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Tweak says, "I cry your pardon, gunslinger."

Andrew "Drew" Kirke (aurorme) wrote in impetuousrpg,
@ 2011-06-17 22:08:00

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char: andrew kirke, char: mandy brocklehurst

Who: Mandy and Drew
When: Friday Night
Where: Mandy's Apartment
What: Apologizing
Rating: TBA

Drew had been pacing around his own apartment all day. His thoughts were partially on the conversation he'd had with Mandy over the journals and partly on his conversation with Ali. He was agitated, worried, and feeling just a little bit guilty on top of that. He shouldn't have been such a dick to Mandy. She'd blown up her potions lab, admitted to being hurt, and he'd gone and owled over her Chinese because he was jealous of stupid Roger Davies. It was a shite move on all fronts ... even if it had been the first time he and Geoff had really hung out in weeks. He should have gone over and made sure she was okay. She'd said she wasn't mad at him, but he was pretty sure this was one of those times where saying she wasn't mad meant that she was livid. God. Everything was just so complicated and catching up to him.

He didn't know what to do with Mandy. He cared more about her than he even realized. He'd been doing good with ignoring just how much he liked her, but then he'd asked her to stay and he'd absolutely loved having her fall asleep beside him ... something he never expected to like. Frustrated, he ran a hand through his hair before moving to find his shoes. Before apparating to her Apartment, Drew made a quick stop first. He figured an entire bouquet of roses was more than a little much (not to mention not particularly his style), Drew arrived outside Mandy's door with a single red rose. Merlin, he really had no idea what he was doing. Glancing between the flower in his hand and Mandy's door, he debated what it was he was going to do.

Eventually he did reach out, turning the door handle and pushing the door open. Maybe he should have knocked? Was he allowed to just walk in? Annoyed with himself, he shook his head and stepped inside, closing the door behind him. When had everything changed. He never questioned himself before. "Mandy?"

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mynameismandy
2011-06-18 02:19 am UTC (link)

Mandy had a bruise on her forehead and her hand was still bandaged up from her mishap. She'd received an owl today from her father in regards to her Potion's lab and he'd assured her that it would be rebuilt and that she shouldn't worry about any of it. That had made her worry all the more. He didn't know she knew he was alive and it had taken all of her will power not to reveal what she knew. Mandy knew she wouldn't be safe if she did. She wasn't really all that safe now and that was rather terrifying. Pushing the door open, bag of groceries in hand, she set them on the kitchen counter, bracing herself with her good hand, refusing to cry or panic. She'd nearly passed out yesterday when an overwhelming surge of fear and panic had come over her. Just thinking about it made her heart race and her palms sweaty. She hated feeling out of control and everything was just so beyond her control lately. Hesper jumped up on the counter, purring, rubbing her head against Mandy's arm. Idly stroking the kitten, Mandy began to put her groceries away, the urge to bake upon her. She hadn't brewed anything in twenty-four hours and she could feel herself going through withdraw.

Cooking was very similar to Potions and she found relaxation in it and had planned on baking something rather spectacular this evening. Just to take the edge off. She'd been taking a rather strong calming draught twice a day to help her make it through this newfound stress but it didn't seem to be helping. Feeling sick and tired, she rubbed her forehead, wincing when she hit the bruise. Hesper jumped off the counter, bounding through the tiny flat when the door opened, heading straight for Drew. Mandy followed, her body tensing a little when she heard his voice. She wasn't so sure she could deal with this righ tnow. She was just so worn out. She just didn't understand what it was he wanted from her, exactly. They had never spoken about what it was they were and she would never bring it up. He didn't seem the type to want titles or any of that sort and she didn't think they'd ever amount to anything anyway. How could they?

"Hey," she said, eyes flickering to the rose. She wasn't mad at him. She was just confused. He seemed jealous and she wasn't sure why. Drew looked tired. Worn. Brows knitting together in concern, pain shooting through her forehead she looked at him. "How are you feeling?"

