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Tweak says, "Winsause?"

Dr. Spencer Reid (thisiscalm) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-03-17 15:16:00

Entry tags:

artemis crock, bonnie bennett, data, elena gilbert, ianto jones, kitty pryde (aoa), piter de vries, rebecca crane, sam winchester, spencer reid, tieria erde, zatanna zatara

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[ It's now or never and although he was hoping that some time would push that towards now rather than never, Reid really doesn't feel like he's ready. He feels raw and exhausted and although he's pushed himself to go out and get some clothes that aren't borrowed from Karev's closet, he's so not in a place where public announcements are possible.

But he has to. Now or never. Movements dull, he reaches for the communicator. ]

...░m back. [ A stretch of static-y silence. ] I'm so░▒y.

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	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	[ He makes a noise that could be taken for amused if it wasn't so heartbreakingly sad. ] If I had, she'd still be alive now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:35 pm UTC (link)
	You can't save everyone. ...Sometimes you don't even get to save the most important ones. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:37 pm UTC (link)
	Right now I don't feel like I can save anyone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:52 pm UTC (link)
	[Softly.] I know. [Stroking his hair.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:54 pm UTC (link)
	[ He draws another shaky breath. Steadies himself. ] I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:55 pm UTC (link)
	Why? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:56 pm UTC (link)
	Because you deserve better than this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:58 pm UTC (link)
	...You're back. For me that's a pretty great thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	[ Is he though? Did he really come back? ] I can't say it, but... [ But he's also not sure it hasn't changed. ] I just need time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 08:01 pm UTC (link)
	...It? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 08:02 pm UTC (link)
	That I... you know.[ If he can't say it, he can't... say what it is. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 08:17 pm UTC (link)
	That you...? [Honestly confused for the moment and then it clicks.] That you love me. [And it hurts again. Because before she could have just written it off as not wanting to tell her before he was honest about everything. But now? Now he's telling her he can't admit to loving her?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 08:27 pm UTC (link)
	It's not that I don't, it's just... [ Deep breath. ] ...trying to fit a year and a half into what we had here. Have. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 08:29 pm UTC (link)
	You need time. [Repeating his line. That past tense hurt. It was only 5 days for her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 08:29 pm UTC (link)
	[ He nods against her, muffling a whimper. ] I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	Don't be. ...You didn't do anything wrong. [Holding him closer.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	[ How is she so amazing? Why couldn't he just have stayed here? ] ...I don't know what to do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 08:38 pm UTC (link)
	[She really, really, really would have liked it if he'd just stayed. She's not sure what advice to give him here, but she can pass on what she's been holding on to for the last few days.] Keep walking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 08:47 pm UTC (link)
	[ He draws another breath in an attempt to pull himself together. Nods. ] ...Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	[She nuzzles just a little. She can't help herself really.] This is probably obvious, but...I really missed you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 08:59 pm UTC (link)
	[ Nuzzling is okay. He may be a bit weird around physical affection for a while, but this is okay right now. ] I'm here now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 09:01 pm UTC (link)
	You are. [And that is a good thing no matter what. At least for her.] You really are. I um... I'm sorry I'm such a wreck right now. ...Our room's not much better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 09:28 pm UTC (link)
	It's okay... we both are. [ Though that worries him a little. ] What happened..? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 09:28 pm UTC (link)
	...I beat up the closet when I realized you were gone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 09:29 pm UTC (link)
	Did you hurt yourself? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)