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Leonard Snart - Captain Cold (chillout) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2016-03-31 22:21:00

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barry allen / the flash, felicity smoak, leonard snart / captain cold, ray palmer / the atom, sara lance / white canary

And here I thought I'd imagined my trip to Jurassic Park.

For what it's worth, this coming and going thing? Really not working out for me.

The bars are still here, right?

Legends of Tomorrow Crew

Were the rest of you sent back on our merry adventures or am I the lucky one this round?

barry.

I really hope you're still here, Red.

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	chillout 2016-04-01 04:12 am UTC (link)
	Not exactly 'home'. The eighties, the future, quick stop in 1958. barry. By some definition of 'all right'. Lost a hand, got it back. That was a plus. Do you remember when you told me I was right about not trusting people? Maybe I really was right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

portential
2016-04-01 04:43 am UTC (link)

Sounds like you've been busy.

len.

You what? How did you lose a hand? Do you need a doctor?

Hey. What happened? Talk to me.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-01 05:03 am UTC (link)

It's fine. The ship can doctor up new limbs, apparently.

~~I don't~~

It's Mick. Thirty years Barry. I've known him since we were kids. We've always run hot and cold but I never thought he'd go so far of the rails.

We went to 2046. It was mess, and that's being kind. Star City. Criminals paradise. Mick loved it. Loves the chaos, you know? The world on fire. That idiot wanted to stay and I should have let him but I didn't. Couldn't. I don't leave people behind. But he didn't like that.

I thought he just needed to cool off. That's usually all it is. Typical Mick. Except instead he decides he'd rather side with the space pirates we were mixed up with and I had to make a choice. So I chose the team. I chose the team because it was the right thing to do and it only got worse from there. I knew if we kept him on the ship he'd only get worse and if we took him home he'd hurt Lisa, or anyone else. He can't control his impulses when he's that angry.

I should have killed him Barry. I could have. Had him right there but I didn't have the guts. Even dragged him off the ship. I was going to to. But I left him. I left him so I could come back for him when it was all said and done. Just so things could go back to normal.

Turns out the bounty hunter that's been after us this whole time? It was Mick. It's always been Mick. The Time Masters found him. Trained him, tortured him, brainwashed him. Who the hell knows but he's different. He's colder and he caught me. Wanted to take me back in time. Watch him kill Lisa over and over and over again. So when he left me alone chained up I did what I had to do. Froze my hand, got out.

Now we've got him locked up on the ship but it's not him Barry. It's no Mick. He's different. And it's because I left him behind. I should have killed him. I had the chance and I should have killed him.

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len.

portential
2016-04-01 09:09 pm UTC (link)

That's something.

Okay. That is...yeah.

Look. I barely know Mick. Pretty much all I know about him is from fighting him. But he's your friend and he's been your friend for a long time. And that means something. He means something to you and to Lisa. No matter what else, you have to hold on to that.

I can't pretend I understand this. But I know you did the right thing, not killing him. You never should have been put in a position of feeling like you had to. If they locked him up in the ship once they realized he was this bounty hunter, they could have locked him up before, to let him cool down. It sounds like Rip was looking for the easy way out and made you feel like you didn't have another choice.

But you made the right choice, doing the right thing and saving your team. I know it had to be hard, but it was the right thing to do. You never meant to lose Mick. You said it yourself, you were going to go back for him. You just have to make him understand that. He's been hurt and he's been changed by the Time Masters, who sound like assholes by the way, and he probably doesn't believe that he can be better right now. But I have a lot of experience believing in people who don't believe in themselves. And you just have to keep believing and not give up.

You've been his friend as long as he's been yours. You can get through to him. If anyone can, it's you. And I know this has to be hard for you. But you'll get through this. I know you will. And I'll be here for you, no matter what. And so will Sara and Ray. You aren't alone in this. You'll get through to Mick. You'll save him. You just have to believe in yourself and in him. You have to believe that it's worth it.