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aurorme
2011-06-18 02:33 am UTC (link)

God. Drew did not understand why this bloody cat liked him so much. He swore the thing knew that Drew was allergic and that's why he insisted on crawling all over him and sleeping on his clothes the moment he had a chance. He couldn't do much about the thing rubbing all over his leg as Mandy came around the corner and he was immediately distracted by the bruise on her face. He felt like the worlds biggest arse all over again. Ignoring the cat, he moved to Mandy, half forgetting about her rose. "Forget about me," he responded, raising a hand to brush the hair out of the way so he could see the bruise. "Are you alright?"

It wasn't too bad. It certainly could have been worse and Drew was relieved that it hadn't been. With a sigh, he let his hand drop. "I'm sorry. I should have been here yesterday." Some job he was doing at protecting her. If he couldn't do that how the bloody hell was he suppose to keep her out of Azkaban. He felt like things were spiraling and he was starting to lose his hold on it all. He didn't even want to give her the rose anymore. It was stupid. What was it suppose to make up for?

He handed it to her awkwardly, none the same. "Is there anything I can do?" he asked, not really knowing what else to say. If he'd been her, he was sure he'd be pissed as all hell.

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mynameismandy
2011-06-18 03:16 am UTC (link)

She let him inspect her face, knowing full well he'd have done it anyway whether she'd wanted him to or not. Still, she was a little grateful when he dropped his hands. She was afraid if he touched her, she'd break. She was holding everything together by a finely strung wire and it wasn't easy. "It's fine," she said, taking the rose and sticking it in a vase, smiling slightly at the gesture. It was nice of him, really. She knew that he was upset over what he'd said but it wasn't like anything could be done about it now and while she was sad that he thought her knickers were... boring, well, she couldn't change that either. Heading back into the kitchen, Mandy put a kettle on, needing some tea and stared at her bag of groceries. With a wave of her wand, she sent them into their various locations as she debated what to cook for dinner.

"It's nothing," she said, using her good hand to put a pot on the stove. "I'm going to make some Shepherds pie. Hungry?" Mandy was going to make it anyway and if he wanted some he was more than welcome to have what he wanted.

Glancing up at him, Mandy gave him a tentative smile. "You okay?"

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aurorme
2011-06-18 03:38 am UTC (link)

Drew just wanted to swear when she turned to walk away from him. It had changed. He'd fucked it all up as per normal. The only difference was that he'd hadn't actually wanted to mess up this time. Geoff had spent all that time worrying about Mandy when it was really Drew he had to worry about. She wasn't yelling at him, but he thought he'd almost prefer that. This distant, hostess thing was so much worse.

Was he okay? No, he wasn't damn well okay. He was losing his bloody mind and every thing in between. "No," he responded, shaking his head. He had no idea what he wanted to say or how he was suppose to say it. All he knew was that as soon as he had opened his mouth, it had all come pouring out in a jumbled mess. "I'm not okay. I'm not okay with this being different. I can't tell whether your mad at me or just don't want me to touch you and I just keep thinking that if I screw this up enough, you'll go running back to Davies. I don't want him to make you smile. I want to. That should be my job, not his. And I'm sorry I said your knickers were boring. They're not boring because they're yours and you couldn't possibly be boring to me."

He really had no idea why he brought up her knickers and he flushed a little at the realization. He'd be bloody well surprised if she understood any of that, but there was little he could do about it. He'd never been this confused or flustered around anyone before and he didn't exactly know how to handle it.

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mynameismandy
2011-06-18 06:24 am UTC (link)

Mandy turned around, listening to him ramble on. Go back to Davies? What on earth was he talking about? She was so confused by everything. This was why she'd never gotten involved with Gryffindors. Ken being the exception but he was surprisingly simple. Ravenclaw's were straight forward and logical. Most of them anyway. Mandy and Roger had been over for ages so she really hadn't a clue as to why he'd think she'd suddenly go running back to him for anything. They were just friends now. Their break-up had been particularly hard for her. She'd loved him, yes and he'd been a lot of her 'firsts' but that was years ago. She'd ended it because of her involvement in the Ring and he was on his way to move up from reserves and be in the public eye and Mandy had needed anonymity.

Holding a potato in her hand, Mandy stared at him, utterly confused. "Roger and I have been over for a long time. We're just friends. I'm not going to run back to anyone. I don't have anyone..." Mandy looked at him, realizing how true her statement was. Most of her friends she kept at arms length and there were very, very few she could go to. Drew was the only one who knew what she was and what she'd done.

