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Helix Wamtani (bluemoondog) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-02-04 11:25:00

Current mood:	annoyed
Entry tags:	aidan reilly, dirk strider, euphemia li britannia, helix wamtani, peggy carter, raven darkholme, sougo okita, spencer reid, tyki mikk

Day 205 [Action | OTA]
[If it weren't for Aidan, Helix may never have come outside today at all. But injured boyfriends are very convincing when it comes to going grocery shopping with a bum wrist… that was pretty much his fault. Also, don't be fooled, Helix hides his injuries well, but he got into a scuffle too, he might walk with a slight limp.

So you can catch Helix in sectors 4, 2 or 0 and probably some places between? (If you want to plot elsewhere I'm cool with that)]

((ooc: I am totally up for anyone and everyone tagging Helix, even if it's for non-smoochie times. State if you want a megabot in the title line thanks!))

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bluemoondog
2013-02-15 09:33 pm UTC (link)

What because I'm asking you tell me what you know in exchange for what I know, now suddenly we need rules?

Are you telling me you would have volunteered information if I hadn't tried to play it smart?

Or were you honestly expecting me to just spill it cause we're "Friends" without asking for anything in return?

It's something we're both interested in and I was figuring we could help each other out, but shit, gotto get your damn superiors involved. Unless you're just butt-hurt about what I said.

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thisiscalm
2013-02-15 10:11 pm UTC (link)

You were the one suggesting a trade. That implies something a lot more official than just two friends talking. For the record, you're not the only one I've asked for help but you are the only one openly bargaining for something in return. I would've been happy to just continue talking like friends.

You said it yourself, we can't spread this information to the general public and sorry to say... that includes you. It's protocol, Helix. Nothing personal.

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bluemoondog
2013-02-15 10:15 pm UTC (link)

But you just admitted that you would have told me anyway. So what's the difference??

[A flat look.]

Oh fuck you.

Right I'm just a worthless civie to you because you fucking DF douchebags are oh so special compared to the rest of us. Fuck off.

Whatever. Guess you don't give a lick for my safety. Seeing as i'm just a stupid civilian wandering in there alone. Fuck it. I don't need you.

[And yet for some reason he couldn't bring himself to storm off. He'll just drink his coffee angrily.]

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thisiscalm
2013-02-15 10:20 pm UTC (link)

The difference is that I have to report an official bargain. You made it into one, not me.

[ He sighs, shifting some in his chair. Some days, it really feels like he hasn't gotten anywhere since that first night-time heart to heart and he can't help but wonder if this kneejerk reaction towards anything that could possibly be interpreted as authority is ever going to ease up. ]

Alright. If that's how you feel... I shouldn't keep you then. [ Starting to get up. ]

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	bluemoondog 2013-02-15 10:21 pm UTC (link)
	Since when did protocol have anything to do with us? Ever? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-02-15 10:25 pm UTC (link)
	When it comes to just you and me? Never. This isn't just about us though, is it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bluemoondog 2013-02-15 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	It was. You had to go and make it about everyone else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-02-15 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	... [ He hesitates for another moment. Pushes himself fully up on his feet. ] I'm an FBI agent. I have an obligation to my team and here, that includes the Defense Force. You knew that from the beginning, Helix. I told you, it's nothing personal. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

bluemoondog
2013-02-15 10:33 pm UTC (link)

I never once said I was making a deal with them I was talking to YOU.

I said before. YOU are not THEM.

Until now apparently.

YOU wanted the information and were curious. I want information too, but I'm not about to just tell you and trust you'll give up what you're getting FOR THEM. So of course I thought it would better if I asked for it.

It's bullshit to me that you want to go back on the fact you would have given it freely just because I thought it'd be better for you if I bargained instead of you just spilling this CLASSIFIED bullshit.

Whatever, fuck me for covering your ass.

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thisiscalm
2013-02-15 10:38 pm UTC (link)

[ He shifts where he stands, restless. This is such bullshit and he has half a mind to just leave without a word but that really won't fly. ]

Until now? Are you kidding me? The very reason why I have to go to Morgan with this is because you wanted to strike up a deal! I would be going behind his back if I didn't! You're not covering my ass, you're putting me in a position where I can't just trust you to do what's right!

You want to know what this little deal with me would've entitled? Me putting in a good word for you with Morgan and a one on one interview, just you and me. That's all, but the moment I mentioned the DF you spat it back in my face.

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bluemoondog
2013-02-15 10:43 pm UTC (link)

Yeah I thought I was doing you a favor so you'd have reason to tell me instead of giving out information and potentially getting yourself in trouble!

I don't give a rats ass about a "good word" or what anyone thinks about me.

Why the fuck does this have to be so stupidly complicated when you would have told me anyway??? If you gave a damn you'd TELL ME ANYWAY.

I was only OFFERING what we would have done IN THE FIRST PLACE.

[One hand is tightly clenched in his feathers with frustration.]

