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Steve Rogers is so smol. (tinysteve) wrote in junkedic,
@ 2025-03-08 17:31:00

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! network post, dc (film/tv): monty, marvel (film/tv): bucky barnes (au), marvel (film/tv): steve rogers (au), stranger things: steve harrington, ✷ chapter 02 (all the pretty monsties)

That movie last night was pretty neat. Thanks again, other-Steve, for putting that all together.

Now that things feel a little less impossible, I figured I can try this again.

Hey Internet(? Right?), my name's Steve Rogers. Not the big, impressive one people seem to think, but still me. I figured it was about time I tried pulling my weight around here, so help me out: who needs an extra set of hands for a project? I'd prefer something more like 'kitchen duty' or 'record keeping', but I'll try anything twice.

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	tinysteve 2025-03-09 03:48 am UTC (link)
	Do I want to know what 'painting your nails' means? My money is on 'hidden backstage in the theatre'. Trust me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	un_familiar 2025-03-09 04:16 am UTC (link)
	That one's harder to describe, it's more of a vibe. I totally believe it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tinysteve 2025-03-09 04:19 am UTC (link)
	I don't think I am ready for 'a vibe' over these messages. I say we start the search there. Then, if we find something, the rest of it can be properly caffeinated. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	un_familiar 2025-03-09 04:20 am UTC (link)
	We'll take it slow. Perfect! That's where we'll begin rummaging. [Steve] Just give me about ten hours to lay on the Green hoping a guy talks to me and then I'll be good to go. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tinysteve 2025-03-09 04:23 am UTC (link)
	Boy, I've heard that one before. Great. Just shout when you're ready. [Monty] Ten hours seems like either way too much time to wait, or not enough to find you a whole new guy. I'm guessing this is one guy in particular? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Steve un_familiar 2025-03-09 04:25 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, I don't know if it's too much or not enough time either. Oh, for sure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve tinysteve 2025-03-09 04:28 am UTC (link)
	Well, if you've picked a guy I'm leaning towards too much time. You got legs, you can always go find him to talk if you want. So: dish. Who's the guy? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve un_familiar 2025-03-09 04:31 am UTC (link)
	There's complications. Wally. The very straight ghost. You probably can't see him but trust me when I say that he is absolutely gorgeous. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve tinysteve 2025-03-09 04:35 am UTC (link)
	There's always complications. You got this thing, and those little pictures. What's stopping you from talking to him? I don't think I've seen a Wally, no. [...] Damn, wait, the ghost think wasn't a joke? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve un_familiar 2025-03-09 04:39 am UTC (link)
	I do talk to him, but I can only see him out on the Green. So I live there. But I only let myself call him over once a day so I don't bug him. Not a joke! Definitely a real ghost. So are Edwin and Charles, for the record, but you can probably see them. Different worlds, different rules. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve tinysteve 2025-03-09 04:44 am UTC (link)
	I think you'd be able to tell if you were bugging the guy? I'm guessing he could just not come over. Unless that's some weird ghost thing I don't know? Charles was the one I met. That I remember. And wait, so it's not just "ghosts", there are different levels of ghost? That's crazy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Monty/Steve un_familiar 2025-03-09 04:46 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, he can just not come over. That's why I hang around there so much, in case he, you know. Wants to. Charles is great. Yeah, different levels or maybe types. It's a lot! There's so many kinds of people here. And non-people! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve tinysteve 2025-03-09 04:49 am UTC (link)
	Have you tried maybe asking him? Cause, look-- I hear what you're saying about him being straight, but maybe that means it's a good idea just to cross the idea off your list, you know? I probably owe the guy an apology, I was maybe kind of rude to him when I got here. Cause of the whole I didn't know ghosts were real thing. Can I ask what you mean by non-people? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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un_familiar
2025-03-09 04:56 am UTC (link)

I couldn't do that, I don't want things to be weird. Or for me to do this thing that I do where... I've only been a person for a couple of months, so I'm not good at being chill or taking things slow or being patient. If I've known someone for two weeks that's like, a quarter of my life. And I get intense and I obsess. And I think things mean more than they do, just because they mean a lot to me.

And I just don't want him to feel burdened by it, I guess. He has enough to worry about.

I'm sure he didn't mind at all, he's a good guy. He understands things like that. And I just mean, we've got ghosts and I think Bellatra is an elf and Spock is an alien. And other things too.