"I don't have anyone," she repeated, eyes wide, bottom lip trembling. Merlin. She didn't want to cry. "Except you." And you're all I want.. Mandy ran a hand through her hair, not sure what was going on. She felt distant from him and she wasn't sure if it was because she realized how much she cared for him or if she really was a bit put out. He'd gotten jealous over nothing. The bloke who ran around wearing gifts from his ex and still did things with her on a regular basis. "I'm just... confused, Drew."

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aurorme
2011-06-18 06:47 am UTC (link)

Drew had a million and one things to say, all of them just rolling around inside his head. All it had taken to bring them to a dead stop was Mandy admitting that she was confused. Some people might have been glad to hear that they weren't the only ones experiencing said confusion, but it just created all the more for Drew. What was she confused about? Being with him? His fondness for her? Whether she wanted to do this? There were too many damn options and trying to figure it out for himself wasn't working.

"You're confused about what?" he asked, a part of him terrified to hear the answer. There wasn't a whole lot more he could really do or say. He was fucking floundering and he hated it. He had absolutely no idea what she wanted or what she wanted him to say. He'd tried to get his point across and that had resulted in her being "confused," whatever that meant. He just wished Davies had gone to America a few days sooner. None of this would have even took place.

He wanted to move back to where she was standing, but he couldn't. His feet remained firmly planted where they were. He was just starting to think that maybe it wasn't that she was mad at him. Perhaps she did just want him to stop touching her; to take a few steps back.

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mynameismandy
2011-06-18 07:23 am UTC (link)

She supposed this was it. They were dancing around the entire issue and it was easy to think that maybe she should say something but she was a little afraid to mention it. She stared at the potato in her hand, wondering if she was going to actually get around to making her dinner. She suddenly wasn't so very hungry anymore. "I'm confused about a lot of things," she said, slowly, avoiding meeting his gaze. "I shouldn't be but I am." Biting her bottom lip, Mandy's fingers tapped the edge of the counter, wondering if she should really be broaching any of this.

Though, it was clear they needed to have a conversation about everything that had happened. Rubbing her brow, Mandy looked at him. "There's so much going on and I'm worried about what will happen to you when all of this is over and I'm selfish enough to admit that I don't want to go without you, though." Sighing, Mandy leaned against the counter, not sure what to do now.

Feeling small and somewhat lifeless, she realized that she had little hope left for anything. That any of this could work out after his case was over and all that. He deserved to be with someone who wasn't so... well, criminal. She would never be good enough for him and Geoff already saw that and Alicia didn't like her. Her head hurt. Her hand was sore and now she just wanted to go to bed. With him. She'd made it clear that he was the one she wanted. "It's all very complicated, isn't it?"

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aurorme
2011-06-18 03:00 pm UTC (link)

Drew tried to listen, but it all sounded very final to him. Like she was trying to step back and that was the very last thing he wanted her to do. Moving around the counter, he stopped beside her Reaching out, he took the potato from her and set it on the counter. If she still wanted to make her Shepards pie afterwards, she could. "It doesn't matter if you think your being selfish, because whether or not you want me to be involved in this, I am. I am seeing this through to the end."

Certain parts of this entire situation were complicated. Geoff, Alicia, the Ring, his job, but the one thing he wasn't confused about was Mandy. "This isn't complicated. Not us, anyway. I don't want you to be with anyone else. I want to be the one who gets to be with you. Ali supports my decision and Geoff will get over it. The only thing I'm worried about is losing you."

He seriously hoped she understood what he was trying to say, because if he couldn't explain it to her now, he'd never be able to explain it to her. He didn't have much experience with these sorts of emotions and he didn't know what to do with half of them. "I want to know that it's going to be you curled up beside me at night."

