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Gwen Cooper (coopergwen) wrote in indarkness_logs,
@ 2010-08-22 04:03:00

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2032 08, gwen cooper, jack harkness

RP:Wounded Souls Can Only Find Solace with Another
Characters: Gwen Cooper, Jack Harkness
Time/Date: Night, August 21
Location: His room
Warnings/Rating: PG-13 for now
Summary: Gwen realizes she should not be alone
Status: Private, ongoing

Gwen had grabbed a few days worth of things from her room along with her gun before heading down the hall to Jack's. She knew from experience that the nightmares would come roaring back in a hurry and she had seen the comments flying around, even she has limits and would not join in (no matter how tempting it was to grandly smart off). But after checking on a few of the older teens and seeing that the blonde American woman was being looked after she knocked on Jack's door.

"One miserable and emotionally wounded complete with bloodshot eyes wreck alert." going for a very weak joke but she looked as wrecked as she was feeling. Sure she was in one piece in the physical sense but the heart was a much different story. But she slumped against a wall, her feelings coming back fast and painful since the fighting was done.

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	j_harkness 2010-08-29 07:20 am UTC (link)
	"I know you'll listen... you always do. But you might not want to answer," he murmured. To be honest with himself, Jack wasn't even sure he wanted to ask. But it was something he'd been curious about for a long time now. "Why Owen?" he finally asked. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	coopergwen 2010-08-29 07:27 am UTC (link)
	"Simple version: emotional desperation. Right after the cannibals I was just numb. I was just looking for some understanding and Owen gave me what I needed at the time." Gwen was honest. "And I saw those same signs in Parker when I checked on her." her inner mom hen taking over. She blinked back a few tears as she spoke. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	j_harkness 2010-08-29 07:32 am UTC (link)
	"I don't mean why why..." Jack sighed and looked up at the ceiling. "Meant why him, and not me." He turned his head and looked over at her, frowning when he noticed the tears. Jack shifted a little to get both arms around Gwen and held her protectively. "Sorry... I didn't mean to make you cry, Gwen." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

coopergwen
2010-08-29 07:37 am UTC (link)

"Things are just getting to me Jack, not your fault." Gwen whispered. Her emotions always had a way of getting to her even now. "Today just brought back things I thought were behind me on some level and my mom hen gets triggered because of Violet and Parker to name a few."

But she finally cracked, the tears that had built up since the Dalek invasion starting to fall.

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j_harkness
2010-08-29 07:46 am UTC (link)

Jack nodded in understanding, taking note that she still hadn't answered his question though. But once the tears began to fall, he didn't care anymore. He gently stroked his fingers through her dark hair, holding Gwen close and trying to comfort her.

"I've got you," he whispered softly. "I won't let anything happen to you, Gwen. I'm not going to lose you the same way I lost Ianto. Shhh... I promise. I'm not leaving again."

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coopergwen
2010-08-30 01:33 am UTC (link)

The tears just kept falling, Gwen being very guilty of pushing her emotions back till the worst time possible as well. She finally got out in a pained whisper,"Seeing those creatures just brought things back Jack, plus losing Tosh and Owen."

She would feel like crap the next day but this moment of weakness would help,"Had to push everything back, would not let anyone see me crumble."

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j_harkness
2010-09-02 08:17 pm UTC (link)

"They're not here now," he whispered softly. "Just me... and believe me, I know exactly how you feel."

Jack was quiet as he held Gwen, rocking her gently and stroking her back with light touches to comfort and calm her. "You're not alone now. I'm here now and you know you can be yourself with me. Just Gwen... not always the one trying to hold things together, okay? Trust me... it's not good to keep it all bottled up."

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coopergwen
2010-09-06 05:17 am UTC (link)

The tears were finally beginning to ease, but Gwen knew this was only the start of a painful process to healing. She finally choked through the last of her tears,"Think we've got a lot of things to face."

But for now she curled in close, letting her heart take over for a change. "Had to bottle things up, everything just got to me. But knowing I'm not alone is huge right now."

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	j_harkness 2010-09-06 05:50 am UTC (link)
	"Just promise that you won't bottle it up when you're around me. There's no need for it and you know I'd never hurt you." Jack lightly brushed his lips against her temple and combed his fingers slowly through Gwen's dark hair. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	coopergwen 2010-09-09 05:06 am UTC (link)
	"That I can promise." Gwen knew she could take on that much. "Promise me the same thing?" she whispered,"You are not in this alone either." as her smaller hand slipped into Jack's. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	j_harkness 2010-09-09 05:17 am UTC (link)
	He gently squeezed her hand, then laced his fingers with hers. "It's a promise," Jack said, smiling warmly at her. "When I come from, I made a decision that I thought would be best for everyone. And I was wrong. So let's just say that I won't be making the same mistake twice." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	coopergwen 2010-09-10 03:23 am UTC (link)
	Gwen softly returned the squeeze, the tears having calmed in the process. "This time, no more hiding and I won't push till you're ready to talk." she knew she could offer that much. "But no more running, for either of us." knowing she may not be making much sense at the moment. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	j_harkness 2010-09-11 06:07 am UTC (link)
	He didn't quite understand her comment, but she had piqued his curiosity. "What were you running from?" Jack asked softly. His thumb idly lightly stroked back and forth against the skin of her hand. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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