things to be blamed for, choices made in full responsibility and full awareness.

This is not one of them. Do you hear me, both of you?

[ They can't all break at the same time.

So he'll hold on a little longer. Not much to it, right? ]

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friendly_fire
2016-08-04 08:49 am UTC (link)

[She nods slowly, not wanting to worry either of them, but of all the people in the world to hurt why did it have to be her brother and her knight?

She wants to crawl into their arms. Either of them. Both of them. But if Suzaku is being strong for them can she do any less?]

I hear you. [Whether or not she really feels it may be different. After all, she chose to meet with Lelouch before speaking to the assembly at the SAZ. She chose that of her own free will. She couldn't have known, but that feels like it matters less and less.]

Thank you both for stopping me.

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melioristic
2016-08-04 07:36 pm UTC (link)

[ He was -- actually avoiding looking at Suzaku, coward that he is. Being addressed now... in this way--... He's not sure if it's better or worse than open hatred.

Muted headshake for Euphie's gratitude, the closest he can get to saying you're welcome. If he speaks, he might be sick.

But already he can feel Botani pulling at the edges of that, the beginnings of what numbed his ability to be properly alarmed this morning. It's hard not to welcome it, as much as he doesn't want to.

He does, after a beat, manage a flickered glance up at Suzaku's face. You held things together. You still are. Catching him again when he would have fallen; catching Euphie. He is pretty sure all of her gratitude should be for you, really. ]

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