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Dr. Spencer Reid (thisiscalm) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-03-17 15:16:00

Entry tags:

artemis crock, bonnie bennett, data, elena gilbert, ianto jones, kitty pryde (aoa), piter de vries, rebecca crane, sam winchester, spencer reid, tieria erde, zatanna zatara

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[ It's now or never and although he was hoping that some time would push that towards now rather than never, Reid really doesn't feel like he's ready. He feels raw and exhausted and although he's pushed himself to go out and get some clothes that aren't borrowed from Karev's closet, he's so not in a place where public announcements are possible.

But he has to. Now or never. Movements dull, he reaches for the communicator. ]

...░m back. [ A stretch of static-y silence. ] I'm so░▒y.

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	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	[ Squeeze back. ] That's okay... I mean, I didn't expect you to... But he hasn't... hurt himself, at least? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 06:43 pm UTC (link)
	[She shakes her head. Not unless he did last night. That's not a thought she likes.] ...You'll come home, won't you? [Afraid he'll want more space.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 06:44 pm UTC (link)
	[ He draws a slow breath, hesitating for a moment... before nodding. Yeah. He'll come home. ] I'm not... I'll need time, but... I'll come home. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	[She pushes herself up, sitting beside him again and going back into a hug. They both need a lot of hugging today, right?] I can keep sleeping on the couch if you need me too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	[ Every hug in the world. ] Please don't..? [ If anything he might want to camp out there, on account of not being sure whether he'll be able to ever sleep again. ] We never... right before she died, that was- [ Breath. ] That was the first time I actually met her. [ Nothing happened. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 06:54 pm UTC (link)
	[She hopes that means he wants to sleep beside her tonight. She wants so badly to curl up against him in their room. ...Which is about as big of a mess as she is right now. But thoughts of that move away when he starts talking about the woman again.] ...Tell me about her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 06:55 pm UTC (link)
	...You really want to know? [ Not sure he believes it. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 06:56 pm UTC (link)
	[She's not sure she believes it either.] Yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:00 pm UTC (link)
	[ He draws a steadying breath. Okay. ] Her name's Maeve. Maeve Donovan. She's... a geneticist. [ He already said all this, didn't he? ] I sent her some fMRI scans to look at and she, uhm. She helped me get rid of the migraines. We started talking after that. Over the phone... once a week. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	[She reaches up, letting her fingers fall through his longer hair, still adjusting to that. Glad for him to be rid of migraines.] For how long? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:07 pm UTC (link)
	Ten months. [ Which is almost three times as much time as they've had. ] She... she had problems with a stalker and she didn't want me to get in trouble, so... she wouldn't let me help her. [ His voice chokes off at the end. If he had insisted... if he'd dug into it on his own, would things have been different? ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:10 pm UTC (link)
	[She's doing that math too, and reminding herself that they had more than a call once a week. They live together. God, they talked about children... Vaguely, but they did. It can't all be gone. She holds a little tighter.] Is that what happened? Her stalker? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	[ He nods, stiffly. Swallows. ] She killed her. Right in front of me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:14 pm UTC (link)
	[Was not expecting the stalker to be a girl, but that is very far from the point. She holds him.] I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:22 pm UTC (link)
	Me too. [ There is some clinging. A lot of clinging, actually. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:31 pm UTC (link)
	[Clinging is good. It's something at least.] I'm sure you did everything you could. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	[ He makes a noise that could be taken for amused if it wasn't so heartbreakingly sad. ] If I had, she'd still be alive now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:35 pm UTC (link)
	You can't save everyone. ...Sometimes you don't even get to save the most important ones. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:37 pm UTC (link)
	Right now I don't feel like I can save anyone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:52 pm UTC (link)
	[Softly.] I know. [Stroking his hair.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:54 pm UTC (link)
	[ He draws another shaky breath. Steadies himself. ] I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:55 pm UTC (link)
	Why? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 07:56 pm UTC (link)
	Because you deserve better than this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-03-17 07:58 pm UTC (link)
	...You're back. For me that's a pretty great thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-03-17 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	[ Is he though? Did he really come back? ] I can't say it, but... [ But he's also not sure it hasn't changed. ] I just need time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)