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Leonard Snart - Captain Cold (chillout) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2016-03-31 22:21:00

Entry tags:

barry allen / the flash, felicity smoak, leonard snart / captain cold, ray palmer / the atom, sara lance / white canary

And here I thought I'd imagined my trip to Jurassic Park.

For what it's worth, this coming and going thing? Really not working out for me.

The bars are still here, right?

Legends of Tomorrow Crew

Were the rest of you sent back on our merry adventures or am I the lucky one this round?

barry.

I really hope you're still here, Red.

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portential
2016-04-01 04:05 am UTC (link)

~~Oh thank god~~ Hey.

I take it you went home?

len.

Still here.

What happened? Are you all right?

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	chillout 2016-04-01 04:12 am UTC (link)
	Not exactly 'home'. The eighties, the future, quick stop in 1958. barry. By some definition of 'all right'. Lost a hand, got it back. That was a plus. Do you remember when you told me I was right about not trusting people? Maybe I really was right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

portential
2016-04-01 04:43 am UTC (link)

Sounds like you've been busy.

len.

You what? How did you lose a hand? Do you need a doctor?

Hey. What happened? Talk to me.

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-01 05:03 am UTC (link)

It's fine. The ship can doctor up new limbs, apparently.

~~I don't~~

It's Mick. Thirty years Barry. I've known him since we were kids. We've always run hot and cold but I never thought he'd go so far of the rails.

We went to 2046. It was mess, and that's being kind. Star City. Criminals paradise. Mick loved it. Loves the chaos, you know? The world on fire. That idiot wanted to stay and I should have let him but I didn't. Couldn't. I don't leave people behind. But he didn't like that.

I thought he just needed to cool off. That's usually all it is. Typical Mick. Except instead he decides he'd rather side with the space pirates we were mixed up with and I had to make a choice. So I chose the team. I chose the team because it was the right thing to do and it only got worse from there. I knew if we kept him on the ship he'd only get worse and if we took him home he'd hurt Lisa, or anyone else. He can't control his impulses when he's that angry.

I should have killed him Barry. I could have. Had him right there but I didn't have the guts. Even dragged him off the ship. I was going to to. But I left him. I left him so I could come back for him when it was all said and done. Just so things could go back to normal.

Turns out the bounty hunter that's been after us this whole time? It was Mick. It's always been Mick. The Time Masters found him. Trained him, tortured him, brainwashed him. Who the hell knows but he's different. He's colder and he caught me. Wanted to take me back in time. Watch him kill Lisa over and over and over again. So when he left me alone chained up I did what I had to do. Froze my hand, got out.

Now we've got him locked up on the ship but it's not him Barry. It's no Mick. He's different. And it's because I left him behind. I should have killed him. I had the chance and I should have killed him.

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len.

portential
2016-04-01 09:09 pm UTC (link)

That's something.

Okay. That is...yeah.

Look. I barely know Mick. Pretty much all I know about him is from fighting him. But he's your friend and he's been your friend for a long time. And that means something. He means something to you and to Lisa. No matter what else, you have to hold on to that.

I can't pretend I understand this. But I know you did the right thing, not killing him. You never should have been put in a position of feeling like you had to. If they locked him up in the ship once they realized he was this bounty hunter, they could have locked him up before, to let him cool down. It sounds like Rip was looking for the easy way out and made you feel like you didn't have another choice.

But you made the right choice, doing the right thing and saving your team. I know it had to be hard, but it was the right thing to do. You never meant to lose Mick. You said it yourself, you were going to go back for him. You just have to make him understand that. He's been hurt and he's been changed by the Time Masters, who sound like assholes by the way, and he probably doesn't believe that he can be better right now. But I have a lot of experience believing in people who don't believe in themselves. And you just have to keep believing and not give up.

You've been his friend as long as he's been yours. You can get through to him. If anyone can, it's you. And I know this has to be hard for you. But you'll get through this. I know you will. And I'll be here for you, no matter what. And so will Sara and Ray. You aren't alone in this. You'll get through to Mick. You'll save him. You just have to believe in yourself and in him. You have to believe that it's worth it.

And I know it might be hard, but maybe you should watch your show. See what made Mick turn on your team. Maybe if you understand why, you can figure out how to help him.

But maybe, right now, you need to take the same advice you gave me. Set it aside, just for a little bit, and focus on yourself. From the sound of it, you went through hell. And you're allowed to take the time you need to recover. Just let me know what you need, okay?

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barry.

chillout
2016-04-02 02:25 am UTC (link)

How do you do it?

How do you wake up every single day and have that kind of hope and faith in people after everything you've been through? At least when I was a criminal I knew who I could trust. It was black and white. It was easier than this.

~~I don't deserve~~
~~I can't ever be like~~

At least if Lisa were here I could see her. Know she's alright. I know Mick can't get to her but I saw it in his eyes, Barry. He was ready. He wanted to do it. More than anything else he wanted to hurt me and he knew that was the way. I put her in that position.

I'm not.. I'm not good at this Barry. Believing in people. Making a difference. I thought we were making progress, but it's like I'm back at square one. Further back than that.

