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elena gilbert (matter) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-02-24 13:22:00

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cordelia chase, cross marian, damon salvatore, elena gilbert, eric northman, helix wamtani, jenna sommers, momo mizrahi, niklaus mikaelson, puck, quinn fabray, rose tyler, sam merlotte, sam winchester, zatanna zatara

DAY 207 (nightish) → open video + private messages.
[ welcome to elena's room. it's filled with things. and boxes. some things are in some boxes. she's thought twice about making this video, and then thought twice about making it public (klaus) but on her second thought, she decided to stop hiding in the network.

for the most part.

she's sitting cross-legged on her bed, mister teddy junior in her lap. ] It's kind of amazing how much stuff can accumulate here after a month. [ wait. ] More than. [ she puts him in the box. ] Books, clothes... [ her eyes look out to the space of her thoughts for a only a split second ] people, memories.

I know a lot of us are all working to find a way home. [ her included. maybe. ] I guess I was wondering why any of you would want to stay.

& private to zatanna zatara

I think we should keep our conversations private for now. Even if it's just something silly. It's not a good idea for you to have Klaus' attention. Even if Rebekah's already told him... [ she swallows. it may be a desperate, scared attempt to protect her... but elena's willing to be that, do that. being a witch might attract klaus' attention too, without her help, but... the thing that gives her more pause at the moment is jeremy, jenna - how she kept things from them to keep them safe, and it hurt them in the end. (she lost jenna entirely.) so. ] Is that okay?

& private to sam winchester

I wanted to thank you. For the other day. When we were at the library. [ yeah that's all she's got. it's not about the kiss, or the embracing, but it's subtext. he was there for her when she needed somebody, and he listened. wanted to. and it's more than that - the understanding, and the things they confessed...

subtext. ]

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matter
2013-02-26 06:35 am UTC (link)

We can't keep her safe from anything. [ they hadn't. didn't. couldn't. the words aren't said without emotion, but they're also said with a detached kind of surety.

they can't protect her from klaus, from the wardens, from herself. ] There is no safe. [ she knows that. accepts that. she shakes her head at the very idea of it. he's right; there's no telling what will happen tomorrow or the next day. ]

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	video; private reaction 2013-02-26 07:28 am UTC (link)
	You can't think like that. There's right now. [ She can have right now. With Jenna. With Alaric. ] You're safe right now. [ He lets her see that he's standing across the street from her balcony. ] Now stop being a melodramatic muppet. I believe you've an underwear drawer to pack. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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2013-02-26 03:03 pm UTC (link)

[ she's not sure if she even believes that. right now is relative; she's in her apartment safe and sound. jenna's here with her and no one can touch them. wants to touch them. maybe she can't think like that, but right now she's wondering if thinking like that is the only way to survive.

there's recognition in her gaze at the scenery around him, the fact that he showed her isn't lost on her. he's here. ] You could help me. [ her expression lightens only enough to account for snark. ] For everything else but my underwear.

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	video; private reaction 2013-02-26 03:15 pm UTC (link)
	[ He lets out a slight pout at that. He would have much preferred handling that one particular drawer alone. But he's there. On her balcony. In two seconds flat. ] Knock, knock. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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2013-02-26 03:31 pm UTC (link)

[ she's sure he would. she sighs at the sound of his voice - much closer - and gets up in no rush. pulls her headset out of her ear and leaves it on her bed on the way. she looks at him once, through the thin curtains before she works at opening the doors, gives them a nudge open.

(the thing is, she's not unsure. she just wants, and fine, maybe she is a little something she can't put her finger on. (not awkward, not nervous, not giddy, not anything most people in love might be, at least not at any one time.) not about him, or around him, but because of him. she feels herself relax with him, and that's the most something of all.) ] Come in.

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2013-02-26 04:03 pm UTC (link)

[ Funny how two little words like 'come in' can mean so much to a vampire. But pfft, get over it. Elena Gilbert's moving out of the apartment the very next day so this means nothing.

He slides the door all the way open, moves the curtain off to the side and steps inside. The very first thing he does it to get Mister Teddy Junior out of the box, and the second is all kinds of predictable too. He hops onto Elena's bed and gets comfy. ]

A little cramped. [ He looks around. ] Tell me you'll be getting a bigger room.

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2013-02-26 04:19 pm UTC (link)

[ it doesn't mean what it could have meant. elena's blank-faced watching him walk in, barely betraying any emotion she may or may not have, seeing him, seeing him with the backdrop of her things, on her bed.

he does make it easy though, being predictable. (this isn't relaxing at all. for reasons. or just too familiar.) ] It doesn't need it to fit my ego, unlike some people I know.

