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Siri Tachi (neverlosefocus) wrote in makebelievecomm,
@ 2014-01-29 20:30:00

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mara jade, siri tachi

[AUDIO; LOCKED TO MARA]
Could I ask you a question?

[She sounds... just the slightest bit uncomfortable. And it’s hard for her to even broach the subject; this is personal, so very personal. But Helena’s flowers, and her note, and the admission... There are emotions now, new ones. One she hasn’t dealt with before; not to this degree.]

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lifeyoulive
2014-02-02 05:43 am UTC (link)

[Mara is more than patient as she lets Siri find the words she needs to express herself. She knows emotions aren't exactly easy for the other Jedi here to handle. While Mara isn't going to impose the New Jedi Order's way of doing things upon them, she will offer her knowledge to them when needed.]

You shouldn't feel as though it should have crossed your mind before now. People don't always realize things until later on. It's part of dealing with emotions, it's an on-going learning process as well as being self-discovery.

Patience has never been my strong suit either, so don't worry about that. [She laughs as well.] I know of a few meditations that should help you.

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neverlosefocus
2014-02-13 12:03 am UTC (link)

[It’s difficult, after a lifetime of being told that emotions are dangerous, that feelings and attachments will lead to you Fall unless you’re careful. And even though she knows better, even though she knows that what she feels for Obi-Wan isn’t wrong, that as long as she’s mindful her attachment to him will not make her Fall, will not make either of them Fall, dealing with emotions that you’ve been instructed to let go of, ignore, not have is just the slightest bit overwhelming sometimes. Especially when it’s something new. Something like jealousy. And the fear of loss. Heartbreak.

And she’s still probably better equipped to deal with them than a lot of her peers. Not that that’s saying much. She’s still has the same lifetime of learning. Of instruction.] And it’s a learning process I’m painfully behind on, probably. [She sounds less uncomfortable now, and there’s even a note of teasing, of amusement in her voice when she says that.] It still seems like something I should have... realised, when we made the decision to set aside our agreement and accept... attachments. Even if I know better.

I’d appreciate that.

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