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helen magnus, m.d. d.t.c.x.b. ([info]lifelines) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2014-04-07 10:56:00

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Entry tags:aidan reilly, data, elena gilbert, euphemia li britannia, helen magnus, piper halliwell, rose

Day 266 | open action; + open video;
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It's been a full week since Helen realized Jean-Luc was gone, a full seven days since Ashley's birthday. At times, it's felt as though much more time has passed; at others, it feels like only yesterday and her heart breaks all over again. She's been keeping to herself more than usual. Even after she returned to work at the clinic and with the language classes, she was still having a difficult time wrapping her head around everything.

And then someone had mentioned the Memorial Gardens. It had seemed like such a simple thing, but now Helen isn't so certain it's as simple as she thought. Perhaps this is what she's needed.

Most of Day 266 can find her choosing flowers, specifically certain colored roses. These aren't to plant, more for show. For her. The flowers she chooses to plant in the garden are simple, tulips, daffodils, easy things that are very pretty and possibly easy enough to care for should she choose to return every so often. With three bulbs in hand and several roses, she takes to the earth. Once each of the bulbs is set into its spot, she places the roses over the spots where she has just planted new life. Three white roses for each of her special people, three yellow, one orange for Ashley, one pink for James, and one red for Jean-Luc. One of each color remains in her possession, as a reminder to herself of the people she's loved and lost.

After a few minutes of simply sitting there, one of those scattered showers does appear. It isn't much rain, but it's enough that she takes advantage of it. Holding the roses in her hands, she brings them to her nose to smell, allowing the sound of the rain falling to mask her tears as she finally truly weeps for three people: Ashley, her daughter, who was taken from her much too soon; James, her best friend and former lover, who had always challenged her to be the best she could be; and Jean-Luc, her lost love, whom she misses now more than she'd ever thought she could again.


[ video ]

[ later, once she's back at her apartment and a little more dry, she decides to address the network. she might not be dripping wet anymore, but she still bears the signs of having just been playing in the rain. what's noticeable this time is that the old glint of determination and confidence is back in her eyes and her voice is strong. you guys all missed the old helen. ]

I seem to have run across one of those scattered showers we were projected to have. This seems as good a time as any to remind everyone that the clinic is here for your use. I have also recently begun an Earth language studies course in conjunction with the Academy here. If anyone is interested, I am most certainly willing to offer what I know. In fact, today is one of the days I will be teaching, so please stop by the classroom if you're interested.


[ ooc: she can be encountered in action at any point in her endeavor, even while she's sitting in the rain or for the language class, or with responses to her network address. ]


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it's totally fine ♥
[info]lifelines
2014-04-14 08:42 pm UTC (link)
[ even with a few faces passing by today, helen wasn't expecting to have so many conversations. still, she isn't upset to see this one, either, and offers a small smile at the sight of that familiar pink head. ]

Euphie. I wasn't expecting anyone here, but it's good to see you. How have you been?

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-04-16 04:28 am UTC (link)
Are you certain? I can come back later if you'd rather be alone.

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[info]lifelines
2014-04-17 08:45 pm UTC (link)
[ her smile is tight for a moment, but it soon warms. ]

It's quite all right. I've spent enough time alone the last few days.

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-04-19 03:52 am UTC (link)
Why were you alone? [Maybe she shouldn't ask so bluntly, but she's curious and concerned.]

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[info]lifelines
2014-04-21 02:22 am UTC (link)
[ she digs a little more at the soil before she answers. normally it's a topic she would avoid, but... ]

Because that seems to be the way my longevity works.

[ she outlives people. being alone has always been easier. that and alone in this case meant she was mourning and didn't want anyone else to see. ]

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-04-22 06:00 pm UTC (link)
[She tilts her head a bit. The answer doesn't really explain why she had been alone within the dome at least not on the surface, but it was clearly what was on the other woman's mind.]

The garden is a good place to be still and think. Sometimes I think that's the hardest thing to do though.

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[info]lifelines
2014-04-23 04:32 pm UTC (link)
Sometimes. [ she lets her hand drift to one of the roses, a red one, and she ponders giving a better answer. she finally settles on the exact words she had once told jean-luc. ]

For some, loss is as constant a companion as life. Often being alone is the only thing we know how to be.

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-04-24 04:16 am UTC (link)
Such a sad thing said in such a beautiful way. But you can't lose something until you've found it, right? So that must also be constant.

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[info]lifelines
2014-04-25 10:53 pm UTC (link)
[ she nods, quiet for a moment as she moves some of the dirt around without much direction. ]

It's a constant debate to decide if getting to know anyone is worth the inevitable pain when I lose them. [ when, not if. ]

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-04-26 08:25 pm UTC (link)
[Euphie frowns thoughtfully.]

When I was a girl, my brother and sister were exiled. I wasn't sure if I'd ever see them again and then we were told they'd died. It was a lie, but I didn't know that for many years. But even if I'd never seen them again or even if...I never see them again now I can't imagine not wanting my memories of them. Even if they make me cry they can make me smile too.

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[info]lifelines
2014-04-27 12:02 am UTC (link)
Someone said something similar to me not long ago. [ data had put it all to words in such an eloquent way, a way no one had ever tried to do before, and it had her thinking. still does, honestly. ]

He said... "The negative emotions serve to underscore the meaning of the positive. The value of those for whom we care is reinforced by that which we feel in their absence." And he is absolutely correct.

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-05-02 11:13 pm UTC (link)
It's a good thing to remember and an easy thing to forget.

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[info]lifelines
2014-05-03 05:46 pm UTC (link)
Indeed. And I hope, for both of us, that the day will come where we see those people who are important to us. Sooner, rather than later.

[ look at this. she's trying her hand at optimism. will would be proud. ]

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-05-05 02:25 am UTC (link)
[For what it's worth, Euphie is proud too and relieved.] I'd like that. I'm glad I get to see you today though.

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[info]lifelines
2014-05-07 05:36 pm UTC (link)
As am I. It's always a pleasure to speak with you.

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-05-14 02:14 am UTC (link)
You as well. You're...a very understanding person. [What else is there to say about someone who met her under those conditions? Wanting to kill all the Japanese is not the best impression to make.]

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[info]lifelines
2014-05-14 10:20 pm UTC (link)
I've had a long time to come to those understandings. Life has a way of opening your eyes.

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[info]friendly_fire
2014-05-19 12:38 am UTC (link)
You have a good opportunity to teach others then.

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