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	action. reaction 2013-03-06 01:47 pm UTC (link)
	[ Damon's just going to smirk at that. So not going to deny having an ego the size of... something, something. ] Where's Jenny? [ Getting people's names wrong on purpose since forever and a day. ] Don't I get to say hello? [ He tilts his head, looks to the side and whispers: ] Hello, newbie vamp... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. matter 2013-03-06 02:34 pm UTC (link)
	[ so giving him a look for purposely getting jenna's name wrong. elena grabs a small pile of bottoms on her dresser and moves to the box at the foot of her bed, tucks them inside. ] She's refreshening up. I'm sure when she hears you she'll coming rushing in. [ that's not even snarky. it's true. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. reaction 2013-03-06 02:41 pm UTC (link)
	Mm. Can't wait. [ Damon smiles and rests his chin on Mister Teddy's itty bitty shoulder. ] Planning on leaving anything behind? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. matter 2013-03-06 02:50 pm UTC (link)
	[ ANOTHER SUCH A LOOK. stop thinking about her underwear, damon. she turns around, heads back to her dresser to open another drawer. ] Nothing for you. [ btw: ] This isn't 'helping,' you know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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2013-03-06 10:40 pm UTC (link)

Fine. [ He's standing next to her now and starts looking at what she's put in one of the boxes. Prepare for all the changes ever. Nothing here is done in the right way according to Damon Salvatore. And there is a rigt way for folding clothes into a box; even if it's a temporary stay, but especially if it's going into a brand new drawer tomorrow. ] Nngh. [ He's thinking about how these are going to get so wrinkled by morning. Damon takes a pile out and places it off to the side before staring at what else is placed in with the clothes. ]

Make up your mind, Elena. Books stay with the books. Undies stay with the delicates...

Some things don't belong here.[ He holds up a pair of jeans and a pair of sunnies. ]

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2013-03-09 04:56 pm UTC (link)

[ aaaaand with that she reaches forward to grab the jeans and sunglasses. ] I have stuff, and not a lot of boxes to put them in. [ that's why she's stepping forward into him and rolling the jeans up to place back in the box. she gives him a look picking the dislodged pile up and putting it back. the sunglasses are placed at the top.

she's looking away, flipping the arms of a shirt back into the box's confines. it's quiet, and it bothers. (the thoughts that could be heard now have a stage. elena usually equates that to damon's presence and fault.)

so. ] You saw Klaus the other day. [ she looks at him. ] Is that where you were?

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	action. reaction 2013-03-11 07:26 am UTC (link)
	[ He stops going through another one of her boxes and sorts of makes a face before going back to rearranging some of her things. ] This is heavy. You should label it. That way you won't have to strain your back in the morning. [ He reaches for a sharpie: writes 'not for Elena's dainty fingers' on the box before he lifts it up and puts it off to the side. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. matter 2013-03-11 01:02 pm UTC (link)
	Damon, I'm serious. [ she reaches, her hand resting on his arm and fingers curling gently around it; moves herself into his space before he can turn away from her. she cares. something could, would, probably did go drastically wrong. (maybe it's because he was gone the whole day, and now that could make sense.) ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	action. reaction 2013-03-11 02:22 pm UTC (link)
	[ He stops rearranging her things, turns to look at her. He'd messed up. Big time. She was right to have yelled at him that morning. ] We had a little... chat. Klaus reminded me of the many reasons why I shouldn't screw with him. [ He tilts his head to the side. ] I shouldn't have done what I did. It was an idiot move. He could have hurt you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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2013-03-11 03:06 pm UTC (link)

[ she knows what 'chat' means. she can guess. she leans back only slightly, slightly enough to look over his body and back up again.

she doesn't say anything for a long moment, her lips closed into a soft line, only twisted just so by concern and worry and how she hadn't wanted to be right. and just a little bit of grudging, warring acceptance, just a little bit of being touched because it's him protecting her.

(it's not about protecting her; it's for everyone.) she pulls her hand away to move hair already tucked behind her ear, but doesn't move out of his way. ] He hurt you. [ she says it because it's true, because saying it might confirm it. her hand slows as she begins to drop it. she nearly reaches to touch his shoulder. still might. ]

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2013-03-11 03:20 pm UTC (link)

[ He watches her reaction. The concern, the worry -- it never fails to confuse him at first. He used to mistake it for pity. (Like the way he thought Stefan and Elena looked at him after they'd discovered that Katherine wasn't in the tomb.)

But he's slowly learning to let himself accept it for what it is. Except... ] I don't get hurt. [ There's that big old lie again. ]

Wounded? Maybe a little. [ He lifts his shirt up and shows Elena the slow healing scar on his stomach. ] Deservedly stabbed by Barbie Klaus. [ He's not entirely sure why he's telling her this. It's not like she'll make the boo boo go away. More like she'll give him a look that says: 'you asked for it. you deserved it. you're a dummy.' It's what he expects. What he needs maybe. ]

She sucks.