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thisiscalm
2013-02-15 10:49 pm UTC (link)

It's not about me giving a damn, Helix! It has nothing to do with that, but sometimes you have to play by other people's rules to get what you want! You can't just go around and expect everyone to either accept your terms or fuck off! [ Which you told him to do. ]

If you hate the Defense Force so much, then I really don't see why it would be any different talking to me.

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bluemoondog
2013-02-15 10:54 pm UTC (link)

Because YOU are not THEM [Slamming a fist on the table hard enough to make his cup bounce and spill a little. He manages to stop it from tipping over, grip almost crushing. He frowns, angry with all of this, certain he could trust Reid and have a little fun with exchanging information.

He might be hurt. Really kind of hurt that suddenly Reid can't tell him anything just because he wanted to have a little fun. Suddenly the rules with them changed over one stupid thing. He doesn't understand it.]

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thisiscalm
2013-02-15 11:09 pm UTC (link)

[ He doesn't flinch at the outburst. His shoulders may be tense and his jaw set but he doesn't flinch and even though he bows his head at the end of it, there's no resignation. No retreat. A re-evaluation perhaps, but nothing else — it bothers him more than he can possibly explain that Helix harbors so much hatred towards the organisation that gave him stability when he arrived. Still does. His family away from home, as rag-tag and disorganized as it can be.

It hurts that some of that hatred spills over on him, no matter if the boy means to or not. He's Defense Force. He's FBI. He's authority.

After a moment, he draws a deep, steadying breath. Releases it slowly. ]

I'm sorry.

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bluemoondog
2013-02-19 02:09 am UTC (link)

[Okay, so, he was hurt. Not just "might be". Honestly it sounded like something changed between them and suddenly Reid was putting his position on the DF in front of what friendship they'd managed to create. It didn't matter before, but suddenly it did now. That sorry wasn't enough to set the record straight.]

Since when can't you fucking trust me? Just a minute ago you were thanking me for keeping your biggest secret.

NOW you wanted to throw fucking PROTOCOL at me. Was I stupid to believe you when you told me that you being on the DF didn't change anything? That we were friends?

[His voice cracked a few times and he swallows it down.]

Fuck I can't even have a little fun.

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thisiscalm
2013-02-19 03:35 pm UTC (link)

No! No... that's not what this is about. [ The way the boy's voice cracks is enough for him to drop any of his own hurt and move over to sit in the chair next to him. He leans over, voice low and even. ]

Helix... listen to me. We are friends. We are. I'm always going to look after you, okay? I'm on your side, but that doesn't mean that I don't have to do certain things a certain way or I will be in trouble for it.

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bluemoondog
2013-02-19 11:58 pm UTC (link)

[He turned away, unable and unwilling to look at Reid when he joined him, leaning closer. He swallowed, eyes still tense as he fought off some pretty childish emotions over all of this. Blame it on the fact that he's never had friends before, so to feel betrayed by one in some form? It stung a little more than he'd like to admit.]

That's the thing.

[He turned to him then.] I thought I was helping while having fun cause any other time you just tell me things I probably shouldn't know.

[He sighed, giving up on any other argument that would fall off his lips. He'd just be repeating everything he's already said over and over. His eyes fell to his coffee cup, thumb rubbing the surface.]

Just forget it. [Partially mumbled.]

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	thisiscalm 2013-02-20 08:08 pm UTC (link)
	Hey... come on. I'll still tell you things. None of that has changed. [ He hesitates for a beat before reaching over to pat Helix on the shoulder. Bit awkward, but hey. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bluemoondog 2013-02-20 09:52 pm UTC (link)
	[He shrugged in such a way that would still show his reluctant acceptance but wouldn't cause Reid to think his hand touching his shoulder would be a bother. Just a light lift before dropping back down with something lazy.] So your boss shows up and suddenly you clam up and care about protocol. Whatever. I get it. Your work is more important. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-02-21 02:06 am UTC (link)
	[ He could feel that Helix didn't mind — no tensing, no signs of aversion — but he still removed his hand after another beat. Awkward. It wasn't something he ever really did but it felt right at the time. ] You know... back home, I didn't exactly have anything beside work. It's a tough habit to shake. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bluemoondog 2013-02-21 08:41 pm UTC (link)
	Guess that's just where Kitty gets the best of both worlds cause you mixed work and pleasure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-02-21 09:36 pm UTC (link)
	...What does she have to do with anything? [ No, seriously. He's not offended, just confused. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bluemoondog 2013-02-21 11:16 pm UTC (link)
	Cause she's one of the few people that's really close to you and you WORK with her. So that habit you can't shake doesn't apply to her cause she works with you. Protocol doesn't matter cause she's your boss, you can tell her anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-02-21 11:46 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah... I guess? I mean, in that aspect she's not that much different from my team mates but that doesn't mean I can't separate my private and professional life. [ Where are you going with this, Helix. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)