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tinysteve
2025-03-09 05:01 am UTC (link)

I mean I've been a person for almost 27 years and I still don't really know how to take things slow or be patient? I got pretty good at learning how to [...] keep some of it inside, I guess, but a lot of that came from some bad people being real jerks about a lot of things. And those jerks just kind of made me want to.. be less patient. Because why be less of yourself just to make somebody else comfortable, you know?

I think your first couple loves are always going to be like that. And I don't know if it actually goes away, or if you just find new ones to kind of paint over the old one. But if it means a lot to you, you should let it mean a lot to you. Being new doesn't automatically make it too much, I don't think?

Oh, okay. But they're like... people, just not like. Human.

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un_familiar
2025-03-09 05:06 am UTC (link)

I have been an absolute disaster about guys so far and I'm sick it being a mess. And I can't ruin this if I don't ever try to change it. I can just stay on the Green and be happy to be there.

Steve? I'm sorry about the bad people. And the jerks. I'm glad you're not less of yourself. Yourself is pretty great from what I've seen.

Yeah, sorry, not human but people.

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Monty/Steve

tinysteve
2025-03-09 05:12 am UTC (link)

If my experience is anything to go by, the being a mess part doesn't really stop. I'm sorry you think you would ruin something by talking to him. You're right. There's no harm in just hanging around him and trying to be his friend, as long as it doesn't hurt you, either.

Hey, no, it's okay. I got good at taking care of myself. And Buck was usually there when I couldn't. But- thanks. You're pretty wonderful too, Monty.

I just wanted to make sure I got the words right, that's all. Not really a great experience with people trying to say others aren't people, but then from the books I've been finding a lot of words I used to think were okay aren't now, or they are again, and even though I worked at a cheap diner in Brooklyn it don't mean I like the taste of my own foot.

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	Re: Monty/Steve un_familiar 2025-03-09 05:16 am UTC (link)
	I'm okay with me hurting. Still, I'm sorry. And it's not right. But I'm glad you had Bucky. He seems like a good guy. Oh, yeah. I'm not really the best at words either, I'm just a silly little bird brain. I think people here are pretty understanding, so even if you make mistakes it's okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Monty/Steve

tinysteve
2025-03-09 05:23 am UTC (link)

Maybe your friends aren't, though? And maybe he wouldn't want you hurting over him, either.

I'm real glad things seem a little better here. Other-Steve was talking about how people are a lot less worried about the queer thing now, which is great. And Bucky is [...] he's the greatest man I know, yeah. That's how they got him as Captain America.

You don't seem that silly. But thanks, Monty.

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	Monty/Steve un_familiar 2025-03-09 01:10 pm UTC (link)
	Crap. I mean, you're right, but it's either this ache or the stabbing pain of heartbreak later, so... They are! Things are great here about that. I'm pretty sure we outnumber the straights. Bucky being the captain of a whole country does not surprise me at all. Thank you too, Steve. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Monty/Steve

tinysteve
2025-03-09 02:28 pm UTC (link)

And I've got no room to judge or a way to tell you which is better. I just hope you can make all the aching stop soon.

That feels strange, if I'm being honest, but I guess that makes sense. About why people are okay with it.

I think he took it over cause something bad happened to me. His version of me. But it's been hard to talk about, because [...] Things are still weird for us.

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	Monty/Steve un_familiar 2025-03-09 02:32 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks. Me too, mostly. I think there's a lot of reasons but yeah, that's probably a big one. How are they weird? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve tinysteve 2025-03-09 02:37 pm UTC (link)
	Only mostly? Whatever the reason, it's a good thing. I mean, he's lived this whole extra life I know nothing about. He had a wife and kids, which [...] I guess I figured he would eventually, but I never even got to meet them? And I guess I'm just getting used to that. Him having a whole life that didn't include me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve un_familiar 2025-03-09 02:41 pm UTC (link)
	I think part of me likes it. Like a scab you keep picking. A really good thing. Oh. Yeah, I can see how that would be hard to wrap your head around. What were you two like back then, were you really close? It seems like you were, so that must be really hard to feel like you missed so much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Monty/Steve tinysteve 2025-03-09 02:49 pm UTC (link)
	Kind of a 'befter than him not being there at all' thing. I can get that. He's my best friend. We lived together, after my ma died and his apartment got too crowded. And yeah. We were supposed to go off to war together, and everything, and when I got turned away and he left, I kinda I did my version of just hanging out on the green I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)