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mynameismandy
2011-06-18 06:38 pm UTC (link)

Mandy really felt out of control of this entire situation. She had no idea what was going on and what they were even talking about anymore. When he stepped towards her, she wanted, more than anything, to just step into his arms and let him hold her forever. She was quiet for a moment, just taking in his scent and the way he could just make her feel safer, better. She bloody just wanted to be with Andrew Kirke. Her fingers gripped the edge of the counter, willing herself to stay in place. She wasn't even sure why she was holding back but she couldn't help but wonder what the end would be. It was hard to focus on anything when he was this close to her.

Frowning, Mandy worried her lower lip as she listened to him, thinking of how lovely it had been to wake up next to him and to have him with her. It was brilliant really. But, part of her felt they needed to take a step back, if only because she'd be going into the Ministry soon and she didn't want him taken off her case because of personal interests. He was really one of the only people she trusted right now.

Maybe taking a step back would be a good thing. She opened her mouth to say just that but instead, found herself stepping int his arms, needing him to just hold her for now. Her arms went around his waist, resting her head against his chest. "This is such a bad idea," she murmured, quietly.

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aurorme
2011-06-18 11:15 pm UTC (link)

Drew was almost certain she was going to back away again and he wasn't sure how he was going to take that. He was preparing himself to take a few steps back himself and just leave. This wasn't like he and Ali, he didn't think he could just be her friend. He was caught off guard for a moment when she actually stepped toward him, her arms around his waist and her head against his chest. Bringing his arms up around her, Drew relaxed a bit. At least for the moment he wasn't being turned away and he could settle for that.

It stung a bit that she didn't seem to thinking being with him was a good idea, but there was little he could do to change her mind. "Being with you was never a bad idea," he responded, determined to not allow her to second guess herself or, to a lesser extent, them. Drew had never been the type to do as he was told and the fact that she didn't think it was a good idea was enough for him to want to prove that it was.

He just held her, his lips pressing a light kiss to her hair. After several long moments, he loosened his hold. "Let me see your wrist," he instructed softly. He should have already done this for her and it was his fault she was still in pain because of it.

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mynameismandy
2011-06-19 11:04 pm UTC (link)

Mandy couldn't remember the last time she'd felt so... right in someone's arms. It scared her but she appreciated the way the feeling and she enjoyed it. She hated that she was feeling dependent on him and it was starting to scare her. But, she was comfortable right where she was happy to be in his arms. Even if it was starting to scared her. The intensity of it and all that. She could feel the heat of his body and Merlin, everything felt so good.

Sighing, Mandy nodded against his chest but she didn't think it'd be a good idea if things went any further between them. At least, right now. This all could damage his career and she didn't want to be the girl who did that. It wouldn't work out well for either of them.

When he pulled back, she held out her hand, slowly unwrapping it. The long burn extended up her palm and across the underside of her wrist. It was angry and red and she wrinkled her nose. "It's getting better," she murmured, eying it.

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aurorme
2011-06-20 03:48 am UTC (link)

Drew took in the sight of the burn. "Christ," he muttered, pulling his wand from his back pocket (a poor place to carry it, he knew). If this was getting better, than he really didn't want to see it when it had happened. It looked awfully painful. Carefully casting a numbing spell on her arm, he proceeded to case a few healing charms, one for quick healing, one for swelling, and one for pain. The area would still be a bit read and tender, but it was much better than it had been. Of course, anything would have been better than it had been.

"Do you have anymore bandages and cream for it?" he asked, raising his eyes to hers again. She should be alright without one, but it would heal better if there was nothing to irritate the skin. He didn't think he'd ever used his first aid training more than when he'd been with her. She was definitely a magnet for trouble. Perhaps that was the reason he found her so addicting. Did he just want to feel needed? It was possible. Geoff, Ali, George, Katie, Cormac, they were all pretty independent. Hell, even his Step-mother hadn't stuck around past his Father's death. It was a definite possibility. Frowning slightly, he forcefully pushed those thoughts away. He didn't want to think about it. Everything seemed to be undermining what he felt for Mandy.

"It shouldn't take too long to heal now," he commented, his eyes moving to the bruise on her forehead. "And a bit of bruise cream for that should have it faded in a few days."

