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Yuuki Kuran (trappedinresin) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-03-19 21:16:00

Entry tags:

ai kuran, fai d flourite, kazuki makabe, sebastian michaelis, souji okita, yuuki kuran, yuuri shibuya, zero kiryuu

Day 367 - Action
[Evening - Within Trois Park.]

[If she could disappear into the ground she would. Simply melt into the earth beneath her and lose all sense of feeling. Become the grass, or the trees maybe. Living, but unfeeling, incapable of being hurt by the many things all around her. Life would be so simple if there was a switch, to simply turn her emotions off and not have to feel the very real crushing weight within her chest. Instead, as though to mock her very real pain, the greenery around her shifted and changed, mirroring her emotions. It was out of season, but where the cherry tree against her back should have been leafy greens, pink blossoms bloomed and fell in excess. Like the tears that streamed silent down her cheeks, they fell to the ground, and covered her and the earth beneath in pink and white petals, like snow. It zapped some of her strength, something that only happened here in Marina, but she could hardly put a stop to the way her emotions ran wild. Butterflies fluttered around the scene, and would seem out of place if not for the large, blood-like butterfly wings that decorated her back.

She had lost everything. Everything she had fought so hard to accomplish had fallen into ruin. Even though she had tried her hardest, even though she wanted more desperately than anyone to work for peace, and to stop and save her brother... it hadn't made one single difference. He had been right. 'No matter how hard you try, sometimes it will amount to nothing.']

Oniisama...

[It was all her fault. Now he was gone, frozen forever without a heart. What had she done wrong? She had tried so desperately to be the person that he had wanted, but she had failed. And now eternity would be hers to spend alone. She was a mother, she learned, all in the same day that apparently she had become a widow, or close enough. How was she supposed to be a mother, when she couldn't even protect the one person she had always loved? And now of all times? She was only seventeen. One year older than the girl who looked just like her and claimed to be her daughter. There was no doubt that she was. But Yuuki didn't know how to be there for or take care of her, when her own world was crashing all around. It was better if the girl ran as far away from her as she could.

Everything I love or get close to dies. As though her touch was toxic. One after another. Her mother and father, and now Kaname, too. Zero and Ai-- they weren't safe around someone like her. Eyes brimming with tears, she helplessly lifted a hand up to scrub at them. Her soul hurt, and she didn't know how to move forward from it.]

[OOC: After ICly learning that her fiance is gone after meeting with her future daughter. She wont have been home all day! Sorry for the mourning post, I had to get it out of the way :'| ]

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servingdinner
2016-03-26 09:20 pm UTC (link)

[He doesn't seem shocked or distraught once he gets a good look at her face and sees what a state she truly is in; just looks down at her with that unchanging kind, mildly concerned smile. Then again, he clearly could tell right from the start that she was crying.

She's beautiful, he notes with no particular interest. Beautiful in the way humans, he has learned, consider beautiful, even despite the crying. Sebastian finds a certain appeal in distorted, tear-streaked faces, but really only when he's the cause of such a state.]

Ah... indeed. [Turned down as her eyes are now, perhaps she doesn't see how his eyebrows crease in something like embarrassment, although it might be discernible in his voice even so.]

As of a few hours ago. Is it that obvious? [And when it seems like he's taken such care not to look like a lost little lamb, too: already changed out of the jumpsuit, appearing so calm and collected and not burning with questions and demands to be let out.]

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trappedinresin
2016-03-27 12:41 am UTC (link)

[Not at all. He really isn't. The only evidence she has is never having seen him before. There aren't really that many individuals within the dome, and she doesn't recognize him from any defense force files, either. Not that there's a lot there to go over. And really only if someone makes it onto their watch list. The touch of embarrassment doesn't go unnoticed, and she shakes her head. If anything he looks well put together. Maybe a little more polished than she's used to seeing most people within Marina. There's nothing out of place, his clothes formal and manners polite.

If he stands out, it's because she thinks there are a number of individuals that would find him attractive, and because he's well dressed. The fact that he isn't human is apparent to Yuuki, but she hardly thinks of it. Particularly in the moment.]

There just aren't that many people here.

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servingdinner
2016-03-31 05:18 pm UTC (link)

No indeed, such has been my impression also. [He takes a moment to adjust the sleeves of his suit jacket, simultaneously looks away from her and out over the park, how quiet and empty it seems so late in the evening. Well, quiet besides this quaint little local wind and butterfly frenzy.]

