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Tweak says, "I'm about this fonging close"

Mokona = Soel = Modoki (travelsized) wrote in kiseki_logs,
@ 2013-05-01 11:21:00

Current mood:	bouncy
Entry tags:	! event, ; memory hunt event

Memory hunt log!
Who: Everyone!
What: Memory hunt event!
Where: All over Kiseki and the extended areas!
When: Starting now, without a definite ending point!
Rating: NC-83
Warnings: I assume violence and shippy shenanigans will happen at some point

Summary:

The memory hunt event has begun! Play out anything you'd like concerning this event here \o/

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	please_wait 2013-05-19 12:01 am UTC (link)
	[Wonders for a moment why it is that you sound almost... not quite guilty, but perhaps responsible in a way he can't understand, almost as though you're apologizing for something entirely else than the topic at hand.] [...] Do you think there are more memories here? [His gaze drifts towards the house, like he's drawn to it somehow.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	preys 2013-05-19 12:20 am UTC (link)
	[....... Sob stop being so good at reading him.] There must be. There's still gaps, aren't there? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	please_wait 2013-05-19 12:31 am UTC (link)
	[Sorry, it comes with the twin-ness bb. Even if he can only remember part of it at the moment.] Mm. After that, I still don't... [He still can't remember anything. Well, anything other than Seishirou, that is.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	preys 2013-05-19 12:47 am UTC (link)
	[He seems to hesitate again for a moment, before breathing out a little. Knowing what's ahead of them...] Let's go inside. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	please_wait 2013-05-19 12:56 am UTC (link)
	[Nods, catching that hesitation, wondering about it... about whether there was another reason you brought him to the garden first. But he nods, regardless.] [Y-] Yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	preys 2013-05-24 06:09 am UTC (link)
	[Yeah... Excuse him while he holds on to your hand tight the whole time, leading the way silently.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	please_wait 2013-05-25 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	[Doesn't mind in the least, the worry and nervousness that lace that silence catching to him as well, the touch of their hands the only point of comfort. But he follows, equally silent.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	preys 2013-06-04 06:10 am UTC (link)
	[Squeezes his hand a little the closer they get, to give more of that same comfort. It's the best he can do really.] [The house, for its part, is eerily quiet, their footsteps echoing once they enter. Kamui looks around, for any memories that might appear with them closer now.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

please_wait
2013-06-06 05:14 pm UTC (link)

[He looks around, moving slowly, the initial discomfort only intensifying the deeper the move into the house-- the line of his shoulders is tense, his breaths quiet, as if he was, perhaps unknowingly, trying to make himself disappear against the darkness of the walls. There is no danger, and yet...]

[But as he looks, there is one door that seems to call to him, a closed door at the end of a hallway; without registering it, he lets go of his twin's hand, his steps certain, unfaltering in their course as he walks to the door, his hand hovering above the handle, like he can't quite bring himself to enter the room, even when he doesn't know why.]

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preys
2013-06-07 09:22 pm UTC (link)

Subaru.

[He calls out softly when he notices him move away, when it registers where he's heading to and though he doesn't stop him, he hopes his voice can ground his twin in some way, that he might hear him. Keep him from getting lost in the overwhelming sensation that being in this place without recollection must bring...]

[And quietly, Kamui follows Subaru down that hallway, soon standing behind where he stops, and gently touching his hand over his on the handle, not turning it. Rather, he checks:] Are you all right?

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please_wait
2013-06-07 10:10 pm UTC (link)

[At first, there is no indication of him hearing his twin, nothing to suggest he isn't already lost in the memories-that-are-not, in something that is almost dizzying in its absence, but that soft touch startles a quick exhale out of him, as he turns his head slightly, a faraway look still in his eyes, even as they fix on Kamui]

It is... it's like something is calling me. But, at the same time... I don't want to follow it. I don't understand. Why am I feeling such... [His voice trails off, the final word dying on his lips, like saying it would make it somehow more real, tangible in a way he can't let it, but it is there, the unmistakable sense of dread, his breathing quicker now as he he tries to answer and resist the call of that room at the same time.]

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	preys 2013-06-10 09:16 pm UTC (link)
	[Doesn't move, hesitating, lowering his gaze for a moment while he thinks and then murmurs.] Maybe you shouldn't see beyond here before remembering more. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

please_wait
2013-06-12 10:15 am UTC (link)

[He shakes his head at those words even before realising what he is doing, his expression fixed somewhere between indecision and determination, as though half of him wants nothing more than to acquiesce to Kamui's suggestion, while the other half knows he can't do that, can't not go beyond that door.]

[He moves his hand, his fingertips touching his twin's chin lightly, pushing it up so their eyes can meet, and his decision shines clear in his eyes, even before he speaks.]

I don't want to. But, Kamui... I must.

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	preys 2013-06-14 04:21 am UTC (link)
	[Meets his gaze like that, and for a moment just looks at him, at the conviction on his twin's face even though this is clearly something he doesn't want to do and yet.] Subaru... [Letting out the breath he didn't know he was holding, he nods, but stays with him.] I'll be here with you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

please_wait
2013-06-19 11:20 am UTC (link)

[Smiles at him, a brief, barely-there smile before he nods, exhaling in something like relief.] Thank you.

[Without much ceremony, he reaches for the door handle once more, twisting it and pushing the door open... barely registering the blood-stained walls, the scratches that cover every surface, some made by nails like theirs, some by sword strikes, as he doubles over, collapsing on the floor as the memories return to him.]

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	preys 2013-06-22 08:30 am UTC (link)
	[On guard for any such sudden collapsing, Kamui drops and kneels next to Subaru, holding onto his shoulders so he doesn't fall completely, his voice very much urgent about this.] Subaru-- (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

please_wait
2013-06-24 06:58 pm UTC (link)

[He doesn't say anything, can't say anything, his eyes wide, almost too much so, staring at something only he can see-- taking in all those memories, all of their family dying, one by one, their aunt as the last in this very room, the realisation that it was all because he hadn't listened to Kamui, hadn't been as cautious as he should have been, and now they're all...]

... It was all my fault. They're all dead, all of them, and it's all because of me. [The words are quiet, almost toneless, as though he can't quite process this through the shock, the overwhelming guilt that is so heavy, so much a part of him that he can't believe he could have forgotten.]

[He reaches out, touching the bloodstains that cover the floor almost gently, before he lifts his head, his eyes finding his twin's, and this time, when he speaks, his voice is louder, the question absolutely sincere.]

How could you have ever forgiven me? [He can't have ever forgiven himself. Even if he doesn't remember what happened afterwards... this much he knows.]

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preys
2013-06-29 05:52 am UTC (link)

[When Subaru turns his eyes to Kamui, with that guilt in his tone, however more direct his words are, Kamui just shakes his head then meets that gaze. He's firm now, understanding Subaru's reaction but not about to let him misunderstand.] Forgiven you? You know it could have never been a matter of that to me, Subaru.

I realize how seeing all this must make you feel. I...

[He can't put into words how sorry he is for it. Breathes out.] I understand why. [He touches his forehead to Subaru's, eyes closing now. He knows exactly why all of this happened.]

But even knowing, how could I forsake you when you matter so much to me -- even more so now that everyone is gone?

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