I just.. I want to see you. ~~That sounds so pathetic~~. If Mick knew, I know he'd be after you too.

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len.

portential
2016-04-02 02:40 am UTC (link)

I just do. It's not like there's a trick to it. I believe there's good in people, because what's the alternative? I have to believe that people can be good...can be better. And sometimes it hurts. When I found out that Wells, the man who had mentored me and helped me and been my friend, was the man who killed my mother, I didn't even want to get out of bed. I hated him. And I hated myself for being fooled by him. I was so angry. I'm still angry sometimes. But I realized, eventually, about the time I met the other Wells, that I had been giving him too much power. So I forgave him. And I didn't do that for him. I did it for me. Because holding on to that kind of anger and hate...it's like a poison.

Maybe it was easier, not trusting people. But was it really worth it? You have people now. People who will have your back. And maybe you get hurt sometimes. But you have friends who will help you through that. You have a team. You have me. And you'll get Mick back.

Lisa will be fine. She's strong and she's smart and she can handle herself. I know, because you're the one who taught her all of that. And you didn't put her in that position. The Time Masters did. Vandal Savage did. And maybe Rip Hunter did by bringing this whole mess to you guys and playing with time without considering the consequences. You can't blame yourself for the things other people did. All you did was try to save your friend. And that is good.

Nobody's good at it. I'm not good at it. I have to work at it every day, just like you. And I know this is hard and I know you're wondering what the point of it all is. But you don't need to give up. Your team is here. I'm here. I'll help you through this. Even if you don't believe in yourself, I do. And nothing could possibly change that.

Hey. I'm right here. You can see me any time you want. And I want to see you. I know you said you got medical attention, but I worry. And if Mick came after me, I'd stop him. Or you would. And then we'd help him. He's not going to scare me off. I care about you. And you're stuck with me.

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	LoT crew wantstomatter 2016-04-01 05:43 pm UTC (link)
	I've been here. Haven't gone 'home' since the whole Gulag thing. Did I miss something? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	LoT crew chillout 2016-04-01 06:18 pm UTC (link)
	The Captain would probably tell me I shouldn't tell you about your future. But I don't actually give a damn. Just a few, small things. A trip to the future, then the 50's. You're going to be stuck there for a while. Mick turning on all of us. I was supposed to kill him. Didn't. Now it turns out he's been Boba Fett all along. It's been a real blast Raymond. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	LoT crew wantstomatter 2016-04-01 07:40 pm UTC (link)
	How do you get stuck in the 50's when your ride's a time machine? Couldn't the Waverider just go back to that point so being 'stuck' would be an non-issue? The guy that's been following us around and trying to kill us? That was Mick? ~~But he just pulled me out of~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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chillout
2016-04-01 09:37 pm UTC (link)

We didn't have an 'incase of hijacking bounty hunter' plan. You, Sara and Kendra didn't make it on in time. Not really sure of the details since I was busy being kidnapped but they picked you back up a few years late. Have fun with that, I guess.

In the flesh. I maybe didn't let him stay in the criminal's paradise that is 2046. We had a fight. He tried to take all of us out. I should have put him down when I had the chance and I didn't. Now we have a psycho ex teammate in the brig. It just gets better and better.

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	legends. thewhitecanary 2016-04-01 09:11 pm UTC (link)
	Lucky you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	agreatfire 2016-04-01 06:04 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad you're back. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	chillout 2016-04-01 06:20 pm UTC (link)
	All things considered? I'd rather be here than there right now. The dinosaurs have less drama. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agreatfire 2016-04-01 06:27 pm UTC (link)
	I agree. There is no mad man with an army of brainless thugs trying to destroy this city. So points to here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chillout 2016-04-01 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	Been there. Done that. Hated it. Definitely some more points to here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agreatfire 2016-04-01 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry for that by the way. Apparently it was a Star City villain who brought Savage back after we killed him. I may have looked that up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chillout 2016-04-01 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	Villains make their own choices. Take it from someone who knows. So the apology isn't really on you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agreatfire 2016-04-01 09:17 pm UTC (link)
	We should have killed him when we had the chance. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	legends. thewhitecanary 2016-04-01 09:11 pm UTC (link)
	Not just you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	legends. chillout 2016-04-01 09:40 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know about you, but I could use a drink or five. It's times like these Im reminded why I liked being the villain instead of whatever the hell we're supposed to be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	legends. thewhitecanary 2016-04-01 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know if I trust myself around people right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	legends. chillout 2016-04-02 02:29 am UTC (link)
	Oh come on, Lance. Since when have either of us shied away from danger? If you start feeling assassin-y don't worry. I've got a very happy trigger finger right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	legends. thewhitecanary 2016-04-02 02:42 am UTC (link)
	Not tonight, honey. I have a headache. Go do whatever it is you do with your jailbait superhero piece of ass. I have a date with a hot blonde and some ice cream. We'll get drinks later, okay? I just really don't want anything that's going to mess with my inhibitions. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	legends. chillout 2016-04-02 05:26 am UTC (link)
	Buzzkill. But fair. His ass does look good in that red suit. But like they say, blonde's have more fun. I see how it is. I'm holding you to that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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