And I know it might be hard, but maybe you should watch your show. See what made Mick turn on your team. Maybe if you understand why, you can figure out how to help him.

But maybe, right now, you need to take the same advice you gave me. Set it aside, just for a little bit, and focus on yourself. From the sound of it, you went through hell. And you're allowed to take the time you need to recover. Just let me know what you need, okay?

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-02 02:25 am UTC (link)

How do you do it?

How do you wake up every single day and have that kind of hope and faith in people after everything you've been through? At least when I was a criminal I knew who I could trust. It was black and white. It was easier than this.

~~I don't deserve~~
~~I can't ever be like~~

At least if Lisa were here I could see her. Know she's alright. I know Mick can't get to her but I saw it in his eyes, Barry. He was ready. He wanted to do it. More than anything else he wanted to hurt me and he knew that was the way. I put her in that position.

I'm not.. I'm not good at this Barry. Believing in people. Making a difference. I thought we were making progress, but it's like I'm back at square one. Further back than that.

I just.. I want to see you. ~~That sounds so pathetic~~. If Mick knew, I know he'd be after you too.

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len.

portential
2016-04-02 02:40 am UTC (link)

I just do. It's not like there's a trick to it. I believe there's good in people, because what's the alternative? I have to believe that people can be good...can be better. And sometimes it hurts. When I found out that Wells, the man who had mentored me and helped me and been my friend, was the man who killed my mother, I didn't even want to get out of bed. I hated him. And I hated myself for being fooled by him. I was so angry. I'm still angry sometimes. But I realized, eventually, about the time I met the other Wells, that I had been giving him too much power. So I forgave him. And I didn't do that for him. I did it for me. Because holding on to that kind of anger and hate...it's like a poison.

Maybe it was easier, not trusting people. But was it really worth it? You have people now. People who will have your back. And maybe you get hurt sometimes. But you have friends who will help you through that. You have a team. You have me. And you'll get Mick back.

Lisa will be fine. She's strong and she's smart and she can handle herself. I know, because you're the one who taught her all of that. And you didn't put her in that position. The Time Masters did. Vandal Savage did. And maybe Rip Hunter did by bringing this whole mess to you guys and playing with time without considering the consequences. You can't blame yourself for the things other people did. All you did was try to save your friend. And that is good.

Nobody's good at it. I'm not good at it. I have to work at it every day, just like you. And I know this is hard and I know you're wondering what the point of it all is. But you don't need to give up. Your team is here. I'm here. I'll help you through this. Even if you don't believe in yourself, I do. And nothing could possibly change that.

Hey. I'm right here. You can see me any time you want. And I want to see you. I know you said you got medical attention, but I worry. And if Mick came after me, I'd stop him. Or you would. And then we'd help him. He's not going to scare me off. I care about you. And you're stuck with me.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-02 05:23 am UTC (link)

You know I don't do forgiveness very well. Some poison you have to get rid of. But Mick isn't my father.. He hated that son of a bitch too. But even if I think I can let it go, who's to say he's going to forgive me?

I want to believe in something other then my failures but I'm just not there. Not yet. But if anybody should be holding out hope for that stupid asshole I guess it should be me. I got him into this. It should be me getting him out. He's just so angry right now.

For the record? I still think you're crazy. Believing in me. Trusting me. Giving a damn about me after all I did to you. But.. Fuck it, kid. I'm glad you do. I don't deserve it. But I'll take it.

I don't need anymore medical attention. The hand works. I'll show you. It's softer than the other one. That part I'm getting used to. And I guess a super hero should be expected to take care of himself. But I'm a protective son of a bitch when it comes to people that are important to me. Which includes you. Imagine that. For once I didn't see that one coming.

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len.

portential
2016-04-02 05:40 am UTC (link)

I know you don't. But this time it's worth it. And he will. Because you've been there for him just as long as he's been there for you. And that means something. He just needs to remember that.

