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Tweak says, "love actually is the worst"

Roxy Fisher (nightsat_roxy) wrote in lineof_fire_rpg,
@ 2008-01-21 19:49:00

Who: Roxy and Mikaela
What: Reunion Time!
When: Tuesday Morning-ish?
Where: Niccy's place
Rating: PG, PG-13 probably
Open: to

mikaelachase only!

Roxy lay down on the couch, relishing the morning alone. She had a sinking feeling that she was driving Niccy away, and she wouldn't blame him if that were true. She wouldn't want to hang around her all the time either. Currently she was half-watching some soap opera on TV, and was getting bored with it already. She figured she should probably go out, do something productive - but other than the occasional trip the Blockbuster or the grocery store, Roxy pretty much stayed in, tucked under a blanket and not going anywhere. She was afraid to go out alone, afraid that someone might be lurking around the next corner. And Roxy absolutely never went out after dark. That brought back far too many scary memories.

Sipping at some orange juice, she rocked her legs back and forth mindlessly, she contemplated cleaning up, or doing something around the house. Though, she was sure Niccy's apartment had never been more spotless. Cleaning helped occupy her thoughts, so she did quite a bit of it. She sighed a little and rolled her eyes at some of the lines being said on the TV and began to flip through the channels.

Hearing a knock at the door, her brow furrowed a bit as she glanced toward it. She tugged a hand through her hair and got up, for a half of a second thinking about grabbing one of Niccy's guns. Snorting a chastising laugh at herself, she shook her head and walked toward the door, hugging her sweatshirt a little tighter around her as she walked over to answer the door.

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nightsat_roxy
2008-01-28 10:06 pm UTC (link)

Roxy smiled slightly, nodding a little as she thought back over her time at the FBI. From her recruitment to training and going out on field operations, it was nothing like she'd expected. The movies that depicted the FBI were a crock, so far as she was concerned. It was nothing like the real thing. She knew that there would have been worse circumstances to leave the FBI on, but they had been truly gracious. She assumed that was because they felt guilty for not being the ones to find her.

Roxy swallowed hard at a lump that had risen in her throat as she listened to Mikaela. She nodded a little, staring down at her hands as she twisted her fingers tightly together. Her eyes seemed intent on welling up with tears as everything rose abruptly to the surface. She spent weeks just repressing her memories, wanting them gone so badly that she's just force them out of her mind. Her eyes glanced up to Mikaela, and she hadn't even noticed that her hands were trembling. "I um...it's not that I don't want to tell you, and I'm so glad to see you, you have no idea..." She practically croaked out the last bit. Biting down hard on her lower lip, she inhaled deeply through her nose and shook her head. "A lot has happened..." She said, trying to think of the best way to put this and not scare the holy shit out of her best friend. There really was no sugar coating when it came to the situation. "It happened on Halloween..." She started, unable to meet Mikaela's eyes. "Niccy and I had gotten into a big fight, and I was stupid - I stormed off...I'm still a little fuzzy on the details of what happened but I felt a needle go into my neck, and then just...nothing." She fought at the tears while a shiver coursed down her spine. "I woke up several hours later, and I didn't know where I was, or how I got there." She stopped abruptly, finally forcing herself to look at Mikaela to gauge her reaction.

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ex_anneh194
2008-01-29 05:04 am UTC (link)

The air in the room grew thick with tension as Mikaela watched Roxy stare at her hands in silence. She must have said the wrong thing without realizing how wrong it was, because suddenly she could see the change in Roxy's demeanor as her shoulders fell and her eyes stayed averted downcast; as if it pained her to even look at Mikaela, let along speak to her. The moment Mikaela opened her mouth to speak, perhaps to change the subject as she then realized her words may have done damage, Roxy's eyes rose to meet her gaze, and she began to speak. Mikaela could see the tears well up in her eyes and hear the way her voice trembled when she spoke - matching the trembling her hands as they lay slack in her lap. It all had begun to come together in her mind. She didn't know what 'it' was, but it was quickly made obvious to her that 'it' wasn't good. Something had happened during those months, and it was much more than just the casual explanation of things originally told to her. Mikaela could feel the knots forming in her stomach as Roxy began to fill in the missing pieces. Sliding further down the couch and closer to her friend, she reached her hand across; gently placing it over Roxy's hands that seemed to tremble more as she continued on with her explanation. "My God," she said, pausing for a moment as she found herself without any proper words to speak. "So someone drugged you and...kidnapped you?" The words almost sounded unreal to her, as if they were the kind that were only spoken by the characters in a movie or on a TV screen. Her mind immediately began to race with random thoughts. Could it have been because of the FBI?...Maybe it was this Niccy guy. Maybe he was bad news after all... Her eyebrows met in a deep frown as each thought that passed through her mind continued to worsen. "What happened to you?" She spoke softly, her voice coming across in a much more soothing tone than it had in the words before.

