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Tweak says, "You Think You're A Man"

Juniper Golding (juniper_golding) wrote in labyrinth_rpg,
@ 2009-04-15 10:17:00

Entry tags:

complete, day six, edward cullen, juniper golding

WHO: Juniper and Edward
WHEN: Day six, early evening
WHAT: More fighting, probably, since they weren't done
WHERE: The woods
RATING: R-ish
STATUS: Complete

Juniper was pissed. In almost every sense of the word. She was angry, no livid at Edward, both for feeling that he had the right to be angry with her for an errant thought, and for the fact that she now sported ten finger-shaped bruises on each arm. She was angry with herself for even having the thought to begin with, because really, it was ridiculous at best, suicidal at worst. And she was drunk. Drunkity-drunk-drunk. The one good thing about the Ren Faire, Juniper had discovered, once she realised that she was locked out of her room, not having remembered to grab her key as she'd stormed out, was that they had some truly wonderful wine. And she'd sampled more than her fair share of it.

And so now, drunk and wet in the dark, and locked out of her room, Juniper was wandering. She wasn't really looking for Edward, but when she heard his mind nearby, her anger redoubled. He was such a twat. She didn't want to see him, but at the same time, she wasn't really done yelling at him yet. Maybe she'd get eaten by a bear or something on her way over there.

No such luck. Standing at the base of the tree Edward was hiding in, Juniper glared up at the dark, unable to see her boyfriend, but knowing he was there anyway. "You're an asshole!" she hollered at him, and then took another swig off the bottle she carried. "If you don't want me, just fucking say it, because I'm not stupid enough to think that this is just about a bloody thought!"

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edwcull
2009-04-15 03:08 pm UTC (link)

Edward's expression twisted until it looked very much like he was the one engulfed in flames. He stepped up to her and placed his hands very gently on either side of her face. "I don't pity you, I don't. I'm with you because you make me hope that maybe there's something more for me than the despair. You give me some kind of peace. But I'm lost, Juniper. You're so intense sometimes that it scares me, and more than that my reaction terrifies me all the more. But I don't want you to leave. "

He pulled her into his arms whether she wanted to go or not and tucked his face against her skin. His hand went down her back, petting her. "I think we need to go back and relax. We've been riding one emotional high after the other and I don't think either one of us are being entirely rational right now. We need to come down off this and then try and talk about this calmly."

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juniper_golding
2009-04-15 03:16 pm UTC (link)

"No..." Juniper begged, her tears spilling over as he pulled her into his arms. She could stay sure when she was free of his clutches, but pressed against his chest, feeling his breath against her skin, she couldn't hang on to her resolve.

She managed to pull away enough to look at him, and her face spoke of nothing but agony. "So you want to postpone breaking up then..." she mused aloud, shaking her head a bit. Because still, she was sure that was what was going to happen. Then she sighed and shrugged one shoulder helplessly. "Alright."

Slipping free of his arms, Juniper linked her fingers with Edward's and started the walk through the rain back to her room. "You're going to have to break in," she said quietly. "I left my key on the desk."

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edwcull
2009-04-15 03:24 pm UTC (link)

"We're not breaking up," he told her and there was a certainty in his voice that most found hard to argue but then this was Juniper and anything was possible. He wiped away her tears and kissed both her cheeks before taking her hand very carefully in his.

He pulled a key out of his pocket and handed it over to her. "I saw you leave it . . . I didn't want you to lock yourself out." He placed it in the palm of her hand and then pulled her against his side. "I'm sorry for the things I said in the woods. I didn't mean them. Not about hating you, or not needing you. Juniper, you're my world." He placed a kiss at her temple and then began leading them back to the dorms.

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juniper_golding
2009-04-15 03:29 pm UTC (link)

"Okay," she whispered, and there was a hint of a smile on her lips, but by and large, she was still pouting. She wanted to believe him though, so that was something.

Taking the key, Juniper stuck it in the front pocket of her pants and then snuggled under Edward's arm as he pulled her against his side. "I'm sorry about the Armand thing. It really was just an errant thought. I wouldn't trust him with a dog I liked, and I wouldn't want to be like him anyway." She paused then and pressed her cheek against his chest as they walked. "And the fire thing...that was slightly melodramatic," she admitted.

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edwcull
2009-04-15 03:34 pm UTC (link)

"That was slight?" Edward looked down at her more than a little horrified. "The next time you feel like being melodramatic, please just throw something at me instead. I don't think I can handle the full effect." He shook his head and then sighed. "Honestly I felt somewhat betrayed. I may have been over reacting as well, but I couldn't help that feeling. I was afraid of myself. I know I hurt you . . ."

He glanced at her timidly, guilt weighing his expression down and polluting his thoughts. "How bad is it? I'll have Carlisle tend to you as soon as we get back. Just tell me I didn't break anything."

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juniper_golding
2009-04-15 03:39 pm UTC (link)

"I thought about it, but it's not nearly as nice gobbing something at someone that can't be hurt by it," she joked lamely. "I'm sorry. I wouldn't go to him. Ever," she promised, looking up at Edward resolutely.

Juniper shrugged. "I'm alright. I haven't looked yet," she said, tugging on the sleeve of her sweater. "But I've got full range of motion and all of that. Please don't call your father, Edward," she begged. "I can't face him like this." And really, she didn't want Edward to have to admit what had happened to a man that clearly thought the world of him. He didn't need any more guilt on his shoulders.

They got to the dorms and Juniper pushed through the door, setting her key down before going to perch on the end of the bed. "So we're really alright?" she asked, looking at him hopefully.

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edwcull
2009-04-15 04:04 pm UTC (link)

Edward felt a little better at her promise, so he offered a timid smile and pulled her tighter to his side.

He frowned slightly at her refusal to show him. "It must be painful, oh, Juniper I'm so sorry . . . I was trying to keep from hurting you worse. You were so close and I was so angry . . . " he looked down, ashamed of himself beyond words. He'd been taught to treat women better than that. He was really terrible if he could be so careless with a girl he loved. He was never going to make up for hurting her like that. Not if he lived a hundred thousand years.

He glanced up and nodded once they finally got inside and hesitated before sitting next to her. "We're really alright, assuming of course you're not furious with me."

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juniper_golding
2009-04-15 04:10 pm UTC (link)

Juniper smiled and squeezed his hand. "I've had worse." She didn't know if it would make him feel better or worse to see, she just didn't want Carlisle seeing. "You kept me safe," she reminded him, giving him a little smile. "If I would have known how angry you were, I wouldn't have gotten in your face like that. You just...shut down. It was terrifying," she admitted. "I thought that I'd broken you or something. I was just trying to wake you up."

"Oh, I'm livid," she assured him with mock seriousness, smiling a little.

Then she picked at her nails. "Can I kiss you?" she asked quietly, not looking at him, and hating the feeling that she did need to ask. "Nothing over the top just..." she laughed a little, weakly. "I feel like we should kiss and make up or something."

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edwcull
2009-04-15 04:20 pm UTC (link)

"I was afraid to move. I've never felt anger like that. Part betrayal, part . . . hmm. Almost jealousy." He shook his head. "I'm not sure I entirely understand it myself. I'm so sorry. My behavior was abysmal. I'm very ashamed of myself right now, I usually have much better control. Only you can push me over the edge."

He smiled at her request and laid his hand on hers. "I would like that very much." He offered a small, uncertain smile and then reached up to touch her cheek. "I still love you, you know. Nothing's changed that. You don't have to ask my permission to touch me. I still belong to you alone."

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