You don't have to be there yet. There's no time limit on that. Just be patient with him. It's going to take time. Some assholes are just really stubborn when it comes to denying that they're worth saving. Don't give up on him. He needs you.

For the record, I don't care. I'm still going to believe in you and trust you and care about you. Side note - we've had way too much sex for you to still be calling me kid, unless you have some very weird kinks that we're going to need to discuss. As to what you deserve, I think you deserve way more than you think you do.

I hate that it happened, because I can only imagine how much it hurt. And I get being protective. You don't think I want to protect you from him? Because I do. I'm still not entirely sure how this happened, me and you, but you're important to me too. So come home and I'll make dinner. You deserve to have someone look after you for a change.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-02 06:13 am UTC (link)

I'll try, Barry. No promises I don't know if I can keep. But I'll try.

Nice to know you're just as stubborn as me, then. And really? That's where your brain goes with 'kid'? And I thought my mind was in the gutter. It's a force of habit, but I'll work on it. Which isn't to say we shouldn't table our kinks discussion for later. But maybe after I've processed all of this latest bull shit.

You've been hit by the gun. You have some idea. Let's just say I'm not planning any repeat experiences for me. Or for you. Not the way it used to be. Not unless you start letting it out just how sentimental I apparently get around you. I'll never hear the end of it.

Dinner sounds nice. The rest of it sounds nicer.

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len.

portential
2016-04-02 06:19 am UTC (link)

All anyone can do is try.

Figured you already knew I was stubborn. And I'm a healthy 27 year old who's been having very regular sex lately. Of course my mind is in the gutter. And we can save the kink negotiation for later.

I have, but I was wearing the suit, which helped. Plus, I heal. Still hurts, but I can take more of a hit than you. You're lucky you didn't kill yourself. But I promise not to ruin your reputation. Besides, I kind of like keeping this side of you to myself.

Well, it'll all be here when you get here.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-02 08:19 pm UTC (link)

Yes, but before you were just a stubborn thorn in my side. The context has shifted. Now you're just a healthy 27 year old occasional pain in my ass. I'd apologize for being a potentially bad influence but I'm really not sorry.

No luck. Just skill. I know what my gun is capable of and it did what I needed it to do. You might say I know it like the back of my hand. The old one, anyway. And keep it all you want. As a general rule I still don't like people. But even I know when to make some exceptions.

You're my regular June Cleaver, Barry. I'll be there soon.

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len.

portential
2016-04-02 08:25 pm UTC (link)

Pain in your ass, huh? I guess I'll just have to be more gentle next time. Though I don't exactly remember you complaining. And you have nothing to apologize for.

Well, except for that pun. That has to be, hands down, the worst pun you've come up with this week. You're lucky I like your terrible sense of humor. And have I mentioned how much I appreciate being an exception?

That's me. A regular housewife in the making.

Hey...not to ruin the mood, but...I've been thinking, about what your team is doing. Do you go to the past a lot, trying to take down Vandal Savage?

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-02 08:48 pm UTC (link)

Don't you dare, Scarlet. Still no complaints. Some of your friends might think differently if they ever show up. Something to keep in mind.

Now you're just challenging me to be punny. And you're lucky you just so happen to be exceptional.

I thought we were tabling the kink negotiation for later?

Before I left, Hunter said we were going into the future again. But it's been three times to the past. 1975, The Soviet Union in the 80's, and then 1958. Why?

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len.

portential
2016-04-02 09:22 pm UTC (link)

Don't worry. Wasn't actually planning on it. I definitely remember you enjoying it. And my friends will have to accept that things have changed. Because I'm not giving this up just because they have issues.

Exceptional, huh? Well, I bet you would have been fine even if Rip couldn't repair the damage. After all, you've always been fantastic at sleight of hand.

Well, we don't have to.

