Rachel Berry (broadway_berry) wrote in makebelievenet, @ 2012-09-30 09:29:00 |
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Entry tags: | minerva paradizo, rachel berry |
So I am pretty much having a great weekend. I think I finally have written another song for my musical. Beware, its kind of angry song, but its also pretty fun. If anyone wants to hear it, let me know, I wouldn't mind giving you a little preview of what to expect from this musical.
I have to say that I'm not even upset at myself and this isn't a way to complain about what I saw. I feel really bad yes, but I at least know that Finn is alright, I have been worried about him returning home and everything. It would have been nice for him to come home at a different part, when I wasn't making out with another guy, but hey, beggars can't be choosers now can they. Kurt and Blaine, I want you to know that whatever happens next week on the show, that you two realize that its not you, you are here together, married, living a happy life. I'm finally able to look at myself and realize that the person that I'm looking at on the TV is not really me, I'm not the one that is making those decisions.
I am still going to wait for Finn to return back to me. But from now on, I'm going to live my life here and watch the show. I may cry and be angry with what is going on, complain a little bit that I don't like where my life is heading on the show, but to be perfectly honest, I wouldn't complain if Brody did show up here.
Am I a terrible person for even thinking that? I still love Finn though, that will never change.