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mynameismandy
2011-06-21 08:45 am UTC (link)

Mandy watched him bandage and fix her wrist, glad that one of them knew a little about healing charms and the like. She could whip up salves and potions but she had never learned healing charms. At this rate, she was most certainly going to need to. When he was finished, Mandy smiled up at him, stepping back into his arms, just wanting to be right there with him. Sighing, softly, she never wanted to move. Merlin. He was just so wonderful and he'd always been there for her. It was amazingly comfortable and even with the tension between them? Well, she didn't have anyone else. He was the only one who knew everything about her.

"Stay with me tonight," she murmured against his chest, not wanting him to leave. Pulling back, she looked up at him, brow furrowed. She'd made a decision earlier in the day and had decided that she was ready. She needed to get into the Ministry and tell them everything.

"I'm ready to go in," she said, softly. "To the Ministry and make my statement and tell them everything." She didn't know what this would mean or what she'd end up having to do but she knew that if she didn't get on with it? She'd never get the normal life she craved. She wanted it desperately and she wanted it with Drew. He head to be a part of it. It was a must.

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aurorme
2011-06-21 08:58 am UTC (link)

His arms came back up around her when she moved back to him. He was still a bit concerned about her injuries, but the ones he knew about were on the mend and that was all he could really hope for. Drew wasn't quite ready to loosen his hold when she stepped back but he did none the less. Reaching up, he brushed her hair back with a nod. Part of him just wanted to keep her here, away from the Ministry, away from the ring, away from anybody who wanted to hurt her. It was ridiculous, really. He knew nothing was going to change unless they finished the job. He wasn't going to be allowed to be with her if it wasn't done.

"Okay," he nodded, worried about the outcome of all of this. All he could really do was hope for them to see sense. He knew Mandy hadn't been lying to him. His involvement with her would tarnish his word, but there was no way he could fool truth serum. Not the dosage they gave you for questioning. He didn't have anything to hide and neither did she.

His hand moved to rest on the side of her neck, his thumb brushing over her warm skin. Leaning forward, he kissed her softly, wondering what it was she was thinking. "I'll let them know and I'll go with you." Normally, they weren't involved in the questioning. They had every right to as it was their case, but normally they let the department assign someone. In this case, however, he was going to be there for every damn word of it.

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mynameismandy
2011-06-21 10:48 pm UTC (link)

Mandy looked up at Drew, meeting his gaze, enjoying the feel of his hands on her neck, caressing her gently. Closing her eyes against his touch, Mandy nodded. She was nervous and scared about going into the Ministry but she didn't have a choice. She wanted to be normal and this, well, after the public scandal and everyone found out what it was she'd been doing, she could start a normal life. She slid her arms around his waist, just needing to be held and comforted. It wasn't hard to find comfort in Drew. He was the first person in a long time to actually give her a chance and she hadn't let anyone in since Roger.

Sighing, Mandy pulled back and gave him a tentative smile. "It'll be fine," she said, reminding herself to owl Geoff. She needed to let him know that she'd be doing this as well. "Come on," she said, pulling him towards the living room. "Go put the game on and I'll start dinner."

She hadn't realized what she said until it was too late. That was possibly the most domestic thing to come out of her mouth ever. Blushing a little she ducked under his arm and pulled an ale out of her fridge and handed it to him. She didn't drink a lot of beer but since her involvement with Drew, she'd kept his favorite around.

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aurorme
2011-06-22 12:42 am UTC (link)

He chuckled under his breath when she tugged him toward the living room with the instructions to turn the game on. It was very domestic and he found he really liked it. He liked the thought that they were comfortable enough around each other for something like that. He was also ridiculously amused that she always seemed to have a few bottles of his favourite ale kicking around her fridge.

Accepting the beer with one hand, he used his free hand to pull her back to him, his lips catching hers in a deep kiss. He really did just love the feel of having her pressed against him. After several long moments, he pulled away. "You're far too adorable for your own good," he chuckled, releasing her and moving into the living room to do as he'd been asked. It took a moment to find the game, but once it was playing on the television, he moved back toward the kitchen.

Whether or not it was his kitchen or hers, she always looked quite at home. He liked watching her cook or bake or brew. It was comforting just watching her. "Did you need any help?" he asked, leaning against the door frame. He might not like to cook, but he wasn't completely useless in the kitchen. He did get tired of Chinese food from time to time.

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