Okay...maybe it's not my place to judge how you guys are doing this. But what do you think is going to happen if you kill Savage in the past? I mean...you're basically undoing all of Kendra's past lives. She'd be a completely different person, if she even kept reincarnating with Savage gone. Not to mention, you'd probably be drastically altering the timeline by removing him before the time you're from. The paradox alone would be a mess.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-02 09:39 pm UTC (link)

I enjoy a lot when it comes to our extracurricular activities, Barry. Lucky for you, you only need my sister's approval. Mick's obviously not in he picture anymore.

You're a quick study with the puns, Red. But all things considered, the Captain lending me a hand was in my best interest.

Business before pleasure, Barry.

I think Hunter sees it as the ends justifying the means. But you're not wrong. Problem is our Captain likes to pick and choose which consequences are worth risking. I'm assuming if we off him over a hundred years in the future our chances of screwing something else up are less?

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len.

portential
2016-04-02 09:47 pm UTC (link)

I'm glad. So do I, obviously. And one day, Mick will be back in the picture. Do you think Lisa will mind this?

What can I say. I've always been a fast learner. I'm definitely glad he could help. I'd hate to think you came out of the experience empty handed.

Fine, fine. We'll save it for later. Any preferences for dinner?

The way I see it, the closer you keep things to the time he took over, the less chance you have of disastrous consequences. Time doesn't like to be messed with, Len. And it tends to mess back. For all you know, removing Savage too early could pave the way for someone far worse.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-02 10:05 pm UTC (link)

I think it might still surprise her but she's never been one to judge my choices. I'll have to field some robbing the cradle jokes and the like. She can be merciless. And expect some kind of shovel talk.

Fortunately I made a speedy recovery.

Surprise me. A few adult beverages wouldn't go unappreciated either.

You realize that means ignoring whatever atrocities he might have committed up to that point, right? I'm not saying your wrong, and I'm not one to did too deeply into moral issues, but I can see why choosing a cut off isn't as easy as we'd like it to be. But even my stunted high school education aught me history has never done very well with power vacuums.

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len.

portential
2016-04-03 12:35 am UTC (link)

Robbing the cradle? You're not that much older than me. And I will happily listen to whatever shovel talk she wants to give me. You deserve to have someone looking out for you. Also, Sara already gave me a shovel talk. Those are way scarier coming from terrifying assassins who can probably murder you seventy different ways with their pinky.

I'm very grateful for that. Still, I'd like to see firsthand that you're okay.

I can make that happen.

It's a hard choice to make. But at the very least, you can avoid undoing your own timeline. I'm not saying don't fight him. You can certainly weaken him in the past. But would you want to erase Kendra from existence just to stop him? Or create a threat that's even worse?

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-03 02:13 am UTC (link)

We didn't break the twenty year gap. Congrats to us. Sara's been handing out the shovel talks? I'd send her some flowers but I feel like something pointy and dangerous is more appropriate. Or a drink. Never a dull moment with this team. But it's still not getting you out of whatever Lisa has ready if she shows up again. I'm actually a little surprised I haven't heard any yet.

I have to hand it to you, Barry. You're giving me a run for my money on these puns.

Just need a little something to take the edge off.

That's harder than you'd think. But I think we've all learned how potentially dangerous it can be. Here's hoping that the next mission puts a nail in his coffin for once. Several, preferably. But, please. If our dear Captain ever shows up I hope you'll enlighten him. If you're really that curious about the risks, we can watch the show.

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len.

portential
2016-04-03 06:43 am UTC (link)

You're what...ten years older than me? Twelve? Yeah. Something about killing me slowly and painfully and a bunch of Arabic words that I didn't understand but sounded terrifying. She's really scary. And I've fought supervillains.

You're really going full speed with these puns. Real quick witted. But maybe you should cool off. This is really getting out of hand.

You don't have to explain yourself to me.

