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Euphemia li Britannia (friendly_fire) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-06-10 12:12:00

Entry tags:

aidan reilly, calliope-caliborn, dirk strider, elena gilbert, euphemia li britannia, helen magnus, jane crocker, kitty pryde (evolution), laura kinney, lelouch vi britannia, piter de vries, tear grants, yuuki kuran

Day 223 [voice | open]
[Euphie's voice is soft and she omits the video this time, opting only for sound, which she very rarely does.]

I just wanted to thank everyone for their help in the other prison. I'm extremely sorry for the the things I said and did. I'm especially sorry to those I hurt and scared. I'm not feeling any of those urges anymore since we returned. I hope I never do again.

[She pauses, wanting to say more. Wanting to put it right. But what can she say? She called for the deaths of innocent people. She considers offering to leave the school to someone else's care, but she also doesn't want to burden anyone. In the end, there's not much more to say. She isn't looking for sympathy. She just wants people to know they're safe.] Thank you for your time.

[Private | Yuuki]
Yuuki, I... [Her voice shakes a bit.] Are you feeling better?

[Private | Housemates]
I would understand if you don't feel comfortable living with me anymore.

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	[private] xtricate 2013-07-08 03:55 am UTC (link)
	It is because I am only good at killing people. I do not know how to do anything else. Even...even my friends back home knew this. [That is why Scott asked her to join X-Force.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] friendly_fire 2013-07-08 03:57 am UTC (link)
	[Unable or unwilling to see her as simply a killer.] To protect others? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] xtricate 2013-07-08 03:59 am UTC (link)
	At times. But also because it is what I am ordered to do. [There is a pause.] If it would have helped you, had fixed what had been done to you in Squall... [She cannot ever be sure what she would do or not do.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] friendly_fire 2013-07-08 04:01 am UTC (link)
	There's no one to order you now. You don't have to do that if you don't want to, and there's a school. You can learn to do anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] xtricate 2013-07-08 04:04 am UTC (link)
	I have lived my whole life following orders. I do not know how to change that. [And maybe she is too afraid to.] I am a killer, Euphie. I am not like you. You did not have a choice. [Laura did not either, really, but she thinks that she did.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] friendly_fire 2013-07-08 04:05 am UTC (link)
	You have one now, don't you? You haven't chosen to kill since you've been here. [She's pretty confident the wardens would have mentioned it.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] xtricate 2013-07-08 04:07 am UTC (link)
	[There is a visible clenching of her teeth there, a tightness in her jaw.] ...But I did. I killed one of the inmates of Sector 6. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] friendly_fire 2013-07-08 04:09 am UTC (link)
	[She's quiet a moment.] I doesn't make you a bad person, and as long as you have time you can change. You can choose not to kill today. And then you can choose it again tomorrow. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] xtricate 2013-07-08 04:12 am UTC (link)
	Would you say that if I killed a friend? Someone who mattered to you? [This discussion has gotten too deep too fast and Laura is not sure how to handle it. There are too many feelings she is not capable of handling. It makes her arms itch.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[private] friendly_fire 2013-07-09 03:51 am UTC (link)
	Laura... [Softly.] What I said wouldn't change because of that. [She already knows how her brother dies and who kills him. It wasn't easy, no, but she still cares for him and believes in him.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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