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romanriver ([info]romanriver) wrote in [info]loremrpg,
@ 2011-05-10 22:00:00

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Who: Tiberius Ogden and Gideon Prewett
Where: Classroom 5
When: Early Evening
What: Discussing the events of the Sirius' party



This room had grown quite familiar to Tiberius in the last month. He had begun to notice the small deviations on the brick patterned wall as he sat at the usual table closest to the door. He had started to chip at the paint nervously the first time he came in the room with Amos. Now, the shape of the part of the table with the paint fully peeled started to look like a mermaid(man?) who looked like it was bleeding and being pursued by doxies. Similar to the ways people viewed clouds, it very likely only looked to Tiberius this way.

The last time he was here sorting things out with Trish, he had an idea of what he wanted to say in an order that he wanted to say it in, and yet he was at a loss for words at most points and had much trouble beginning. Now, he was even more nervous (if that was possible) and had nothing planned. He could see the two trains colliding before his very eyes. What could he say though?

He knew he definitely felt more than lust for the boy. He knew lust, and though it sometimes started with a drunken encounter like this, this felt definitively different. He could not explain it, it was simply just true because he knew it. How far this extended, he also could not say. Especially when he thought of Mia. He had worked so hard to fix things with Mia and Trish and was still working on Ed. If this turned out to be anything, all of that would crumble down and Tiberius would very unfortunately be back at square one.

But then he thought that maybe his friends' opinions shouldn't matter. He should live his life for himself. However, a Hufflepuff cannot escape his instincts much like a fish cannot escape the fact that it must commit it's entire life to breathing water. He knew he owed much of his success to his loyal friends, and it wouldn't be very loyal to up and abandon everything that they had worked so hard on. This conversation he was about to have was likely to be the most difficult in all his life. He heard the familiar sound of the doorknob and waited for Gideon to appear.


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[info]notacur
2011-05-11 10:19 am UTC (link)
Gideon looked nice, all things considered. He wasn't quite as polished as Fabian, but he wasn't a slob by any means. He probably looked a little more relaxed than he felt, but that was just his nerves. He liked Tiberius, and the other boy was good at snogging, but he wasn't quite sure what would come from that. He wasn't usually one to stress over things that much, but when he did, he internalized a lot more than his brother. That was likely why his stomach felt like it was in knots.

What would be in store for them? Gideon had no clue. But he knew he couldn't just stand there. He grabbed a chair as he approached Tiberius, and sat down in it. "It's not pressure, just, I'd rather look at you while we talk, is all." He smiled a little shyly, which was weird for him.

He tried to take on a relaxed position as he sat, but he ended up leaning forward in his chair instead. He wasn't tense, but he wasn't lax either. "I hope you don't think badly of me, for snogging you while you were drunk. I was tipsy, but, I was still in control of my actions. I hope you don't feel I.. That I.. took advantage of you." He frowned a little and looked down. That had been what was eating away at him a great deal.

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[info]romanriver
2011-05-11 06:44 pm UTC (link)
"No, No not at all!"

This came as a surprise to Tiberius. He looked down at the boy in front of him. He could sense he was more nervous than he showed. He felt more comfortable, smiled a little, and then thought he was so.....cute. There was such an endearing quality to him that Tiberius couldn't place. He knew this was odd, to think him cute, but at this time, he didn't care because it was just the two of them.

He got off the top of the table, pulled up another chair and sat in front of Gideon, leaning his chest on the back of the chair. He wanted to be at the same level as gideon, he didn't want to appear above. And this was an excuse for Tiberius to move closer to Gideon.

"You didn't take advantage of me at all" he repeated. "Hey", he said, grabbing Gideon's attention and willing him to look up and not so upset, "you are totally fine in my book. For how drunk I may have been at the start, I knew what I was doing and wanted to do everything that I did. If anything, I fear I used you for basically holding my flask to your mouth!". He laughed at this, hoping that he really didn't take advantage of Gideon and that Gideon would laugh as well.

