Lorna Dane (tiredofhiding) wrote in madisonvalley, @ 2019-01-17 02:45:00 |
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Entry tags: | !log, !open, lorna dane (tiredofhiding), ~2019 january, ~40 points, ~~llewellyn cornick (sinfullydevious) |
Who: Lorna Dane and Open
What: Losing her mind over making decisions on her kid.
Where: Park
When: Wednesday afternoon
Warnings: Eh language cause it's Lorna but will change if needed.
Status: Open, In-progress.
Ever since the kids had left, Lorna found herself trying to process the information she managed to get from Dawn about her birth. She found herself sinking into a dark hole, realizing she was going to be dealing with everything by herself. No support system of any kind. Knowing that and seeing how Hazel was, it was stressing Lorna out, fearing this kid was doomed from the very start with her as a mother. The world saw her as a freak, troubled, and a monster only now she had a kid on the way who deserved the whole world and was stuck with Lorna. Locking herself away from the world, she tried to deal with it only to find her thoughts running away from her even more, which was not all that healthy for her.
Lorna knew she had to stop with the hiding and deal with the situation. Which was why she found herself forcing herself to get some fresh air at the park with a small notebook. After taking what felt like forever to get comfortable on the bench thanks to her belly, she opened the notebook. Writing down things she knew she had to deal with around her daughter. “You know if your father was here, he’d be creating you the most stylish crib you could even imagine,” and Lorna knew that without a doubt. Only Marcos wasn’t here to do that, and she wasn’t even sure if he’d ever show up. Sighing, she started looking over the list to see if she was forgetting anything. Why did people get joy out of baby shopping? Lorna wasn’t even full on baby shopping since it was more list of people she needed to talk with and things she needed at some point, but already she thought of ten million other things she’d rather be doing than this list.