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Jessica Hamby (virgins) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-07-15 03:26:00

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caroline forbes, dirk strider, elena gilbert, eric northman, hei, jack harkness, jessica hamby, martha jones, matt donovan, phoebe halliwell, piter de vries, rose, sam merlotte, sookie stackhouse, spike, terry mcginnis

Day 228 ; Video
[The network opens to Jessica who's taken the time to find some other outfits before doing this this time.]

Feels I went home for a bit, or somethin'. Or I got new memories anyways -- I remember hearin' bout that happenin' to other people. Last thing I remember was it bein' day 216 -- that was twelve days ago. The orange don't suit me much better than it did the first time. Whatever's goin' on it's sure as hell fuckin' weird.

[There's a pause, and then she adds.]

I gotta question for everyone though. If someone you loved, someone you really hurt but still care about, if they wanted to forget about you completely -- what would you do? Like if you could do that for them, would you?

[Because she did. But she's still not sure how she feels about it. Even if she's not in love with Hoyt anymore she still cares about him. For what that's worth.

There's other things, things with Bill and the Authority but that she doesn't want to talk about so publically. How he 's turned into a religious fanatic like her birth parents used to be. It makes her skin crawl. The memories are fresh and make her feel sick to her stomach. She'd rather not focus on them too much.

She closes the feed at that.]

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bottomless_pit
2013-07-17 02:59 am UTC (link)

[ Hei had only been listening to the network out of habit, a bad trait in most, a hazard of the occupation in Hei's. And it's with a slow sinking dread that he recognizes the question, the paradox that's being poised and knows it for more then a simple hypothetical.

It was his reality.

He concentrated on breathing, keeping it steady as he reached up to flick on his network comm device to an audio channel, staring with intensity at the wall in front of him. Because to do otherwise would be to crack. His voice when it comes over the line is light even if it is devoid of most emotion. He had always been good at this kind of dissemination. It was what he was known for. ]

If I would... [ there was a tiny pause on his end of the line and then a rustle. ] If I could forget as well, I might. [ except that he never forgot. He remembered every single person who's memory he had erased and those that he had failed. ]

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	[ audio ] virgins 2013-07-17 08:27 am UTC (link)
	And what if you couldn't? [Because vampires can't be glamored. She'll never be able to forget Hoyt, never be able to forget him asing her to erase his memory. Those memories would be with her forever.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[ audio ] bottomless_pit 2013-07-17 02:20 pm UTC (link)
	[ there was silence on his end and then a very long sigh ] It depends on their reason, but yes, I would. [ because some things were best left forgotten. Havoc had shown him that proof. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[ audio ] virgins 2013-07-18 11:31 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I ultimately did too. [It was the least she could do, after she hurt Hoyt so much.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[ audio ] bottomless_pit 2013-07-18 02:06 pm UTC (link)
	[ Sincerity was not something Hei often indulged in, but he does in this instance. He understands. ] ... Sorry. [ And he was. For the guilt, for the pain, for the necessity. Either on their part or on hers. But... ] Were they happier, after it was done? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[ audio ] virgins 2013-07-18 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	I think so? We didn't really talk much after, so I dunno for sure. I hope so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[ audio ] bottomless_pit 2013-07-20 09:36 pm UTC (link)
	That's all we can hope for. Perhaps you'll get another chance to ask him, someday. [ although it could be best to let sleeping dogs lie. What's done is simply that. It is done. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ audio ] virgins 2013-07-21 08:37 am UTC (link)
	Maybe. I dunno. I wouldn't want to accidentally jog anything. He's better off not talkin' to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[ audio ] bottomless_pit 2013-07-28 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	[ he's silent then, for another moment before he shifts, the rustle of fabric betraying his movement. ] Then I shall wish for your happiness. Losing someone is difficult, but knowing they're still alive... [ he sighed ] I do not envy your position. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ audio ] virgins 2013-07-31 10:09 am UTC (link)
	[She doubts anyone would -- envy her that is.] Thank you, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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