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Dr. Spencer Reid (thisiscalm) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-03-17 15:16:00

Entry tags:

artemis crock, bonnie bennett, data, elena gilbert, ianto jones, kitty pryde (aoa), piter de vries, rebecca crane, sam winchester, spencer reid, tieria erde, zatanna zatara

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[ It's now or never and although he was hoping that some time would push that towards now rather than never, Reid really doesn't feel like he's ready. He feels raw and exhausted and although he's pushed himself to go out and get some clothes that aren't borrowed from Karev's closet, he's so not in a place where public announcements are possible.

But he has to. Now or never. Movements dull, he reaches for the communicator. ]

...░m back. [ A stretch of static-y silence. ] I'm so░▒y.

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	needmymp3 2014-03-22 03:09 am UTC (link)
	Same here. [She tilts her head, getting a closer look at him now that he's sat down.] How long for you? Longer than a week? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-23 04:09 pm UTC (link)
	Year and a half. [ Sigh. ] ...A lot happened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	needmymp3 2014-03-24 04:59 am UTC (link)
	[She whistles.] Shit, I bet. Are you alright? [Bears repeating.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-24 02:20 pm UTC (link)
	[ He chews on the answer for a moment before looking up at her with a forced smile. ] I think I'm about as far from alright as I can get. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	needmymp3 2014-03-24 05:29 pm UTC (link)
	I can always lend an ear. [She says after a slow nod.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-24 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	[ Draws a breath, holding it for a moment before releasing it in a long sigh. ] ...I kind of got shot. Right before I woke up here again. [ Fingers absently stroking over the bandage on his arm. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	needmymp3 2014-03-26 07:47 am UTC (link)
	[That perks her up, eyes sharp with concern.] Does it hurt still-? And by who. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-26 04:29 pm UTC (link)
	[ He nods, stiffly. ] A bit. It was an UnSub... Diane Turner. She... [ Breath. ] She was a stalker. [ So hard to talk about and he's only begun to scratch the surface. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	needmymp3 2014-03-28 05:56 am UTC (link)
	You were stalked? [Concern laces her voice just like it flickers over her face, knit brows and her hands threaded together in front of her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-28 09:25 pm UTC (link)
	[ Shakes his head. ] My, uhm... [ And swalllows. ] ...my girlfriend was. She didn't make it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	needmymp3 2014-03-29 03:32 am UTC (link)
	Oh - God, Reid... [Her concern immediately doubles, and she stands up at her side of the booth to lean forward over the table and reach out to touch his shoulder.] I'm sorry - are you, are you alright? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thisiscalm
2014-03-29 10:23 am UTC (link)

[ He really likes Rebecca. He does. She's most likely the best friend he has around here but that touch on his shoulder almost makes him flinch and this pain can really dull down from suffocatingly torturous to just a little bit excruciating any day now.

He makes a noise. A quick exhale of air that could be taken for humorous if this was an entirely different situation. ]

It happened right before I woke up here. Yesterday. So no, I'm really not okay.

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	needmymp3 2014-03-29 11:12 pm UTC (link)
	Hey, hey... [She slides out of her side of the booth, rounds around to his. If he'll let her, she'll tentatively hug him.] That's... brutal. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thisiscalm
2014-03-29 11:39 pm UTC (link)

[ He will let her and it doesn't take long before he turns tentative into desperate. He could really use some hugs right now but the only person he's really had around who he can hug is also... the one he feels like he betrayed. Or that he's betraying Maeve with. Life is a complicated thing, these days.

He wraps his arms around her, face buried against her shoulder. Really not doing too good, but at least he isn't crying. Barely. ]

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	needmymp3 2014-03-30 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	[Rebeca's always prided herself on her hugs, soothingly rubbing circles over his back with one hand while keeping him tight to her with her other arm.] It's alright. [It's not, perhaps, but one can always hope.] It'll be alright. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thisiscalm
2014-03-30 09:25 pm UTC (link)

[ He nods against her, but there isn't much conviction. Intellectually he knows that it'll get easier and easier and one day he'll be okay again, but emotionally it's an entirely different story. ]

We deal with cases like this all the time... most of them are so much worse but this- [ Easier to talk now that he can't look at her, just spew word after word against her shoulder. ] I didn't even get to...

I would've died for her. I tried to.

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needmymp3
2014-03-30 09:40 pm UTC (link)

Oh, Reid. [Soft, her cheek pressed in against his and her hug all that much tighter.]

I'm so sorry. [There's nothing really to say, it'll always be there. A reminder, a mark left behind from the lost ones - but the only thing Rebecca knows is how to march on. And how to hold him, massaging the nape of his neck and murmuring 'deep breaths' gently.]

What was her name? [Can she ask?]

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thisiscalm
2014-03-30 09:44 pm UTC (link)

Maeve. Maeve Donovan. [ He draws a breath but for once he doesn't hold back. Not with her. It's nice just to have someone listen and say it sucks without trying to convince him that it's okay or that he'll be fine or that nothing is wrong. ]

She's a geneticist... she saw some of my fMRI scans and helped me get rid of the migraines. After that... we talked on the phone every Sunday for ten months. I... I hadn't seen her face to face until...

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	needmymp3 2014-03-30 10:07 pm UTC (link)
	She sounds wonderful. [No past tenses allowed. Rebecca plays her hands through his hair.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-31 02:51 pm UTC (link)
	She is. [ He swallows. Hard. ] Was. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	needmymp3 2014-04-01 05:44 am UTC (link)
	How are you coping here? [She asks calmly, in a tone of voice usually reserved for calming over-network missions back home. It's even and hopefully soothing.] All things considered? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-01 07:17 am UTC (link)
	[ She's so good at this. Surprisingly so. He pulls back a little, head bowed. ] Honestly..? Not great. Just being back... [ Kind of breaking his brain as well as his heart. ] I don't know what to do with Kitty. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	needmymp3 2014-04-01 11:05 pm UTC (link)
	[She gives him a little space, but still keeps her arms sound around him.] Ah. Does she know? I mean, if you need space I'm sure she'll... understand. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-03 06:25 pm UTC (link)
	She knows. She's... great. She's been great about it. [ Mostly, but he can't really complain. ] I guess I just don't know how I feel about... everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	needmymp3 2014-04-03 09:31 pm UTC (link)
	That's... understandable, you know. You've been through a lot. [She chews her lip.] I mean, timelines are bad enough as it is before they crossroad on each other. I don't blame you if you don't know what to do or think, let alone feel over it. You lost someone... you don't need to make up your mind quickly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)