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Benjy Fenwick is a Keeper (bwick) wrote in loremrpg,
@ 2011-05-12 23:37:00

Entry tags:

!complete, !incomplete, benjy fenwick, kira fenwick

Characters: Benjy and Kira Fenwick (and just about everyone else)
Setting: Great Hall / Entrance Hall
Summary: Benjy and Kira have a sibling "discussion" about the events between Kira and Sirius.
Rating: Moderate, for potential language.

After "talking" with his sister the previous night over their journals, Benjy's brain wouldn't shut off and he was up all night trying to process through, well, everything. Needless to say, he was not exactly at his peak when he meandered down from the Ravenclaw Tower to get some breakfast.

More or less, he was running on autopilot, as was his usual when he was trying to work through something. To make matters worse, he was stuck at some conclusions that were impossible to accept. Kira was his sister and he loved her no matter what, but he was just so frustrated with her. He had to be there for her, but he couldn't bring himself to look at her. And he was hating himself for it.

And this is the loop that he found himself in while he began chewing a slice of bacon and staring off into the wall of the Great Hall. Deep down, Benjy knew that he needed to talk to Kira. She was, after all, the one in need of consoling. But he had no idea how to even approach her.

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kwick
2011-05-14 06:18 am UTC (link)

Kira had never been a fan of feeling she was lacking where her brain was concerned, so the fact her brother asked if she was mental furthered the great chasm that was growing between them. She couldn't step back to think things through from his perspective, nor could the headstrong girl back down. She had a hard time believing Benjy was the one wronged in this situation. In fact, Kira completely regretted having told him anything to begin with.

The way her brother flung his arms to and fro made Kira nauseous, mostly because she was well aware now of all the eyes turning to the two of them. She wasn't one for making a scene, particularly not when this was the subject being discussed. Her love life, no matter how much she botched things up, had always been her own. Sure, she'd relied on Benjy to be her support more times than she could count on two hands. Until now Kira had never thought it a problem. Today he just managed to make her feel ignorant and childish, well beyond the point of hurting and vulnerable, where she was before this run-in. "'Watching out for [me]?' Is that what you call this? In that case, you can keep it!" Kira snapped back, unable to fight the urge to cry at that point. She hated herself for it, but more prevalent at this moment was her fury at Benjy for making her feel so stupid. Kira didn't do well with perceived weaknesses within herself, so this was not well received at all.

For a second she fought the urge to storm away, but when she relived that last statement her brother had made, the point had been breached. There was really no turning back. "I'm sorry my life is such an inconvenience to you," she finally added in a quieter yet sharp tone of voice, scooping up her textbook before standing up abruptly. "I won't make the mistake of telling you anything about it again." And with that, she turned away from her brother, fighting complete breakdown though the tears were already rolling down her cheeks. It wasn't until she got out of the Great Hall and away from prying eyes she allowed herself to breathe again, only walking slowly until she reached the stairs where she was no longer within sight of anyone who'd seen the commotion. At that point, she near ran back up to Ravenclaw Tower.

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bwick
2011-05-14 07:23 am UTC (link)

Any other day, every other day, Benjy would have run after Kira. But today, this morning, he couldn't.

He wasn't wrong in trying to point out that Kira's actions had been ridiculous. As far as Benjy could tell, Kira was fighting some personal battle to see just how far she could take a situation and still bounce back. Or perhaps, she was acting out those novels that she was constantly reading.

Even though Benjy stood by his intention, he was beginning to realize that his method of delivery was quite trollish. Mostly, this was pointed out by the many staring faces that Benjy had started noticing all around him.

And in an instant, every bit of anger Benjy was feeling turned in on himself. He had yelled at his sister, made her cry, and, to top it off, done both in front of most of the school. She was just trying to move on from what had happened, and he hadn't picked up on that. He had made matters much more worse.

So today wasn't all that different. Benjy stood up and walked out of the Great Hall, heading back toward the dormitories to see if he could try to make things right again.

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