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Tweak says, "you make my heart go boom boom"

nιc ѕιlver (tanised) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2017-05-01 00:11:00

Entry tags:

alex reagan, hannah washington, mike munroe, nic silver, sterling archer

voice post.
( nic doesn't realize he's posting. he thinks he's just talking into his voice recorder )

This is different. It's not the cabin...or the breach...or Eld Fen. Tanis. Whatever we're calling it this week.

I've been there enough times by now to know. It doesn't feel the same. There's not that sensation of being stretched thin and too awake but at the same time impossibly tired. That's not a good description of it. I'm not sure I have a good description of it. But then again, both times I've been there it was...not good.

( a snort of amusement )

Not good. Losing your car keys is not good. The cabin is...yeah. I don't have words for that. I think the sessions with my therapist point to a lot more than not good. I think the hardest part is that it just...isn't all there. In my head. I know I was there. I remember it. I just don't remember all of it.

My socks held up great though, even with all the running and nearly dying and breaking my ankle. Bombas socks seriously are great for running, whether it's a morning jog or fleeing a magical death cabin in the woods.

( a slight, awkward pause )

But this isn't the cabin. Tanis. Or I hope it isn't.

I think I would remember all the dinosaurs.

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	tanised 2017-05-01 05:14 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. They have cherry pie. And a damn fine cup of coffee. Still not sleeping? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	areagan 2017-05-01 05:23 am UTC (link)
	I do love a good cup of Joe. Well, I may have just ended the world. My best friend keeps getting himself into trouble. I may be haunted by demons. It's hard to sleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tanised 2017-05-01 05:30 am UTC (link)
	Come on, Alex. You don't really think the Mysterium is real, do you? And I'm aware of how hypocritical that is, what with everything. But...I mean...a musical composition that brings about the end of the world? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	areagan 2017-05-01 05:34 am UTC (link)
	Don't you get all Strand on me, Nicodemus. I don't know what I think anymore. Something is going on and it makes just about as much sense as anything else in my life. A musical composition that brings about the end of the world sounds pretty tame compared to your death cabin. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

tanised
2017-05-02 01:59 am UTC (link)

Don't Nicodemus me, Alexandra. I'm just saying, we have no empirical proof that the Mysterium actually works. People think it works, sure, but it didn't seem to do anything. I'm not saying there isn't something very weird going on back home with...everything, but I don't think you've ended the world. And hey, if you have, you're my best friend. I'm not judging.

As for my death cabin, at least we have proof that exists. You've seen it. The rest...the whole navigator thing and King Wurm and Eld Fen...I don't know. I mean...I saw that thing, but I could have been hallucinating.

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	areagan 2017-05-02 02:39 am UTC (link)
	We have empirical proof that something is going on. It's either that or I am just losing my mind. And you believed in Tanis before the cabin. Why is it so hard for you to believe anything else (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

tanised
2017-05-02 03:00 am UTC (link)

I said something is going on. I just don't think it's the end of the world. I think people believe that, and that it's influencing groups like that Order of the Cenophus. You're not losing your mind. I would never think that.

I believed that Tanis was something. I wasn't even sure it was real. I thought people were...I don't know...becoming obsessed with a myth. And it's hard because I don't want to believe any more crap. I wish I'd never dug into this. What happened to Sam and Morgan was my fault, Alex. Whatever's happened to Geoff, that's my fault. People are dying and I just want it to stop.

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	areagan 2017-05-05 04:04 am UTC (link)
	I think I'm going to like Dinosaur City. No death cults of any kind. ~~You might not think it but I do.~~ What happened to Sam and Morgan, whatever is happening to Geoff is not your fault. Sam and Morgan were involved in all of it before you were. They are all adults. They knew the dangers and they all got involved anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tanised 2017-05-09 08:24 pm UTC (link)
	That we know of. Give it time. Between the two of us, we'll find one. I left Sam and Morgan in the cabin. And I'm the one who got Geoff into this. Pretty sure that's the definition of my fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	areagan 2017-05-09 08:44 pm UTC (link)
	Always the voice of optimism. No. You didn't leave them there. You were rescued from the cabin. Geoff is a grown man, Nic. He could have stopped helping at anytime. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	ihadsomething 2017-05-02 02:01 am UTC (link)
	And how many cups of coffee have you had in your life? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tanised 2017-05-02 02:14 am UTC (link)
	I've had I can't tell you how many cups of coffee in my life and this is one of the best. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ihadsomething 2017-05-02 02:22 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. You can't imagine how many times I throw things like that out and nothing. Just no response whatsoever. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tanised 2017-05-02 02:42 am UTC (link)
	I love a good pop culture reference. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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