Speaking to the imprisoned people here, it seems like the low population would come with a sense of familiarity and unity... but perhaps that is wrong of me. If mostly everyone around is essentially a stranger from a different world... it might get lonely, instead.

[He turns his head slightly to look at her again, watching her reaction. Is he getting warmer or colder?]

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trappedinresin
2016-04-01 02:36 am UTC (link)

[That... it depends, she supposes. Brows furrowing, her fingers curl. How many people are no longer here that she once knew? Hikaru in particular, but even friends on the defense force, and other people she had thought she had become close with. All had become such important individuals to her, but she can't see them anymore.]

Sometimes. [Quietly spoken. She can't help but wonder how Yuuri feels. He's been here so long, how many individuals have come in and out of his life in the last year?] Most of the people here are kind, though.

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servingdinner
2016-04-02 09:58 am UTC (link)

Then I am glad to hear as much. [He doesn't trust it, of course. Most people aren't kind mostly anywhere, but if they are? That makes it easier for Sebastian and his young master.]

Is this you? [He makes a small gesture to their surroundings, indicating the butterflies, the odd changes to the nature around them. His tone is calm, with a tint of curiosity, but no fear.]

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trappedinresin
2016-04-03 08:20 pm UTC (link)

[For a moment she's quiet. Of course she's aware of the things around her. But in a distant kind of way until now. It's natural and unintentional, springing from her emotions and overflowing into all the reality around her. With a breath, she tries to reign it in a little, to contain it. But telling her heart to to calm down is easier said than done.]

My emotions are a little wild at the moment. [As though it's an explanation to what is happening. But in a way it is, it's easy to understand what the problem is.] My heart can't calm down. [It's out of control, and her powers are reacting, outpouring in the same way that her tears are. A couple of the butterflies vanish however, disintegrating in the air, the rest drawing near herself while she makes the attempt.] I thought it was better if I stayed away from the apartments and things.

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	servingdinner 2016-04-17 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	Is that so? [It isn't such a difficult idea to grasp, no, and Sebastian seems to understand what she means.] Then, there isn't a need to hold back. [Please don't make the butterflies disappear; this is an interesting ability to have. If terribly showy. Not to mention...] No one will be hurt by it, here. [He's not afraid, at least.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2016-04-18 12:12 am UTC (link)

[She hopes that to be the case. She doesn't think she would accidentally hurt someone, but to avoid any accidents she still finds it their safest bet. Her thoughts, after all, are focused internally, without giving as much attention to the world around her in the moment.

Except that someone has come by that has disrupted her mourning.]

You're not worried that you will? [But despite the foliage and chaotic scene, she's hardly shown any malicious intent.]

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servingdinner
2016-04-28 07:09 pm UTC (link)

I have, after all, no reason to believe you would try to harm me.

["No, I'm not worried." He doubts she could manage it even if that were her intention, but someone unintentionally managing to harm someone like Sebastian? Please. Even putting that aside, being injured isn't a big concern for him. Pain will pass.]

Should you prefer it, however, I will of course leave.

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	trappedinresin 2016-05-01 06:32 pm UTC (link)
	[He's certainly strange. Or maybe it's only that he's too kind. Swallowing, she shakes her head. It isn't that she wants to talk about what has her so devastated. And she doesn't want to burden him either. But at the same time she doesn't want to be alone.] It's fine. [Though she didn't know what to say or how to proceed from there.] What's your name? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

servingdinner
2016-05-07 05:39 pm UTC (link)

[So she doesn't want to be left alone. Good.

It's not that he desperately wants to stay - he has no need for her in this moment that he can see, doesn't know if she's a useful connection to make or not - or that he necessarily thinks he could make her feel better regardless of what he tried. He'd leave if she indicated that's what she wanted. Contact would be good enough for now.

But he's curious, and his search for a way out is turning up a bunch of dead ends anyway. He prefers to stay for at least a while longer.]

Sebastian Michaelis. [And he adds, gently:] Circumstances aside, it's my pleasure to make your acquaintance.