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2013-03-11 04:02 pm UTC (link)

[ she's withstood his confusion, learned to weather the awe that eventually followed. maybe it's the only way not to fall into it; elena knows how she feels, what she feels and how she chooses those feelings.

she doesn't correct him, but her eyes fly up to his; her head tilts. (they know better, but that's not her point. her point is why he'd be saying it now.) her hand hovers over his shoulder, collides with and moves down his arm. she's not entirely sure why he's showing her this either. she pulls in a breath, closes her parted lips at the sight of the angry, jagged scar.

(it wasn't a clean cut. it was painful - ) she shifts on her feet, closer, and her hand touches his fingers over his shirt. moves down to trace above the wound. ] Damon...

[ it was stupid. it was stupid and he got hurt. by rebekah. (she regards their alliance for a second.) she doubts his run-in with klaus helped.

she lets her eyes lift to meet his.

she's angry, and it's not entirely with him.

not much with him at all. ]

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2013-03-11 05:11 pm UTC (link)

[ He'd expected the anger being directed at him, but the whole touching his wound thing is making him all slightly confused again. Damon had sucked in a breath the moment her finger grazed his skin. It's only when he glances down at her hand that he realizes he'd been holding his breath. What even. He looks back up at her; meets her gaze and is all too aware that they're standing only inches apart from each other.

It's unfair. The bed, the walls, the desk. Her lips. It's like they're all screaming for attention in his head. He knows it's only what he imagines, but he can't take it. He takes a sudden step back, trips over a box on the floor and lands flat on his back.

Clumsy, clumsy.

Now let's scratch the part where Rebekah sucks because she doesn't. Elena sucks and he hurts. ]

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2013-03-11 05:37 pm UTC (link)

[ she doesn't mean for the air to charge like it does, but maybe it already had been. she feels the intake of his breath, but it doesn't impact her until their eyes meet and she sees what's there. her lips part. it takes a moment, and her gaze drops to his mouth.

if he was looking to ruin the mood...

elena cannot recall a time or place or pretty much ever when damon wasn't a little more graceful than that, so color her shocked. her mouth forms an 'o' as he start to go down. at first she's worried, because hello, nasty wound, but then the amusement takes over her features. ] Oh my god. [ look, she can't help it okay. it's not every day damon salvatore trips and falls on his butt.

she steps around the box and begins to kneel besides him. ] Are you drunk off fairy blood again?

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2013-03-11 05:42 pm UTC (link)

[ This kind of thing has never happened before. Ever. It's humiliating. He lets out a groan and pulls a flattened box of tissues from under his back. She has a habit of leaving things everywhere. He's reminded of that now. Her journal, her sweater, her pen, her books, her shoes... It's scattered all around his apartment and he hasn't made a move to put it away just yet. ]

Oh, don't I wish. [ His cheeks might be all red-ish, but it's so not because he's drunk. Feel free to not notice that b-t-w. Besides, he's pretty sure he's on Sookie's shit list right now. He looks to the side and underneath her bed and lets out a slight grimace. He can't imagine what's under there; doesn't want to. Yes. He's judging your bedroom, Elena. This guy. The one who can't bring himself to get up from one bad fall is doing that in order to avoid looking at her. ]

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	action. matter 2013-03-11 05:49 pm UTC (link)
	[ elena gilbert notices those red spots, but lucky for you damon, she's not going to comment. she does keep her smile, scoff a little, and shake her head at him. she leans towards his side, reaching over help him into a sitting position with her. ] Once I face-planted at the Grill. In front of my parents and my date. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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2013-03-11 06:04 pm UTC (link)

Let me guess. You were six and out on a play date after happy sandbox times at the playground with the quarterback. [ He can imagine her laughing at herself because that's just the kind of fun person Elena is when she's not having to deal with all the crap that surrounds her. And that's what first attracted him to her really. Her laugh. Her smile. The fact she looked like Katherine might have caught his attention, but it wasn't what made him stay interested.

Damon doesn't laugh, but she does. And that's enough somehow. ]

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2013-03-11 07:50 pm UTC (link)

I was sixteen, and drunk, and I was with Matt. [ and caroline and tyler and bonnie probably, but semantics. he's right; she was a fun person back then. everything seemed so simple, so small. there's a wistfulness in her voice as she dryly recounts the story. the kind of wistfulness you might feel for somebody you used to know. ] I had to act like I was choking because it was the first time I drank that much. But my father was a doctor. [ so... that failed. she exhales. her expression sobers. that girl is gone.

she wants to say something. do something. she doesn't know what. she's sitting on the floor with damon, telling him about the past, when... elena knows what it feels like to have someone's presence scattered everywhere, in more ways than one. ] I wasn't angry because you did something stupid. I was angry because... I care what happens when you do it. [ for everyone else. for him too. ] Because I care why you would do it in the first place.

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