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Tweak says, "i hope i'm not to late"

Jessica Hamby (virgins) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-07-15 03:26:00

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caroline forbes, dirk strider, elena gilbert, eric northman, hei, jack harkness, jessica hamby, martha jones, matt donovan, phoebe halliwell, piter de vries, rose, sam merlotte, sookie stackhouse, spike, terry mcginnis

Day 228 ; Video
[The network opens to Jessica who's taken the time to find some other outfits before doing this this time.]

Feels I went home for a bit, or somethin'. Or I got new memories anyways -- I remember hearin' bout that happenin' to other people. Last thing I remember was it bein' day 216 -- that was twelve days ago. The orange don't suit me much better than it did the first time. Whatever's goin' on it's sure as hell fuckin' weird.

[There's a pause, and then she adds.]

I gotta question for everyone though. If someone you loved, someone you really hurt but still care about, if they wanted to forget about you completely -- what would you do? Like if you could do that for them, would you?

[Because she did. But she's still not sure how she feels about it. Even if she's not in love with Hoyt anymore she still cares about him. For what that's worth.

There's other things, things with Bill and the Authority but that she doesn't want to talk about so publically. How he 's turned into a religious fanatic like her birth parents used to be. It makes her skin crawl. The memories are fresh and make her feel sick to her stomach. She'd rather not focus on them too much.

She closes the feed at that.]

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notamasochist
2013-07-18 01:59 pm UTC (link)

[So she's already done it. There's a pause as Zero tries to find the right words. You may or may not know who he is, but he knows you. Maybe not your name, but he knows what you are.]

Thank you.

[Yes, the creepy stalking vampire hunter is thanking you. Queue the surprise of anyone who overhears this.]

For putting what he needed and wanted above your own personal desires. The choice was his--but so often when dealing with memory modification--beings with that capability take that choice away from the ones they love under the guise of protecting or the desire to heal their own guilt for the pain they know they've inflicted.

You did the right thing, no matter how much it hurts you.

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virgins
2013-07-18 10:27 pm UTC (link)

[She wouldn't mind him knowing, she doesn't hide her vampire nature.

Still, his words surprises her.]

I just wanted to help him -- I mean, he's suffered so much cause of me, if that's what he really wanted -- I think it woulda been real selfish of me to deny it. Much as I mighta wanted to.

[And she had wanted to. So much.]

He's a good man. He'll be happier this way.

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notamasochist
2013-07-19 04:02 pm UTC (link)

I hope so, but there is the chance that he might realize that something is missing. Hopefully your paths won't cross again or there is the risk of him coming to you for answers if he realizes it has something to do with you.

[He frowns, his own situation back home and here coming to mind.]

At least you're familiar with the place and you don't need Marina 101 like most of the others coming today.

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	virgins 2013-07-20 11:24 am UTC (link)
	I don't really think they will. He was movin' out of town so I doubt I'll ever see him again. So no risk of confusion there. [For whatever that's worth.] Yeah, there's that I 'spose. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notamasochist 2013-07-20 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	I was more thinking...here...you know. Since that happens. It's not easy to avoid someone here. Trust me. [He's tried in the past.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	virgins 2013-07-21 08:31 am UTC (link)
	Oh right. I 'spose I didn't think 'bout that. I can't imagine him bein' here. He's a good guy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notamasochist 2013-07-22 03:20 pm UTC (link)
	So are a lot of people that end up here. I'd say the majority of people that are here don't deserve to be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	virgins 2013-07-23 08:25 am UTC (link)
	You really think that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notamasochist 2013-07-25 08:29 pm UTC (link)
	Not everyone. But the majority live here quite peacefully. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	virgins 2013-07-26 12:32 pm UTC (link)
	It's true. For a prison, most of us seem to be pretty well behaved (Reply to this) (Parent)

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