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[info]notacur
2011-05-12 02:54 am UTC (link)
Admittedly, one of Gideon's biggest worries in this whole situation was that Tiberius had felt taken advantage of. Even though Tiberius was the one who approached him initially, Gideon had known he was drunk, really drunk, and had still gone through with acting on his desires. He of course had enough sense to pull away before it got too far, but he'd still probably done more than he should have. Hearing that Tiberius didn't feel that way was a relief. He never would have considered Tiberius responsible for anything, save for the fact that it was him who initialized anything between them.

Having heard Tiberius say that he hadn't been forced or even really coerced in anything involving the two of them was an instant relief. It felt like an infinitely heavy weight was lifted off his shoulders. Gideon was still nervous, but he did feel better about the whole thing. "I wanted to, though," he said. "Even if I didn't realize it then, I do now. Truth be told, I think about you a lot." His cheeks flushed pink after his admission. A lot did not even begin to describe it.

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[info]romanriver
2011-05-12 03:15 am UTC (link)
Tiberius could not censor his feelings any longer. Though he knew he should cut things off before they grew monstrous, he could not deny his heart's wants.

His heart soared when Gideon said that, and he couldn't stop a broad grin growing wider on his face. He was very flattered and, to be frank, giddy. He couldn't help it, he was so enraptured by this boy he couldn't even describe it. He wanted so badly to just touch his face, hold his hand, something to join the two together, if only for a moment.

"You know, I haven't gone a day since the ball without thinking about you too. I.... I don't really know how to say this or why I feel it..... But I really do like you, I want you to know that."

When he had made confessions to his friends about such personal things, his flight instinct usually kicked in and he tried to leave as fast as possible, but with Gideon, the game had somehow changed.

"I....I don't know quite what to do from here, though."

This was the part he was dreading. For him to keep feeling this way, he needed to end things with Mia. But that would mean turning his back on his house. He would have to make a decision, and the easy way seemed best. But the easy way was hardest for his heart.

"You know what, what do you say to maybe...er...hanging out sometime? Maybe the next Hogsmeade visit or even just after class or something?"

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[info]notacur
2011-05-12 02:01 pm UTC (link)
It was nice to hear that he was liked. He wouldn't deny that for a second. He'd been fancied before a couple of times, but that didn't make what Tiberius said to him any less special. This was just all so new, it was a little hard to wrap his head around it. He didn't know what he'd done to make him like him so much already, but he wasn't one to question other's feelings. He liked Tiberius from what he knew of him, and he knew he liked snogging him. That was something he was definitely sure of. But what did that mean? Where would things go from there? Tiberius said he wasn't sure either.

Gideon didn't know anything about all the loose ends Tiberius had to deal with. He didn't make it a priority to peek in on his peers' social lives. Had he known, it would be hard to say how he would react. But since he was clueless, he was operating under the assumption that Tiberius was in the same position that he was in.

"After class sometime would be all right," he said. Now that he had really unearthed these feelings and understood that they were real and not just some sort of whim, he didn't think he should just try to brush them back under the rug. He needed to explore them more and become more familiar with everything. To do that, he figured the best way to start would be to explore them with Tiberius. "I'll have Quidditch practice some nights, but I reckon I could meet you any other time." He didn't know what he was going to tell his brother. Fabian was a whole other issue he'd have to figure out, Molly too, but he'd manage it. The problem was that he and Fabian usually did everything together. He'd have to come up with something, or, just tell Fabian everything. The latter was what he wanted to do, what came natural to him, but it scared him all the same. He wasn't sure he was ready for that yet.

"Maybe we can study together," he suggested. He didn't really like studying, but it would be something they could do. It might lead to other discussions, or.. things.. things that made him blush to think about.

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[info]romanriver
2011-05-12 10:27 pm UTC (link)
"I may have Quidditch too, providing Hooch doesn't kick me off"

He had forgotten all about the problems with Ro. He tried to ensure that a look of worry didn't spread across his face - he didn't want Gideon to think he was worrying about them together. He banished the thought. As much as he loved Quidditch, it was becoming more trouble than it was worth. This was more important now.

"But, yeah, studying sounds great. We've got most of the same subjects, so that should work. I think I could do better in Transfiguration anyways."

He again smiled at Gideon. He couldn't help it, or do anything else when he looked at him. He wondered though, if the suggestion to study together was an opt out of anything more. He hoped not, but would take any excuse to spend more time with him. And considering things with the other 7th years in his house were still up in the air, this would provide some stability.