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	trappedinresin 2016-05-30 12:27 am UTC (link)
	[With a watery smile she nods, swallowing her emotions as best she can. Circumstances indeed. She really is grateful that he's remaining so calm in light of her distress. If someone fussed over her too much, it would make things more difficult.] Yuuki Kuran. But just Yuuki, please. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	servingdinner 2016-06-04 03:46 pm UTC (link)
	Would "miss Yuuki" be all right, then? [He rather prefers formality - for aesthetic purposes, of course, but he won't insist if she'd really rather not.] Japanese, is it not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2016-06-04 04:12 pm UTC (link)

That's just fine. [She honors her family name and doesn't dislike it. But her brother was the head of household, and it's him that she's mourning over right now. For now, she really just prefers her given name.]

It is. I live in Northern Japan. [Most don't always recognize the cities and names, though-- it differs from different worlds, apparently, so she leaves it at that.]

I've noticed that there's a small portion of Japanese speaking individuals here. The others tend to speak English, but there's plenty of places and languages I don't recognize.

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	servingdinner 2016-06-04 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	A small portion, is it. Mm... while these [he indicates his headset] would go some way towards alleviating that, I imagine that might still be somewhat isolating. [In Sebastian's time period Japan is still kind of doing its own thing, at that. What a culture shock it'd be, coming from such an isolated country.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2016-06-05 02:15 pm UTC (link)

Maybe a little. [She can't speak English to save her life. She's terrible at it and most days doesn't attempt except for a couple of words here or there. The basics like: 'Where can I find the restroom?' or maybe 'I would like to order a parfait,' and the like.]

There are people I know from home here with me, though. Due to that, we can communicate without these... [She lifts a hand up to lightly brush the headset.]

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	servingdinner 2016-06-05 02:24 pm UTC (link)
	[He seems to consider that briefly. Then, mimics her gesture to his own headset.] Would you remove it for a moment? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2016-06-05 03:09 pm UTC (link)

[There's a moment of faint surprise. By now, most of the butterflies have disappeared. The flora while present has stopped changing and shifting, except for the gentle fall of the Sakura blossoms.]

Sure...

[To be honest, it's a reprieve from everything, unexpected. Lifting both hands up she removes it entirely.]

I really can't understand much outside of Japanese though. [Hello, goodbye, my name is... the basics.]

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servingdinner
2016-06-05 03:25 pm UTC (link)

[He notices, as much as he outwardly pays their surroundings no mind, instead focusing on her. It's a bit of a shame - it's an interesting ability and he'd like to see more of it. If it means she's calming down, however (because that is what it means, isn't it?), that's good.

He removes his own headset in one fluid motion.]

I apologise beforehand as I might be somewhat rusty, but... [he says in flawless, unaccented Japanese.]

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	trappedinresin 2016-06-05 03:36 pm UTC (link)
	[She's clearly surprised. Eyes widening, they soften after a moment. He doesn't sound foreign at all. Rusty in what way...? It's perfect Japanese, from the little spoken so far.] No-- it doesn't sound that way at all. Did you grow up in Japan? [His name is foreign, but maybe he had at least one Japanese parent?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

servingdinner
2016-06-05 04:40 pm UTC (link)

Thank you very much. [And he gives a brief, soft chuckle.]

I did not, but I have spent quite some time there, on and off, although it has been a while now.

[Indeed - flawless as his pronunciation is and as perfectly politely as he still speaks as when they spoke via the communicator, there's a markedly old-fashioned quality to his speech.]

I'm glad for the chance to practice once more.

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	trappedinresin 2016-06-05 05:03 pm UTC (link)
	[She does note that. While unusual, it isn't wrong though, either.] You're remarkably traveled, then. [She's been out of the country once before, but only the once.] Where are you from originally? [What language is his native language, in other words.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	servingdinner 2016-06-05 06:28 pm UTC (link)
	I live in England, just outside London. [Shh, don't notice how he's not answering her question. He immediately follows up with:] It isn't the same, I realise, since I'm not from your home, but should you ever like to speak to someone else [aside from her friends from home] like this, I would be glad to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trappedinresin 2016-06-07 03:08 am UTC (link)
	[She doesn't seem to notice at least!] Thank you. [Her smile it faint, but is genuine.] . . . I'd offer the same in return, but- I'm afraid it'd be embarrassing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	servingdinner 2016-06-13 01:39 pm UTC (link)
	[Like it's a light joke:] There is no need for that - I hear it to the point of weariness as it is. [He'd be happy not to hear demonese(??) for several years to come, honestly.] I am happy for the chance to talk, that is all. It seems the thing to do in a place like this - connect, yes? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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