I know it's hard. Time travel is beyond complicated and it's not something people should mess with. Every time I've dealt with it, it's been a complete mess. The only reason you even found out my identity was because I accidentally traveled back in time and had no idea what I was doing. And then...you know...the whole singularity and Eddie and Ronnie dying thing happened the other time. We're not meant to mess with time. And I'm so proud of the good you're doing, but I'm also terrified something horrible is going to happen to you or the others. Especially you. I mean...Carter already died. I have about forty things I want to yell at Rip Hunter about and that is definitely on the list.

We don't have to watch it. Not if you don't want to. I don't want to invade your privacy.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-03 07:05 am UTC (link)

Mmm. Try eighteen or nineteen. Sounds about right, though. I always work best with potentially homicidal company.

Don't think I can handle it? Can't keep a cool head?

Everything has consequences. Some are good, some are bad. But think about it, Red. If I didn't know your identity, where would we have ended up? Probably not like this. I might still be sitting in prison. My father would still be alive. Lisa might be dead. You win some, you lose some. That's just the way it is. I don't think you're wrong. But I wouldn't be wasting my time with this if I didn't think it could work, either. We all take risks, Barry. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But if you think that the people who were lost and the damage that was done outweighs the good you can do, or still do, I think a lot of people would disagree with you. Carter did die. I lost Mick. I might not get him back. But you said it before. I can't give up.

It's not about wanting. It's something I should do if I want insight. Especially if Mick actually shows up here. And I'm not expecting it to be comfortable. So I wouldn't mind the company.

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len.

portential
2016-04-03 04:34 pm UTC (link)

Oh. Well, you look good for your age. Really good. And I had noticed that about you. You love to surround yourself with terrifying people.

Oh no. You're not the kind to lose your cool. And I think I can keep up. You must have a lot of time on your hands to come up with all of these.

I'm not saying that I regret the way things went. But I still massively changed things the first time I went back and, even though it ended up better it could have ended up so much worse. There's no way of knowing. My whole life is the way it is because a madman who could travel through time decided to try to ruin my life. Time travel always has major consequences. I'm not saying not to do this. I'm saying be smart about it. You can stop him without destroying yourselves in the process. You don't have to give up. You just have to remember that your lives matter in this too. Don't throw them away. You are the smartest person I know. You can do this without being reckless.

I'll watch it with you, if you want me to. I don't want you dealing with that alone.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-03 06:56 pm UTC (link)

I'm like wine. Better with age. Terrifying people throw the best parties.

I've created a monster. You might want to chill out for a little while, Barry. I'd hate to see you freeze up under the pressure. The's puns are moving fast.

The smartest person you know? That's a tall order coming from you. But I'll do what I can. We might not even remember this conversation if we're sent back again but I can promise, self preservation is something that I'm very good at. Most of the time. The team is flawed. They're getting smarter. But I'd be lying if I said I was looking forward to going back. Maybe I'll be a legend. Maybe I'll wind up dead. For once I'd rather focus a little more on the present.

It's not all horrible. I could handle it alone but why bother when I don't have to?

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len.

portential
2016-04-03 08:31 pm UTC (link)

You definitely are. I've only been to one party thrown by a terrifying person, and that one was mostly weird.

Oh come on, Len. Don't give me the cold shoulder.

Absolutely. I work with geniuses, but they don't always have common sense. You're smart on more than one level. We don't know what will happen back home. You could die facing Savage. I could die facing Zoom. Or we could both succeed and make the world better. But for now, at least, we have this. And that's something.

Well, I'll watch it with you. I'm not really at a point of wanting to watch my own life, but if I decide to, you can return the favor.

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Barry.

chillout
2016-04-03 09:32 pm UTC (link)

As long as it's not a deal breaker. The lamb in the den of wolves is usually the odd one out. I'm not surprised.

Don't be so quick to assume. I just thought you might want to put the puns on ice for a little while. Wouldn't want you running out of ideas.

It says a lot about our lives that dinosaurs and alternate dimensions are the preferable alternative. It's not exactly saving the world or a high dollar heist but I'm not complaining. Just don't go trying to domesticate me too much, Scarlet.

I always knew I'd manage to talk you into some poor life decisions.

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