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nightsat_roxy
2008-01-30 04:20 am UTC (link)

As hard as it was for to say it, it felt somewhat cathartic to tell someone she knew probably wasn't going to get so angry their first instinct was to kill the son of a bitch, even though he was already dead. She squeezed her fingers into fists before she nodded, swallowing hard before she spoke. "Yeah...he did." She said, her voice more hoarse than her usual voice.

Her eyes closed again for a second as she got her bearings, trying to stomach drudging up these memories. "I was there for...a little under two months. He kept me alive that long." She said, bitterness seeping through her words as she said it. She shook her head a little, biting down hard on her lower lip. "I guess the better question is what didn't he do to me." She looked up at Mikaela and offered a bit of a morose smile. "Everything you can possibly think...that's pretty much what happened. It got so bad..." She trailed off a moment, trying to find the words to say what had gone on in that room. "I was just praying for him to do it and kill me already." She barely squeaked out the last bit as another visible shudder ran up her spine.

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ex_anneh194
2008-01-30 05:21 pm UTC (link)

For the first time since she had walked through the door, Mikaela was left utterly speechless. It was a rare thing for her not to find something to say, in any situation, but this was a first. This was not something she ever imagined hearing from anyone she knew, let alone Roxy. These things just didn't happen where they were from. At least not in their lifetime. No wonder she disappeared, no wonder she had nothing to say to Mikaela after all this time. "I..." She said before pausing, as she collected enough thoughts to finally speak. "I can't believe this happened to you. I mean, I've never seen you do a bad thing in your life...besides the stupid shit we used to do, but nothing to deserve this. Why would anyone do this to you? Was it just some sick fucker who had nothing better to do with his time? Was it because of the FBI? Or someone trying to get to someone you knew?...You didn't know this man, did you?" Her first thought was that Roxy had been the unfortunate one to get attacked by some lunatic who had it out for the FBI, but really, she wasn't so sure. Mikaela had no idea how and why someone would pick her of all people, to torture in such a way. "I'm sorry," she muttered softly following her previous questions she had fired off so randomly. It was obvious what the whole conversation was doing to Roxy, and the last thing Mikaela wanted to do was make her relive the details of what she went through. It was just one of those things that she honestly couldn't wrap her head around.

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nightsat_roxy
2008-02-04 06:53 pm UTC (link)

A slightly embittered chuckle left her lips and she shook her head, pursing her lips tightly together. "I'm no saint." She said, though there was a deep seeded truth behind that. Part of her fought against the idea that it was her own damn fault, getting involved with the Italian mob, going against "God and Country" to serve them, but the other part of her just gave into that way of thinking. Maybe it was her own fault. Roxy closed her eyes for a second after Mikaela's questions, trying to gather her thoughts. She was more than likely beyond scaring the hell out of her, so it wasn't like anything she said would be a huge shock. "He was just... He kept telling me about something I did. I helped him sometime, but for the life of me I couldn't even remember his face. Something about seeing me in a grocery store...I don't know." The words were coming out faster now as she relived it, remembering the sickening way he'd smile at her, or the tenor of his voice that made her want to break into pieces. "He just picked me out of millions I guess. And I wasn't the first." She said, remembering him telling her exactly what had happened to all the other girls, and what he had so cockily assumed would happen to her.

"I was his last though." She said firmly, her jaw setting strong as she said it. Her fingers twitched involuntarily, seeing his dead body on the floor as if he were right in front of her again. There was vindication in that. Snapping out of it somewhat, she looked up at Mikaela and shrugged a little when she apologized. "I should be sorry...I just, I couldn't deal with anyone and..." She paused, shaking her head a little before sighing. "I'm just so glad you're here." She breathed with a little hint of a smile, one that was more genuine than the ones she'd given before. Maybe having her best friend here was exactly what she needed. She hadn't told any of that to anyone else, not even Niccy.

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