"So.....er.....is there anything else on your mind....or...er...I don't know, anything else?"

He leaned forward in his chair closer to the boy as he said this, feeling for his wand simultaneously in case a door needed to be locked temporarily.

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[info]notacur
2011-05-13 05:29 am UTC (link)
Gideon had no idea what he was going to do when it came to his family or his friends. What would he say to them about all of this? That he was gay? Was that what he even was? He'd dated two girls and he'd really fancied them at the time, but there was a reason those relationships came to an end, wasn't there? His head was spinning from trying to figure everything out, but as he looked at Tiberius, he felt a little more grounded and steady. Kissing him had felt right, and that had to mean something too.

He liked his smile, and the way it fell upon his features. Gideon smiled back. His suggested that they study together hadn't been an attempt to avoid any of what they'd done at Sirius' party. It was just what he would likely be telling his brother when he was going to leave, so if they actually were meeting to do that he wouldn't be telling a lie.

"I.. I'm really glad I got to see you," he said. "And that you had the nerve to try to seek me out, both at the party and after." He felt his cheeks grow warm as he spoke, but he knew there wasn't much he could do about it. If he was going to blush, then so be it. His words were true, and that was what mattered most to him.

His heart felt like it was going to beat right out of his chest, with how close Tiberius was sitting across from him. He worried somewhat that maybe Tiberius wouldn't want to kiss him when he was sober, but there was really only one way to know for sure. "Would you kiss me again?" He asked softly, and felt his cheeks burn with shyness as a result.

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[info]romanriver
2011-05-13 05:53 am UTC (link)
And with a flick of his wand, their security was ensured and he closed the gap between them.

He did not do it in a forceful manner. This was not the same lusty kiss that had started it all. Tiberius was very gentle and feeling this time. He was fully aware of what he was getting into, and for it to work he had to treat it with the care the situation demanded. He was playing with fire, a substance much different than the stable earth he liked to have. Though, he realized at this instant that he felt most free off the ground. He needed a change, right? Gideon, at this moment, was the best thing that could happen.

The chairs the were sitting in were undeniably awkward and uncomfortable for the task they were performing. Tiberius broke the kiss, smiled gently, and stood. Standing would be ok, he thought, but it would get tiresome... How about... He led Gideon just a few paces towards a desk, where he then sat on it. He pulled Gideon close again and then proceeded to kiss him softly again, this time with an undercurrent of passion.

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[info]notacur
2011-05-16 12:44 am UTC (link)
Gideon needed this. He needed to feel and to know that this was more than a fleeting fancy. He knew how it had made him feel while he was buzzed and intoxicated. what he needed was to feel it while he was sober, too. Then there would be no question in his mind that he was.. well, whatever it was that he was. Gay, bisexual, he reckoned the latter since he'd fancied girls in the past. Once he came to terms with it, then he'd be able to figure out how to go about dealing with it and telling other people -- namely, Fabian.

He let Tieberius take the lead in this matter, because he was a little afraid he would mess it up if he tried. He moved where he was directed to move, and then just as he'd asked for, Tiberius was kissing him again. Their lips met, and it was different than it'd been the night of the party. Different, yet the same. The passion was still there, but there wasn't a drunken desperation. Every knead of their lips was deliberate and meaningful. It was a very powerful kiss. Gideon slid his hands up to both sides of Tiberius' face, fingers curling into the ends of his hair, as he returned the kiss whole heartedly.

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[info]romanriver
2011-05-16 03:21 am UTC (link)
Tiberius needed to sort himself out, and feeling Gideon's hands on him answered every question imagineable. His mind had been made up. He could not let this go. He was ready for whatever lay ahead. He didn't care what happened so long as this could keep happening. He had longed all year for a connection, something to make this year the best and to answer all of the little voices constantly picking away at his drive. That was Gideon.

As wonderful and magical as this was for Tiberius, he knew it could not last. Rather than let Filch make a ruckus because the door was locked, Tiberius decided to take action. He broke the kiss, put both hands on Gideon's shoulders and said,

"Gideon. You are amazing, but I don't think Filch or Yaxley will be much interested in our activities. Do you maybe want to go get some dinner, or would that be too weird?"

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