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Tweak says, "why do you hate me, I love you"

Zara Vienna Flint (flintz) wrote in landing_rpg,
@ 2009-03-20 15:20:00

Entry tags:

braden capper, zara flint

Who: Zara Flint, Braden Capper & NPC Girl.
What: Zara sees something that changes everything... Even if it is a misunderstanding.
Where: Hallway, 2nd floor
When: Friday Mid-day
Rating: TBA
Status: Incomplete & Closed

It sort of felt like Zara didn't get to see her boyfriend enough. Maybe it was just because they were both really busy, they were in different houses and such... Maybe it was just the way things normally happened. Zara really didn't know, and she really didn't worry about it too much. She loved Braden and trusted him... But something just didn't feel right, it felt like every time she saw him some blond was hanging around him.... Sometimes hanging off of him. Zara did her best just to not think about it, they both had friends, and Zara hugged some of her male friends.. Actually she really didn't touch anyone but Braden. Still he'd always been more outgoing and friendly than she had, so she did her best not to worry about it, or think about... Which mostly she'd done a very good job of not doing.

Zara was just walking the halls, half hoping she'd run into Braden and half just clearing her mind as she took the long way to go meet with one of her professors. She was just turning the corner on the 2nd floor after heading down the stairs when she saw Braden... with the blond. Zara paused for a moment, she didn't want to seem like the jealous girlfriend, or even paranoid so she just stayed where she was watching. As she watched the other girl get closer and closer to Braden, her heart started to sink, started to get that terrible feeling that she was right to worry... But why would Braden do this? He loved Zara? Right? Zara was about to step forward when the blonds lips landed on her boyfriends. Everything slowed down, everything started to turn worse in her mind, in her heart. She watched as Braden didn't appear to pull away at all. From where she was standing it didn't even look like he minded it. She saw the girls arms go to her boyfriends sides as she didn't pull back. It felt like a few minutes that she stood there watching, she really couldn't tell you how much time had been there.

Zara couldn't decide if she wanted to say something or just run away. Finally the girl started to pull back with some stupid kind of giggle. Zara's eyes were locked on Braden's face. Her face was pained, her eyes almost starting to water. "How.." She whispered slowly before deciding to just go right where she had to go anyways. She took her eyes away from Braden and faced forward as she started to walk on the other side of the hall towards the classroom she was aiming to get to. Zara didn't even think either of them would notice her.

She made a mental note to tell Braden it was over later, but she wasn't going to do it now.

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flintz
2009-03-23 06:31 pm UTC (link)

Zara just blinked quickly as she felt insane for even thinking things would be okay. "maybe she'd be better for you. Or at least someone more... Obvious." she said with a sigh zara knew how people saw her and she was okay with it. She didn't want to hold him back, mybe she was. Very few people knew that zara had a low self esteme at times. Her boyfriend was one of them.

"I can't do this right now.". Zara started. "I have to go to meet with a professor and I can't be late." she said shaking her head. "we can just talk later..." although you seem to spend more time with her. Zara thought, she couldn't say it but she could think it. It wasn't fun feeling like maybe she shouldn't be there.

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bcapper
2009-03-23 11:02 pm UTC (link)

"Zara, no! That's not true!" He was beginning to sound more desperate, and he was. Why was she talking like that? Could she really be crazy enough to think he wanted anyone else? Was this her way of breaking it off with him? "I don't want her. I want you. I love you. I'm sorry I didn't pull away, but I just didn't know what to do. That kind of thing's never happened before! I didn't kiss her back!"

He couldn't let her walk away. It made things seem final, and that sent a new wave of panic through him. "Zara. Please don't go," he pleaded. "I'm sorry. Don't go."

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flintz
2009-03-24 06:41 pm UTC (link)

Zara sighed. This was just uncomfortable, Zara didn't handle things like this. Zara paused from looking away from him before looking up at him. "How would you feel? If you saw some guy kissing me and I did nothing about it? Or if some guy was always hanging around me? How would you feel?" Zara asked trying to see if he'd get it.

She had just about started to walk, but when he pleaded with her, she couldn't bring herself to walk away, she just looked at him instead.

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bcapper
2009-03-24 09:57 pm UTC (link)

"I'd be glad that you didn't kiss him back," he attempted weakly, before sighing. He knew that was a lost cause. He knew he should've pushed her away, but he hadn't thought. He hadn't been able to think because he'd been so shocked. "I would've killed him," he said honestly, offering a pathetic smile. "Or at least told him to sod off. Zara, I didn't know it bothered you so much. I didn't know it was a problem. I can be stupid sometimes, you know."

She wasn't leaving, and that was a relief. "I fucked up, I know. And I know we haven't been spending much time together because things always seem to get in the way. But I love you, and I know you still love me. I'm sorry. Don't give up on me. Please."

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flintz
2009-03-25 01:10 am UTC (link)

Zara sighed. To her mind, she felt like he was more interested in spending time with other people, maybe she was just over reacting, and perhaps she was... She was just hurt, she was in love with him, perhaps it just felt like he wasn't as... She wasn't sure. She sighed, why was he joking about it? She wasn't really sure how to react.

"We let them get in the way." She said honestly, it wasn't just on him, she let things get in the way too.. It was just sort of... Well she just didn't like it. "I wouldn't give up on you." She said softly. As much as she wanted to run the other direction, she couldn't give up on them.

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bcapper
2009-03-28 10:21 am UTC (link)

Braden felt a considerable weight lift off of his shoulders at her words. She wasn't giving up on him. She wasn't breaking up with him. The girl he was absolutely in love with wasn't going to tell him to bugger off.

His hand reached up to gently cup her cheek. "We can fix it," he said softly. "I can fix it." His other arm moved to her waist, pulling her closer to him. "I'm sorry. I love you."

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flintz
2009-03-29 12:13 pm UTC (link)

She sighed as she let him pull her closer to him. Zara was still hurt, she still wasn't a big fan of how everything had happened. In fact she wasn't really happy at all. She loved Braden too much to just all at once say it was over.

"I know." she muttered softly as she rest her head against his chest. Zara wasn't really sure where they were going to go from here, or if maybe he'd wake up and realize he could be dating a girl a little bit more fun than her.

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